tiredness sets in

yesterday's cage was pretty good. ended up with a trio of malay dudes who were quite good.

not that i did much, but i was still very much tired after along with a sore left ankle =/ came home and konked out from 6-9 woke up for dinner, packed the house a lil before feeling extremely tired ard 12. proceeded to try to sleep but couldn't.

sucks.

the feeling of tiredness but not being able to sleep. konked out at ard 3 in the end. had to wake up at 8 to bring stuff out to give to the recycling company. then konked out till 12. lols.

well at least i didn't follow up with my sleep plan of sleeping at 9 on sunday and waking at 7pm on monday =p


weather looks like its gonna rain and another good day to sleep in. but i've got work to do!

sucks.


btw..this is post #350! yay!

Dies ist gutes Bier!

10 points to whoever guesses what that means. (jq is banned from trying ;)


anyways check out brotzeit (@ vivocity) when/while you can. food is good, the fluids are fantastic. had the original munich lager, dunkles (dark), and a sampler of their salvador.

each different and unique :)

D? N!

to the clueless, D = Drive, N = Neutral

so in addition to yesterday's post, Danny went down from JQ's place in N. and we managed to hit the main rd! thats a 1000 kudos points to Danny!

where logic does not always pay off

had a yf bbq thingy tonight, went early to start the fire.

opened the larger 6kg pack of charcoal and proceeded to start the fire. only problem is, they were all small bits and chips. any how the fire did get started though it was a lil low.

then i opened the smaller 4 kg pack and lo, and behold. all the charcoal in that pack were large ones =.=

what logic is that lah?!


anyways, bbq went great from the bbq end, didn't really eat anything from the tables, actually didn't really eat much. just 2 wings, 2 satays, 1/2 a fish, some bits of the sambal jacket, quite a few otahs and 2-3 sausages. guess its the smell that kills the hunger.

table tennis after that was great. should look into changing the rubber for my own bat from pimpled to a standard rubber. have to work on that backhand ;)

seem to be playing more table tennis, i do get a good sweat out of it and i like the quick pace of the game. hmmm alternative exercise option! :D

boredom

worked at century on sunday with sebas. first time officially. had to rush off though cuz of a family dinner and that the night dude was late. had a lil scare during dinner when sebas called to say that there was 20 bucks missing from the drawer =.=

turned out to be a miscalculation but that is way too common over there. really contemplating doing that for a month. like what if it keeps happening?!

dinner was alright, some place at kitchener road. going to my aunt's place wasn't. for those who wish what it is to travel in india, just head to the backlanes near mustapha centre. whole friggin place full of them. no respect for traffic either. lost count of how many times my cousin had to horn them to get out of the way. i would have bet joseph would just run them down.

mahjonged the whole night and watch spurs surrender a 2 goal lead to chelski. makes me think, spurs have now scored 7 goals and conceeded 6 goals in 2 away games. heard someone made a big score on 6 goals. eventually slept at 4 and woke up at like close 1. headed to century to meet sebas to collect my pay then home and to Jq's to table tennis till 11. reached home and konked. so i woke up at 11 =P

just noticed that the rain (which is pouring) is coming in at 45 deg angle. wow. boredom is settling in. i should go curl up again and nap *yawnz*

running in circles

crap. i have to wait 1 month and 3 days to get my phone at the 21 month price. -_-

have to hunt for another decent phone..!

might be getting a job from apr-may, crappy pay, crappy place, crappy job but errr...at least some inflow. think 20 days, $40/day.

otherwise, working as a lab rat would be good too..

1.9k, 4 weekends (book-in fri night, book-out sun aft), 4 drugs to test.


which would make a smarter choice?

proh-kras-tuh-neyt

no prizes for guessing what that is. or what it means. points will be given though (not like the points matter ;)

watched Out of Order with my mei. Brit comedy play, very interesting about a JMP (junior minister of parliment), his PPS (parliment personal secretary), his affair with the secretary of the opposition, an angry husband, a detective who goes down too easily, a very inquisitive hotel manager and an oppportunistic waiter. quite a barrel of laughs (:

so thanks for asking me to go, i enjoyed it! (:

when i first decided to go, i was thinking it might be a bit out of my league and understanding, but well it wasn't too bad. haha..well it wasn't my first taste with plays but this one was rather light-hearted and entertaining. its on now till sunday at the DBS Arts Centre and tickets are available from SISTIC.

had dinner at the bak kut teh store at the corner very near to mohd sultan. was quite good, like how it used to be 2+ years back. drinks with the guys later and now home and knowing i have to sleep but somehow putting it off again.

semi long day tmrw. thinking abt working at the pool hall where i play at, in the day. have to think about it this week and then i want a new phone! my dopod's down *koff*koff*hint*koff*koff* and even my trusty n6100 is starting to fail me! noooooooo!

a n73me would be nice ;)

man u for the title!

Heh still fatigued from the soccer, and i'll hand over the birthday torch to lisa in 2 mins..

and yes..what a "birthday gift" from man u! hehehe! 1-0 at anfield, thanks to an o'shea (of all people) goal in stoppage time..

great stuff..!


thanks its been a fun and interesting day ;) cya all in a bit!

*pant* ACROSS!!! *pant*

oh boy. do i feel old! my legs agree with me and they say, they feel 10 years older =/

the Grand Plan being completed, kudos to the drivers, joseph, jeremiah, danny, freddy! Thanks for allowing me the "use" of your cars to get everyone there and most back. Thanks to all who made it, adrian, kai (hope you two get better soon! meet on the pitch someday soon! ;), ben, jq, chan, elliot, haogen, zhuang, tian lang & friends (bryan, samuel, tianyu (?) and that big dude-sorry didn't get your name *grinz*), lian yi, lian kuang and the above-mentioned drivers.

i hope you guys had a great game and a great time :) i know i did! amidst a lil heated challenges beautiful football and excellent goals were scored.. thank you for all your time and energy. hahaha..i totally ran myself dry, feet refused to respond the brain's prompting to run for that ball which seemed to run so fast tonight (or rather this morning)


in retrospect, i enjoyed organizing as well as being part of this plan ;) as an average soccer player (and photographer, and pool player, and friend, and person) it really  felt like a dream to play amongst friends and everyone having a good time, and feeling that youth again ;)

thank you all once again. it has been a morning to remember! =p

*toy alert*

Heh. got my nice new 15 pointer Mike Bender from the customs today, thanks sebas for printing and accompanying me :)





if you see this pic, its actually 5 ebony points recut into 5 maple points and then finally recut into 5 ebony points, making it 15 points in total! (:






here's the link to the album: Mike Bender 15 Point Ebony into Birdseye Maple


on other notes, lugging a camera, a case with 4 cues and a folder will definitely give you a back or shoulder ache (which i'm experiencing now)

the new cue plays real nice, a lil light but its ok so far, will tell you in a month if its a keeper ;) took another set of cues for someone:






let me how i did in all the photos and in my album. criticsm is definitely welcome!

oh yes, the birthday plan is on!

WHEN: 03 March 2007, 0100-0300 hrs
WHAT: Soccer
WHERE: The Cage
HOW: get your own transport, drive or car pool. let me know if you need a ride or if you can give others a ride. i'll do the arrangements.
WHY: cuz i just so wanna play soccer on my birthday ;)

oh why won't the rain stop...

quite eventful 3 days (:

monday -
actually it starts on sunday night when i watched chelski STEAL a victory from arsenal's grasp in the league cup. a rise of a wonderkid, a blatant offside goal, a bad kick to terry's face (which left him unconscious and very nearly killed him), a great goal (by the one who scored that offside goal) and a bad brawl is how i sum up the match.

my goodness, i almost thot terry would have died after that full blooded kick from diaby. complete accident of course. but utterly scary.

had a couple of drinks and table tennis in the wee hours of the morning with jon and jq. played fairly well heh. 11-1 jon! =p *does "danny stare"*

woke up really really late like at 12. rushed down to klassic to meet the Chinaman, YH and took pictures of his cues so far, an 8 pointer James White, 9 pointer Franklin-era Southwest and a Cosnogcenti. beautiful cues (:

made my way to qshop, hung ard and took photos of an Omen plain jane and then basically chilled out and ate the taipoica chips there =p before deciding to go for basketball at aycc, met magdalene on my way there (she was on her way to NUH)

haha the bus i was on was like breaking down, so the bus driver took out the number plate on the front and sides! win! express service heh =p

tuesday -
resolved to wake up earlier but ended up procrasinating my hair cut and photo for my admission forms, ended up going to qshop ard 5 and hanging out there till 8 and back to century to shoot a few racks with jo and jere. had quite a bit of mind, so pool was a pleasant but insufficient distraction.

witnessed 3 fender benders through the day, one on my way to the shop, one near the shop and one on my way to century. sheesh. i was jokin with lisa that i should walk home so i wouldn't be in one then.

wednesday -
electricians and carpenters came by in the morning to fix up the loose ends and the new lighting! 95% done. left with the painters on the 8th of march to finish up. new lights are pretty (: glad i have better taste than my designer =p hahahaha!
and it rained the entire day! met gee and headed to century for a couple of sets, won 7-6, 6-7, 7-4 for a 2-1 victory. ok lah both of us were shooting quite off, he was rusty, i was erm...distracted. since i thot bball was off, played a set with sebas (won 7-5 but i didn't really play well lah) and then headed to jq's to play table tennis. didn't get to repeat monday morning's domination =p (perhaps chem A does help ;)

ok two incidents that pissed me off today, i was waiting for a cab and it was raining. i saw this woman who was flaggin cabs down but they didn't wanna take her fare (dunno why) and then she would step back into the shelter and wait till the next wave of cabs came. normally i would give whoever is there earlier the cab, but since she didn't want to wait for it in the rain and kept going back i decided to just stand there. when i got the first cab, she literally jumped up behind me and said, "excuse me, but i came first." jumped into the cab and drove off. the hell man. you want the cab, you stand in the rain for it.

then JUST NOW my half-wit, brainless neighbour comes over and knocks on my door demanding that something from my house woke him up. when asked what it was, he said "i dunno" geez he couldn't open his windows to find out something downstairs was making that noise. but just pinned blame on us. get a life dude.

btw...have to make an insanely long trip to paya lebar to collect my cue becuz the company refinishing it forgot to follow my instructions =/

owells hopefully pictures come out tmrw!

OH AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT THE PLAN FOR THE CAGE ON MY BIRTHDAY CONTACT ME!

crapcrapcrap

soccer today was bad. losing 10-2 even in an exhibition was just no reason for a bad perfomance.

no squad discipline at all, we were all over the place.

my ankles feel like they are 33 years old. old and wearing out.


anyways, some people need to remember its not that easy to organize an event, let alone a last minute one. murmuring and complaining really does NOT go easy on the ears esp if that person has put it effort to run it well.

in short, if you think you can do better, why not volunteer to do it in the first place instead of complaining?

the CAGE again

went down today and had a blast, except for the part where i twisted my ankle while trying to cross and it got caught on the netting.

not bad, nice touches, great teammates heh. got winded by my own teammate in the end too. took a ball into the chest..ouch.


this weak old body is not meant for crazy stuff anymore :(

feeling old.. body dying

heh ever felt so out of breath? I did and after two solid games. Was playing @ the CAGE with sheva and friends, came in one game and was so "zhuan" (out of breath) by the 3rd game. maybe i've gotta lay off the lunch or push it back heh.

apart from that soccer @ the CAGE was quite fun. played overally well and topped off with a goal (haha..still can't beat sat's tally of 8?)

anyways, decided to do something a lil crazy and go for basketball that evening as well. Paid the price on thurs morning, waking up like a bag of bones.

so playing again just a while later @ the CAGE. heh to those who don't know what it is, please go and check it out sometime, http://www.thecage.com.sg

giving away and getting it back

the title is double ended.

well, last night went to play a bit of MJ (as per my mum's side CNY norm, and no i didn't gamble! all i played for was my place on the table) well, as the title goes, i had a decent enough game, my hands were all relatively good and i mean good.. just that i could never win it :(

really! any card i gave away would come back and haunt me like i shouldn't have. and i would only get the card i need, if i threw the connecting card away -_-


apart from that, got back home and a family from church came by to help us with the packing and bringing the boxes from outside the home in. now my living room is full of boxes! gave away abt 9 boxes worth of toys, books and random stuff to the salvation army. thanks Zhuang for the van.

have to shop for lights later and there's soccer at 2am =/ have to catch my sleep here and there again.

of gashes and skin

Soccer today was great apart from the rain which came and went thrice. Played right through it and enjoyed myself though, best moments were before the rain where I somehow managed to "ole" one guy, turn another and slot the ball into the goal :P

the bad moments were actually BEFORE the game. ran to pick up a ball and fell forward onto the drain covers and ground. that makes it twice in 4 days -_-

scratches and small wounds on the left palm and a 3 cm wound on the right. at least now both knees are balanced, hahaha!

apart from that, ain't celebrating CNY this year but well there's quite a lot to do at home. when does (un)packing ever end?!

so to all readers, Happy Chinese New Year!

90% Complete

Here's an update for now.

Carpenters came by the first 3 days to do up all the new furniture and 
cupboards etc.

SO i finally have a new bed to sleep on after "squatting" on 3 chairs to sleep 
every night (looking much like a homeless person sleeping on the benches at the park)

anyways, minor screw-up with the tv/video sigh. so no tv as yet. hopefully it will be fixed soon!



On other notes, YF beat FEBC/Gethsamane at the Lorong Lew Lian Field 3-1! (:

I owe photos and i'm lazy :P

Let me get through the last bit of renovation work before I post them.

If you thought packing was hard, unpacking is actually much much harder!

4th day

4th day of renovations and i can't wait for things to get back to normal. pictures coming soon.

day 1 - removers

heh they basically cleared out the entire house. and my room which was full of trash. I kid you not. 7 black rubbish bags full of rubbish and not counting my bed, 2 set of shelves behind my bed, cupboard,  cabinet, desk and shelf on my desk.

so started the day with everything and rubbish, ended the day with just my window and mattresses.

day 2 - electricians

actually the most slack day so far, except for the power cut when they were doing the wiring, i had pretty much nothing to do.

day 3 - painters pt 1

was quite ok, gave my room and my mum's new colours. it was the after that i got so tired of. had to clean up and wipe down the places they were gonna paint.

day 4 - painters pt 2

finished up the rooms and toilets and started on the living room. must say i did think one of them is more skilled and the other sloppy. alot of areas to clean up -_- like what happened to the good idea of using masking tape so you wouldn't overpaint?

the main wall isn't done, put 2 coats of red but it didn't go very nice. looks set of a 3rd coat after the carpenters are done.

well so far its progressing fairly well. still a few kinks here and there to iron out. haha..i wonder what would happen on day 5 when we have to move the contents of the two rooms out into the living room, they are currently full of the stuff from the living room. and yes, the kitchens have more boxes than i ever remember seeing in my home.

next post will be pics and an exclusive on how i sleep in this mess heh.

first day of renovations

arghhss..ever spent the entire night packing?

well i did. and I never knew that I had that much junk in my room (well i did, but i refuse to acknowledge that it was my junk :p) 

anyways, my room is completely empty now, save for the windows.


and as they were hacking away the cupboards and desk, i was feeling a tad strange, like they were hacking at my childhood. heh. owells.

random selections

Just thot I post some of the better photos i've taken so far, let me know how i do :)
















For more go to Chalk Pics !

been awhile huh?

first post in a long while, guess didn't really have much to say till now.

been out of sorts so far this year, lots of new happenings and thought-provoking incidents and well, guess things have changed quite a lot.

let's see where we go from here :)

7671 days and counting...

and still alive (: well if you count that back, you'd prob come up to deduce that 21 years have fully passed.


anyways a quote i found while shopping for a birthday card for my aunt:
"In a perfect world, we would never need to apologize.
We would never speak a thoughtless word...or let each other down or break each other's heart.

Love would conquer all, and happy endings would be a dime a dozen.
But this isn't a perfect world, and sometimes people learn the hard way.

We do things we can't take back, no matter how hard we try.
I'm sorry for causing you so much pain, for giving you a reason to doubt how much I care.
I'm sorry, with all my heart, because I really do care.
- Terry Smith."

3 down/11 more

sorta uneventful day. i still don't like mondays much.

and i haven't heard from you in a week. i just wonder when i might. you could say that in i miss you.

sighh =/

feels like i've been in camp for 2 days.
1 down, 13 to go.


anyways, just out of novelty:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=joel`

so low.

in response to yesterday's post.

i'm now on 14 working days extra which means from today till march 9th i will only be able to book out after 2300hrs.

well done. and thank you, ass hole sir.





the feeling sinking in is as low as i can remember. and yeah talk about having birthdays in camp, alone, nice.

the calm before the storm

did i mention in my previous posts how busy in camp i was, well apart from yesterday, the entire week/month (or rather two months) have been just running from place to place doing various sorts of rubbish.

today on office duty, there was another screw-up. one that i would have never have done if not for the 'helpfulness' of a colleague. see, at the end of the day we lock up everything, doors, drawers, cupboards etc. so heres how it goes, my colleague has a meeting that ends late, so i keep the office open for him, he changes and while he is doing that i leave the room key in the door lock so that he can help me lock up after he is done while i lock up the other rooms. so assuming he has, i take my leave only to have my s3 (who is on duty) call up my ops wo who calls up my ops spec who calls me up to ask why i didn't lock up properly. i get screwed ard by my ops wo till i get to the part abt my colleague and then he tells me "ummm..like that ah."

thing is, my colleague happily changed, walked out and closed the door without locking it, so leaving the key where i left it, in the door lock. if it were me, i would prob just take the initiative and just lock it up since i'm the last to use the room, but i forget, its not me.

so with some luck, i'll just get screwd by my s3 tmrw, if i'm lucky, a serious reprimand, if i'm not, prob just extra duties. and i have just one guy to thank.


so the moral of the above f.stupid story is that if you depend on people, the one who gets screwed in the end is you.

first times.

well first time in 21.917 years ain't exactly a world record rite?

haha.. but well (:

i hope you liked it.

army = inequality?

getting 3 extra for being late when you're on office duty is fair, then when someone else does it and gets away with it without anything, what would you think?

stuck in office while that person is out there playing soccer is ridiculous when you're not on duty. i'm not even pretending that i'm pissed by that. its really too much.

what a 'great' start to the day huh?

need for speed

go-karting's really really fun. should head down to jb, perma jaya to do it more.

except for the bruised shoulderblade, i should be fine (; think all the swinging ard did me in. but the adrenaline rush is fantastic! ok so i'm not the best or fastest driver but on the track, who cares as long as you are having fun?

haha..skidded twice (once to avoid crashing with my friend, another while attempting too tight a turn) but kept the foot down on the gas, rewarded with sand in face and one heck of a ride (:

food was great and quite cheap too. so maybe jb outings might become more regular heh. and yes i'm putting on weight lol.

the stuff you can both laugh and cringe at

well..if getting my Ops WO to actually choke on his drink with a sentence like, "thats like, taking advantage of me lah!"

oh and i got a nice spray of coke from him too. hurhur..

anyways really overworked. 3 special projects, my own work is piling up and there's so much other shit to do as well. gee.

wow.

i'm amazed at how crazy things can get.
2 hours of sleep
1 full soccer match
13 hours of competition pool
4th placed finish

thank God for it all!

also thank God for the wonderful weather and gracious opponents and for a chance to fellowship with brethen through soccer. although we tried out best ( i still believe we can do better) they played better (:
thanks to the organizer, danny, the supporters and FEBC and all who played.



i'm also amazed at how lame and childish some ppl can get. i'm sure there'll be a tag about it on my tagboard by him/her/it.

02/02 must be Murphy's Day

hmmmm..firstly, how i did forget to bring my boots to camp then the wild "celebrations" of my colleagues at my mistake. sheesh. its bad enough as it is.

then nearly no being able to leave for my medical appointment cuz my as1 decided to play dumb to my requests. sheesh.

then i thot everything would be better on my way back, well it was till i decided to get a lil bit of pool. everything went wrong again. *rollseyes

then the bus driver of one of the tibs buses came up to me and angrily demanded i re-tap my ezlink (which i sorta suspectd that i didn't tap, but didn't really care cuz i was on a bus stamp) like where's the so-called good service?! sheesh. like as if i really wanted to cheat TIBS or the bus driver of that few cents. my goodness.


well the only good thing to come out so far is that danny managed to get the police academy field so the match is on. and yes team manager can also be quite stressful.

mia-ness

hmmm its been awhile since i've updated. its the same i guess, everytime i get to my blog i just forget everything i wanted to say.

today's just another of those days.

anyways i guess i should be contented a lil. 3 break clears in 2 weeks is still 3 break clears. and sarah's becoming a pool addict ;)

no, my room's a warzone and its like my blog. i just don't feel like doing anything abt it even though i so want to. sighh =/

how fridays should (not) be spent

well packin and loadin and unpackin and unloadin stores should NOT be the way to spend a friday.

but...


riding on the back of a 5-tonner travelling along the ECP at 55km/h, eating Changi Village nasi lemak, taking in the view of the sea and listening to your fav tunes in your iPod... thats the way to be spending your friday (:

Blessed New Year!

To anyone reading this,

want to wish you a Blessed New Year (:

had another post but i'm still writing it. will release it when i'm done.

and like wow two years and running..

blessed Christmas

yeap its that time of the year again..

may you have a blessed Christmas and may the spirit of giving, love, joy and peace be in your hearts and lives always. God bless!


btw, sarah (: blessed birthday too!
and to those who are gettin baptized tmrw, count it a double blessing!

tired - part 2

haiz..

gee i guess some pple just don't get a break don't they?

like just an hour into my duty, (which so happened when the csm wasn't ard so i could get some much needed rest,) i was summoned back to the bde office and given instructions to go to plc to lay phone lines for their exercise. wow. -_-!zzZ

so off i went with another of my colleagues and it was a waste of time. left office ard 9plus got there by 10 and then after that proceeded to sit there, have lunch, and wait till 2pm when we finally got to work. bad part abt that waiting ard was that we couldn't sleep as it is an open area. wouldn't have minded the trip and time wasting if i could catch some sleep.

anyways laying the line was alright la. wasn't as difficult nor as fun as i expected heh. that done, went back to camp, took over my duty and thank God (as everytime on duty) it was uneventful. however, didn't really get to sleep till it was abt 12 so i guess it was just 6 hrs of sleep.

proceeded to cancel my physio (actually i haven't but they were too busy to take my call to reschedule..TWICE) as my rsm did say he wanted me and another guy to go down again. ended up not going so i started on this "big" project, which was a photo montage for the outgoing formation commander. one of my colleagues (who's good at photoshop and photography) was like telling me to not do such a good job so that they'll pick his. *rolls eyes* thing is i saw his design today and my only comment is, good photographer, good photoshop-er, but er..bad designer. really bad.

i don't really care if i'm a noob photoshop-er but i think i did a better job (not bragging) but throwing photos on a brown-lined textured background ain't exactly interesting or pretty to look at. anyhows i have come to the conclusion that i'll just do whatever i think is best and leave it to the committee to decide.

anyway for the record, this week i prob had the least amt of sleep..
sunday - 5 hrs, monday - 6 hrs, tuesday - 4 hrs, wednesday - 6 hours, thursday - 3 hours, friday - (prob) 6 hrs, saturday - (prob) 6 hrs. total = 36 hours over 7 days. zzz!

tired - part 1

counting tmrw would be 3 24 hour duties in 8 days.
yes it could be worse like 3 in 5 days..

my upperstudy is USELESS. bloody *@($!# thinks he's my "supervisor". he's only a freakin lcp and he tells me i have to do his work. friggin son of a (#$*%. supposed to hand over dockets on fri and what the friggin hell was he doing? typing his damn resume while i was doing a home visit with my as1. then monday and i was on duty the whole freaking day and he was still doing his resume and chatting on msn. and when i asked him what he did on monday, he told me, "yeah i did some work." yeah rite. i bet the only work he did is to take down the NSmen's name/ic/number on some paper and leave it somewhere and forget abt it. and today? right after i came back from handing over duty, he was rushing to get the dockets to the medical centre for a FFI that was on-going that morning. looked so flustered and worried that he couldn't find them. no brainer. when 2/3 of them were in the medical centre already and he didn't bother to look in the handing/taking-over file. maybe he doesn't even realise it exists. then he tells me, "eh what are you doing? thot you would have prepared already on fri? i'm not supposed to be doing that anymore, i'm supposed to supervise you." F*@$ you! the only pple who are fit to supervise me is my as1, my chief clerk, my rsm and prob my s3. 1.5 hrs canteen breaks and sitting in front of the i-net com and typing his damn resume, which so happens to read like, "i work well with people, and am willing to work hard." maybe it should read "i don't work well with people, and am willing to make others work hard, while i supervise."
well it could be worse. but i would hate to have today's DO and duty clerk to do an incident report and follow-up on someone being sent to hospital after getting beaten up.

then to top it off, tonight headed down to century to talk to a couple of guys abt joining the tourney on sat, then ended up having dinner. then got a bit delayed and sidetracked and then it had to rain at that moment when i decided to leave. so waited till it was abt a drizzle and then one of the customers had to have her phone stolen by some kids or so we think. so all the regulars got "mobilized" to help find it. sheesh. short story, we searched and couldn't find it but well high chance its gotta do with those kids. well police came, took statements, still taking statements when i left ard 12.15am -_-
and yes sarah..what were you doing out so late? heh.

anyways "tired - part 2" should be out on thurs/fri if time/energy permits.

wow just when you thot it wouldn't be busy.

its wierd that when no one is ard that you will seem to be busiest. crzy i tell you.

so lets look at the forecast of events for week 48 starting: Nov 27 to Dec 3:

Nov 27: book in late to camp to prepare for deployment of marshallers on the 28th
Nov 28: deploy and ensure everything is set up by 0715. this is later followed by 1 x 24 hour ops duty.
Nov 29: finish duty and resume office work. Oh yes, NSmen FFI screening. yes, that is the only 'free' day.
Nov 30: another 1 x 24 hour ops duty. zzz. oh and NSmen medical review too. time to use the clone machine for a bit.
Dec 1: finish duty, back to office. Grandfather's birthday at night, i'll prob end up sleeping there.
Dec 2: just the day i thot i would have nothing. considering that i would have not much sleep over the few days, there's still the draw for the tourney to do. shouldn't be too hard.
Dec 3: chalk! "fun" 9 ball tourney *nods* 1200-2200 *GAHHHHHHHHHHH*

forgot to add, when those times i think i will be free, i might just get attached out to high command of EX switchblade, meaning irregular hours. to add on to that, i have to do a montage for the Change-of-Command for Comd Tradoc to be finished in 2 weeks. and no, i didn't volunteer for that.


the good part about all this is: if everything's done well and properly, i should have a lot of days off, but no time to clear it. ain't life grand?

wierd huh?

I had this strange dream last nite. A dream i could not shake off even after i have woken up.

It begins on my way out from church, walking to an unrevealed destination. Why would i be on the other side of the road (going towards Jurong) under the fly-over near my church, i do not know. My laces kept coming untied and i hate to stop every few paces to tie them. Sounds nonesensical, rite? Here's when it gets bizarre. I spot a 10ct coin on the ground, proceed to pick it up and then spot a $1 coin slightly behind that. As i pick them up, i spot yet another and another and another, and i just keep picking them up. Some stuck in the ground, so i had to dig a lil. Motorists gave me curious stares, as they spot a young man kneeling, diggin at the ground. I just ignored them as they zip by. I had a large pile of coins when i dig and see this thing which is not a coin. I continue to dig around it and suddenly i stop. I realise what it is. Its a skeletal hand and then i start to see the rest of the outline of the skeleton. After this, the rest just simply doesn't connect.

I dunno what this means nor what it is trying but it has kept me thinking. My dad might be asked to retire soon, and if not for his govt job, his medical bills would have been un-manageable. Thank God for seeing us through thus far but i have to think abt the future a lil. Without the medical benefits, i dunno how it'll turn out. So i'm thinking of getting a part-time job. Work 4-5 days a week to bring in some extra money to help out at home. I'm no longer a child and can't say that it is not for me to provide. So if you have any ideas for jobs i could take up, please do tell me. I'd be willing to hear you out. Thanks.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.
Afraid of falling.
Falling so many times.
Times i bleed my heart out.
Out there where people see me not.
Not my will, but Thine.


you know the song, "Did you ever talk to God above?"

someday, God willing, that prayer would be answered.

till then.

nanonanonanonano....wheeeeeeeeeeee

yeah... (:

nano today, capone next month?

what happened during duty

well..i caught a couple of productions from Dream-works (pun intended) while on duty heh.

*plays the Star Wars theme in the background*

they were:
Part 1: The Dream Menace
Part 2: Attack of the ZZ Monsters
Part 3: Revenge of the Sleep
Part 4: A New Awakening
Part 5: The ZZ Monsters Strike Back
Part 6: The Return of the Sheep



lol...! =D

serving the nation on duty..

well tmrw or rather today or rather later, i'll be back in camp to do my monthly regimental duties. kind of sucky, ya? sighh owells..can't really be helped. anyways my plan was and is:
1930-0100: pool
0100-0300: supper/friends
0300-0400: packing up
0400-0530: games/tv/net
0530-0630: nap
0630-0730: breakfast/go to camp
0750-0800: take over duty
0800-1130: zzz
1130-1200: lunch
1200-1630: zzz
1630-1700: dinner
1700-0800(mon): zzz

hahaha..please please let there be no calls and no one sent to hospital so i can sleep :P btw..if you guys see any good shows on tv, tell me so i can watch and if you're bored and lonely, calling me would also be fine. butbutbut plsplspls don't rub it in thanks ^^

oh ya and i'm on amber alert too -.- *which means if there's a mobilization, i will need to be back in camp in an hour (which i will already be) and start calling NSmen to go to their mob centres.

GOOoooaaallllll.....!

played soccer this evening with those old guys again..

guess we didn't really get off to a good start getting knocked out twice very early. guess we weren't that used to each other's game and stuff. then we sorta discussed what we would do and where we went wrong and guess it must have worked..we won like 5 in a row (:

then our young legs gave way (actually not very young, i have a torn ankle ligament, terence-my as1 had prob sth do with his ankle as well, and brandon-my ops spec has/had back problems, my ops clerk had a knee op) and we bowed out graciously. quite pleased la..scored think twice through out that run of games (: prob assisted a few and definitely made a couple of saves.

well..think i need to train up kenneth haha..i wanna play upfront and well i'm no longer the keepr i was in sec sch leh (boy that was a long time ago.. sheesh!)

and yes i still think of playing soccer 5 times a week :P

blehh

played one of the worst games of pool in a looonng looonnnggg time. excuses i could give were probably not used to my cue, too dim, too little practice and i boil down to the only other logical reason, i'm not good enough ):

sighhh

chalk! 2nd tournament

me and my guys are running our 2nd chalk! tournament on the 4th and 5th of Nov. Details are at the chalk! website (available from the "chalk!" word at my aboutme or here. if you've got any queries, feel free to ask! thanks!

and p comes before q!

yes sarah, at least you got it after some time. i tell you army dulls the mind..told my campmates and most of them didn't get it la. =/ toots.

yay! tennis today was quite fun, though its quite hard to teach when i'm like so lousy. well at least two things came out of that. 1) i think everyone had some fun at least, 2) we got to play soccer with some old men. hahaha..we were like leaving then i was like asking my friends, "eh want anot? just ask lah, no harm..!"

so we got to play like 2 games with them, first one we totally were all over them, but the second..well, i think they knew how to control the game and we were all so tired by then lol. yes, we got owned but i think we played well :P got an invite to come down every wed to play with them, which i would prob do from now heh. think have to tape + ankle guard my ankle haha..will play like max of 5 times in a week lo.

and yes, p comes before q like i before u! :P

a note for some "duh" people.

if i block you from my msn, what the hell has it got to do with you? my msn or yours?

grow up.

silly notes of life in the army

like duh?



this one's better. "weak lamp posts" ROFL! :D

hungry cats in camp

yeap you got the title right. see, when i was having ICT on friday and looking after the food for the NSmen, there was this cat which snuggled up to me. guessing it was hungry and stuff heh. was kinda docile (right word?) too. here's some pics:




and then today while having lunch there was another one and boy was it hungry..










































check out the claws! *gasps*


and in (less) hungrier times (:

if i'm not alone, why do i feel so lonely?

i think i live in a world of pain. physical-emotional pain. maybe its what keeps me going, maybe its what keeps me awake and aware, maybe its just there. maybe.

good news is that i don't have to take ippt anymore. bad news is that its because i've somehow managed to tear both ankles' ligaments. prob a minor tear but bad enough to give me pain. and really i have had no idea why its like that or how long it has been or what caused it, i'll just take it along as i go.

counting back 6 months ago. i guess things are completely different. back then, i was just looking forward to turning 21 and then right after that, i guess things really move along differently. back then i had many more friends or 'friends' then i do now. back then i believed in a lot more things then i do now. back then i guess i was more foolish then i am now. back then was in the past, i'm living in the present now.

maybe its a set (and sad) formula, that you have friends = you are popular + life is blessed. and maybe if you choose to follow your dreams, dreams = -ve friends - populuar - blessed. is it always true? maybe if you add success + dreams = many more friends + more popular + more blessed. well it seems to me its true, not ranting or anything but it only feels so superficial to me.

4 mths ago i embarked on a path that certain pple were not happy nor comfortable with. many have asked, 'whats wrong with you?' or 'its bad' or 'you had better stop' but no, i persevered on. i still stand firm on that. its never wrong to chase your dreams, your ideals but never lose hold on your beliefs. you can compromise on your work, you can compromise on your time, you can compromise on your rewards but never compromise the very essence of your beliefs.

i'm sad at times when i think about these things, to think abt just giving up when it gets tough, but then i realise that if i do, i'm just bowing to 'popular' pressure. i don't have to be like anyone, i am myself and there isn't another me. i want to hold my head high and say, thank God for giving me enough. enough to fulfil the path You've chosen for me. not too much that i may think it comes from me nor too little that i fail to see Your providence. but enough.

i'm not alone, but sometimes it feels that lonely. maybe its the weather, cold/chilly/rainy that reflects my thoughts. maybe i'm just thinking more and looking less. maybe its just me. maybe.

eeeshh outrunned........by a pretty girl!

for all those in NS and in Singapore. yes, AHM was yesterday. felt i wasted my sunday morning on the padang/esplanade/sheares bridge, running when i could have been comfortably tucked in bed sleeping.

so okay no big deal, its all part of serving your nation. i mean like walking 6km shouldn't be a big problem..ha! then the problem arises when everyone ard you starts running. -_-" so you're being overtaken and finally you can't take it and then you run yourself!

ok knowing me and my schedule..i didn't train, nor do i run 6km on a regular basis sooooooooo i'm in trouble. alright the first 1 km was walking (there was hardly any space to run) then the next was spent zipping in and out of pple, the real running came after the turn towards the sheares bridge. somehow in the midst of my zipping-in and out, i ended up behind a pretty girl (who was running more steadily than me -___-") and after pacing her for a bit, overtook her. now usually the case is that after you overtake someone you USUALLY don't see them again on your run. but noooo, she caught up with me somewhere on the descent from the bridge and overtook me, so i was pacing her again and then overtook her and then it was like a you overtake-i chase thing all the way till the turn to padang.

yes and silly me thot once you turn into padang it'll all be over. so only after i turned into that stretch than saw "600M" i basically gave up. hahahaha..while she carried on running. and yeah the whole time i was huffing and panting and dragging myself thru, the way she ran was like effortless la. -_-" sickening.

owells. at the very least i got one day off. quite tired since i went to play soccer in the evening somemore. (sounds like i can go take ippt already) slept 12 hours and gonna cook breakfast soon :P

645i & some other stuff

just had a ride in a friend's 645i with the top down. *beams*

3 break clears in two weeks. last time i bc-ed was almost a year ago.

things have been popping up. thank God (:




and yesh. "in a world where money talks, there is no such thing as free speech."

The Final Analysis

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centred;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of having selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world your best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world your best anyway.


You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anway

this is one quirky look of the recent NKF debate

Warning: You are reading an extremely infantile blog.: NKF vs SPH Court Saga

heh cool link.

lost time.

btw don't ask me what about day 2, i was too tired and busy to write on my trusty palm.

AND those who are into pool should check out my new site, http://chalkbilliards.multiply.com
forgive me its a lil outdated. still trying to catch up with my articles and write-ups. it should catch up to current life within the week! (thanks to being understaffed and overworked)

and yes. thanks for the sms and msns (:

kl day 3

100705 03.39

still approx 400km away
well guess saying that m'sia is some way behind in the pool scene some what sums up the trip. Visited 4 different halls (reviews up soon) and if they keep it up, soon who knows, i might decide to start one up in kl! That's just for thoughts. Anyway, don't want to wake my two sleeping companions (playing two nights in a row till 2plus from 9-10pm and not enough rest is really draining) so i'll write again on the ride back.

1502 STILL approx 400km
on the bus back, waiting for it to move off. Hopefully will be back in time for the WPC finals at 1930. Hope Kuo wins. But kudos to Rodney "Rocket" Morris and Marlon Manaloj they played their heart out but well their taiwanese opponents were just better.

Played 2 great days of pool up here in kl. Learnt a great deal of my game here too. Pity i didn't get to do a lot (other than play pool) but it had been fun to travel, even mimicking the life of a road player.

Besides that, the other reason is that i needa get away from my life back home. I'm too caught up with the nitty-gritty and all the unwanted details and lose focus on my objectives and the reason of my exsistance.

Quite tired already. write when i wake later on.

1711 approx 140km
had quite a good sleep. Was raining while i was. Still kinda lethargic though.

Was wondering, should a Christian ever have stress? Logically speaking, since knowing that God is over all and everything one goes thru is set there by God, whether good or bad. Yet sometimes i find myself complaining. Why?

Though i suppose i don't have the charm of living that "perfect" life with no flaws and hiccups, not being smart and having to deal with various expectations. Why can't one be a God-fearing pool player or run a pool hall? Can one not be a Daniel in Babylon? A white sheep amongst the black? To say, oh that was becuz he was Daniel and a man of God, then am i not a child of God and human like he is?

kl day 1

10.10 - approx26km away
coach ain't too shabby, comfortable but certainly not the shangri-la either. Driver's showing an old james bond movie, "Octopussy" what a name for a movie. And it's lame, the first 5 mins have already convinced me to go to sleep or read.
1) paratroopers do not always carry their chutes with them.
2) you can't possibly fly a plane thru a crowded hangar
3) you don't fill up at your local pump station when your plane's tanks are empty.

Anyway, thank God for keeping me safe thus far. Immigrations was smooth, thank God for that too! (: barely 50km into m'sia. I'll write later.

1950 approx 400km away
it's 10 mins before we're supposed to meet for dinner and the games begin. Afternoon at Pro Billiards quite enlightening.

going the distance... away.

sometimes, when someone does something, there's always some reason for it. It's just that as humans, caught up in our worlds and lives, that we stop caring enough and just point that accusing, or rather, un-understanding finger and judge that they are wrong.

Who gave you that right to judge? Does being rich/going to church more often/being smarter/being more sucessful give you that privilege? Say what you want, call me jealous, whatever. I'm just so sick and tired of living my life based on people's template, especially those who don't deserve to be followed.

If i'm truly in the wrong, show me what is the mistake. Show me that you are deserving of that respect, show me why i have to listen to you. Show me all of that before you try to tell me what's wrong with my life. It has been done before.

Lately, i've been stressed, emotionally and mentally. I've not felt this drained for some period of time. Hopefully, over the next few days and a short trip to KL, should solve that. Thank God for a chance to distance myself from all that is going on. Pray for journey mercies.

the things we say

actual real life conversation,

mother ordering pizza from pizza hut, giving an additional instruction,

M: can you help us cut one of the pizzas into 20 slices?
PH: erm..they all come in 10 slices? why?
M: cuz your knife is sharper
PH: ah? *stunned silence*

me sitting infront listening to the conversation, rolling in laughter :D

stroke

think my stroke is a bit screwed up. i'm quite confused really.

i'll prob have to make up for that by training and pushing myself hard these couple of days when i still can. sigh what great timing huh?

anyways, some of my stuff's, the tip tools and shaft care stuff, coming in 2 days, the rest an It's George case in maybe 102 weeks, and well possibly another custom cue soon. or in planning at least ;)

tired

maybe its cuz i got back and slept about 3.30 last night. maybe cuz i have this lethargy that hangs about me now. maybe its just that i'm sick and tired of sth.

whatever it is, i really don't know why i just left after service and went straight back home. not like i got much rest from lying down for the next 4 hours either.

strange.

Review on the new pool hall

just finished it and its up on the chalk! billiards & co. multiply site

link here Pool Hall: The Labyrinth

currently doing it alone, so if there's anything i can improve on or made a mistake somewhere, please do tell me (:


nites ya'll (:

conceptual thoughts

went down to review The Labyrinth down at middle road and had a talk with one of the bosses. more ideas and facts to think about. helped us with some figures.

review will be out soon on "The Pool Page" which is a site covering the latest in the Singapore pool scene. site is done by me and a couple of guys and we're bringing you news, tips, articles, guides, reviews to the pool halls and hopefully event-coverage in the near future. Currently we have some articles and stuff. Email me if you have any other ideas, comments, suggestions to improve. thanks (:

anyways, been out alot lately, mostly night/afternoon trainings and stuff. still trying hard to find the consistency in my game. been really lacking that. break-cleared in 8 today but game crashed about an hour after that. didn't pick up at all while i was at labyrinth, so i guess its gotta do with mental stamina which i think i really lack. finding it not too easy to keep thoughts, other than potting and placing in my head when i play and get down on a shot.

sigh where will it come from? hehs. tired already. shall go and crash before my mind completely crashes.

Ace > Jack

just like in bridge, an ace is always more highly valued than a jack.

i wonder now why i've so willingy been a jack for so long and never aspired to be an ace.

In bridge, a jack is sometimes used to draw out cards above it. In another words, a bait. It doesn't matter to anyone that that jack was "sacrificed" as long as the end result of a win is achieved.

Also, the term "jack of all trades, master (ace) of none." speaks quite clearly on the fact that being profecient in too many skills, would not enable one to be fully skilled in one specific skill.

The point i'm trying to drive home is that i have never tried to be a master al whatever i was proficient at, whether it was in audio & visual, in gaming, in studies (not that i'm really any good at that,) in human relations, in organization, in pool.

I'm too weighed down by the things of my life to concentrate on one single thing. Take pool as an example, God has graciously given me good eyesight, ball sense and thinking mind. But when, i'm at table, when i get down on a shot, my mind is in a million places. I just don't know why, what and how.

Maybe its time to stop being someone's jack and be my own ace instead.

Your #1 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #2 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

Your #3 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

What's Your Personality Type?

don't ask me why i did that. i just felt like it heh.

invalid angles

haven't really been updating much. seems like i don't really have much to say now. if there's anything i'm still busy with the idea and my training.

spending a lot of time with a certain miss ( ... ... ... via) and consquently getting to know her really well ;) lol. *jokes! don't think dirty you sickminded freakos* =P

consistency is a problem for me now. i guess. i'll shoot great for a rack and die the next. not exactly becoming of a precision player.

anyways those who have experience in publications (eg. magazines), could you mail/sms/call me about the how much cash they need to start one up, procedures etc etc. would greatly appreciate it. :)

btw, if you're in town and very bored and very free and have a mind for visual arts. i think esplanade's a nice place to hang out, even if you don't go to the shows and stuff.

anyway check back in a couple of days, i might have something to add :)

disillusioned into oblivion

some teaser shots

(left to right) nissan silvia s-15, interior, front lights

for the others its at this link (silvia + evo + via)

the rushhhhhhhhh

wowwowowow. the silvia haha blew my socks off again. this time i came prepared. so i've got 3 video clips of launching plus accelerating to about 120-150kmh, shaky though but quite nice. must listen to the sound of the engine *AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH drove me nuts!* :D

btw if you got any prog that can change/invert the video cuz i took it upright (need to rotate it clockwise 45deg to make it more viewable) pass it to me so i can do it asap!

anyways i uploaded the photos and they are in this link (click here!)
also for the entire album of pics, its here (click here!). mainly cue and car pics.

apart from that, my training's going along nicely, learnt a new stroke, and trying to keep it up. quite tiring i must say. today had a race to 13, guard style with galvin and lionel. we gave it up after 36 racks with the scores all tied at 12. by which time, i couldn't even pot and place. too mentally exhausted, shall have to give pool a break for a while.

btw today's date is really nice :) *05-05-05* enjoy (:

ooohh the reply to the dream

anyways mark bear got back to me, says he does 5 floating points or 4 full spliced ones. thing is for the latter its 950 with matching joint, butt rings and 2 shafts. so for the 5 points he might charge thereabouts. worth considering but i've not heard of anyone with one so i could test.

hercek's out of the question, so is bluegrass..the waiting + the price. from someone in the pf forums, a high-end pfd would hit superb but the price might be on the scale of 2k usd so well if i really do want something special i'll have to wait and save up for it (say 2 years?), dayton and gilbert have good resale values and hit not too bad though heard from justin that dayton is not so consistent. thing is, i've been playing more recently in a bid to raise my game since i don't have to worry about my arm anymore (its actually quite theraputic, helping my arm to get the motion back), and the via's actually giving me suprises more and more. benny's been praising it haha..saying that the hits really nice and there's a lot of power in the cue. i couldn't agree more *beams* but well maybe as i improve its a good time to improve along as well but thats for the future..i'm starting to ramble a lil so i'll stop here ;)

cocobolo or rosewood or cored ebony forearm
5 fixed curly maple points 3 veneers (black outer-dark brown, maple) or single veneer-ed floating 5 pointed curly maple floating points [full spliced points]
ivory square blocks bounded by silver rings for ring work at a, b, e (shaft collar, joint collar, buttcap)
tiger or curly maple handle and buttsleeve
white delrin buttcap
full ivory joint
ivory ferrules of 3/4"
2 stiff shafts

hercek (nuts!), pfd (maybe), mark bear (also maybe), via (if there's no one else available and if jackson promises very nice curly maple), paul dayton (haven't seen whether he does), andy gilbert (also dunnoe whether he does)

crazy but what the hell.

double ouch?

lol. i realised how stupid the nurse who pulled my stitches out was. apparently there was another stitch and she completely didn't touch that..thats why she couldn't pull it out. and erm if you're wondering, yup i pulled it out by myself today. didn't really hurt la but like ant biting heh. think the idiot is bit grossed out haha..but owells thats me.

gonna return my library book tmrw haha..reading "band of brothers" by stephen e. ambrose now
(heh watch the show now read the book)

ouchie

got my stitches removed yesterday along with my medical appointment, good news i'm on mc for another 3 weeks. bad news, they were pulling out the stitches from one end again and the string snapped. so i've got part of the stitch in my skin. *shrugs* and yeah it hurt like crazy. silly pple sigh.

went for an interview to be a financial advisor. frankly i donno what i was doing there. pple looking for full time and i'm in ns, the recruiter abit desperate lah i guess. still wasn't a wasted trip i guess, so if any of you out there who wants to earn big money, hardworking, can get along with others and as well as being a natural "seller" of "ideas" (something like persuasive), please do tell me, i can recommend you and help you get a job there. lol..guess now i'm a recruiter too haha..owells.

melancholy

short note since i'm not supposed to be online :P (banned for the night cuz i came back late)

another analogy of mine,
"generally, humans are like cats. we start off as innocent-looking, cute, playful kittens and as we grow older, we become like the matured cats, we are wary, cautious and lose our innocency."

anyways will blog more tmrw..had to do it before i forgot :)

cooped up at home.

yeap! thats me. cooped up at home with nothing to do =/

no real motivation to go out or rather pple haha..uni guys still having exams, well poly pple are done but not many in sight, thanks to attachments and stuff..

at least there's still some of them ard heh (: anyways been staying at home watching "band of brothers", if you haven't caught it or donno what it is, its a 10-episode history movie about Easy Coy in WW2. its really good and i'd recommend it. makes you wonder about the strength of the human spirit sometimes too.

anyways stitches coming out tmrw...*prays for mc extension* haha..ttyl!

locked out..

fantasticale..got locked out due to some strange error. so if you can't see my blog now on firefox haha..go and clear your cookies and cache. then reload my page.

which reminds me. i need a new blogskin. zz shall have to motivate myself to do it..soon! meanwhile i just get stuck to my chair watching band of brothers :)



(ed: erm yeah i realised..if you can't see my blog cuz of the error, you prob won't be able to see what i just posted lol.)

what is the law for?

Evangelist Fred Brown used three images to describe the purpose of the law.

First he likened it to a dentist's little mirror, which he sticks into the patient's mouth. With the mirror he can detect any cavities. But he doesn't drill with it or use it to pull teeth. It can show him the decayed area or other abnormality, but it can't provide the solution.

Brown then drew another analogy. He said that the law is also like a flashlight. If suddenly at night the lights go out, you use it to guide you down the darkened basement stairs to the electrical box. When you point it toward the fuses, it helps you see the one that is burned out. But after you've removed the bad fuse, you don't try to insert the flashlight in its place. You put in a new fuse to restore the electricity.

In his third image, Brown likened the law to a plumbline. When a builder wants to check his work, he uses a weighted string to see if it's true to the vertical. But if he finds that he has made a mistake, he doesn't use the plumbline to correct it. He gets out his hammer and saw.

The law points out the problem of sin; it doesn't provide a solution.
- Fred Brown

got this thru sis eena's daily bible gems, and i thot it really made sense so i'll share it with you pple :)

the arm's still there

haha..just in case you who are sitting behind a computer screen and reading this message, doesn't know, i'm fine.

op was alright..quite smooth in fact, thank God for seeing me thru it :) lots of funny experiences after though..

first it was after they wheeled me to the ward, me having just recovered from ga and stuff, still groggy and blur and very thirsty. see op was at 12, woke up 1st time at 3, ward by 3.30. so basically drifted in and out of dreamless sleep, waking every 30-40 mins. and what was i waking up for? heh..usually there's a bottle/flask/pot of water by your bedside, but they haven't given it to me yet. so i would open my eyes, look for the pot and if it wasn't there, go right back to sleep. so right ard 5, i woke up and it was there! haha...have never felt more motivated to wake up. so i struggled up and stuff (with one arm it ain't no walk in the park), and then i realised..i can't reach it! AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh!! luckily, the bed beside mine had some visitors and one of them helped me with it lol. thanks man! :) so happily gulped down water like free..half an hour and many cups later, i had finished almost the entire pot. HEE HEE!

then for the next wierd thing, my mum really seemed to have a good time, cuz with one good arm its hard to feed yourself =P so she ended up feeding me (dinner, ice cream, lunch) and she enjoyed it la. she said it was sth like a 2nd childhood lol. maybe cuz when i was young (or when you are young) your/my mum would feed us and then we would be naughty and stuff and refuse or take our time haha..but it was quite smooth, actually finished my food in like 15-20 mins flat. partly that the dinner that day was not too bad and that i was uber hungry! :P

next up were the visits by jq, sarah tang, william. lol..they came really really late and after visiting hours too heh. talked, had fun poking fun at others (i think that was only me haha..), and luckily no one thot of attackin me in my vulnerable position :P but yeah it was a good time for me :) thanks for the cheer or i'll so bored whiling my time away in there.

anyways me on mc till the 27th, *prays for extension*

update you all..arm's tired already heh :P

btw westin's msn nick is roflmao, "the new Pope's been chosen from China, and his name is Popiah" then while talking he went that he's got it wrong, it should have been, " the new Pope's been chosen from India, and his name is Popadum"

LOL! rofles! =D

TTSH 140405 1100hrs

yeap. thats my appointment time for my op. should i guess should be ard 12 or 1pm. well..be gone for a day or two heh. update you peeps when i get back. btw..i still want your comments on the two questions, i'll repost them here for you. please please do help me out them heh.

1) what is the most important aspect of a poolhall to you? a) location b) equipment c) ambience d) others? (elaborate)

2) what facilities should a poolhall have?

tennis got cancelled so...

yup..my last chance to play before thurs and it got rained out and played out :P

sooooo..made an about turn and went for rjc's band concert thingy.. thanks aunty margaret for the tix! :)

anyways it was quite good..didn't regret the rush to get to the esplanade on time (i was 3 mins late - you can't believe that it took 14 mins to get to the city area and 9 mins to turn to esplanade) had nice seats, the accoustics in the place were well the best i've heard..however abit of a deadzone ard the front, missed hearing a couple of instruments esp when the entire band was playing (eg see the instrument being played, but miss the sound)

anyways, silly trivial.. the person who plays a flute is a flutist, the one playing the bass a bassist, what about the one playin the oboe?

(answer in comments!)

analogies of a thinking mind.

came up with an analogy of looking at chasing our dreams which is like,
we're commuters and we all have some money in our ez link cards, we can board the mrt train to our desired (dream) destination, but for most of us, it'll cost too much and we can only stand on the inside and can't leave the station. the twist is that some of us will think of ways to get the money to get out and live our dreams and some of us would just take another train and stop at a destination we desire less and have the fare to go out.

interesting way of looking at things rite?

another analogy of lives and trains is this by junhao (one of my soccer mates),

we cannot board the train we want. like there are express trains, short trains and cheaper trains but we experience different things when we board each one. though the time taken may be different, but we learn different things that are valuable to our lives..


some food for thought :)

thoughts running thru my head..

doing a lil thinking and a chasing of a dream. anyway anyone with ideas for a pool hall, could you please step forward and advise :) the advice would be greatly appreciated.

anyway, 2 questions i like to pose to anyone reading and hopefully you could gimme your honest opinions.

1) what is the most important aspect of a poolhall to you? a) location b) equipment c) ambience d) others? (elaborate)
2) what facilities should a poolhall have?

thanks! :)

also anyone who knows anyone or themselves who have experience with people oriented businesses or with starting business, just like to find out more and get your/their opinions and hear about their experiences.

vrooooooommmmm

wow.


one word to describe how i'm feeling now. just "wow." first time i took a ride in a silvia (nissan s-15) and omgomgomgomg the feeling is just incredublous. galvin did like 2 tries at acceleration, first one went to 100km/h in like roughly 5 secs (felt like 3), the second was up to 120km/h in like ard 5-6..the g-force and the thrust were like "wahhhh" i'm having the shakes all over..

the car's pretty (well to me), cept for the spoiler..the car looks like stock but well under that hood..woah..! the interior's like well squeezy but the dash..looks better in the day..cept for the dials which were swweeeeeeeeettt! anyway i'm being promised photos of the now and then the after the makeover ^^

anyway, pool at his place was really good..the cues were all really pretty but i still like my via the best ;) upload the photos when i can..

anyway have fun ya'll for the touch rugby/football tmrw..sian..i'll be stuck in camp, thanks to some contractors who can only come in on fri and sat -___- and being a tss i can only take orders. ah wells at least i get tuesday off if there's any consolation in that. *sigh*

its 2 and i doubt i can sleep after the ride. WOOOOHOOOOOOO!

btw if you see a black nissan silvia with the number plate SFG1551L, wave and drool :P

recce and one word answers

recce today was quite productive. brought back some memories *thoughtful look* and well it was good cuz the ideas were abounding and stuff :) grace bp is a nice place, very home-ish feeling..

and oh ya..i've been arrowed to do games so spare me a thot ya?

anyway today was the sending off dinner for johan, at rocky's and the pizzas good! :) *yum* what was better was the after dinner entertainment i guess, "Wednesday Nite LIVE! with the GTD". started out with grace getting the talk and then to dawn then to michelle and suddenly to me? abit wierd la..but GTD well, he's got a mind of his own. so well describe joel lim (me) in one word and the question went ard the table, SOOooooooooooooOOOooo..according to everyone i'm a "skinny, thrashed, dual (ORIGINAL!), short, *hahahahah*, *shrugs*, faithful, clever, ord-oh" person.

well done! :) alright had a blast tonight..

tiredd...and have to go back to camp tmrw.. *pulls long face*

nice and stupid

there's a fine line between nice and stupid..i think i'm too stupid to be nice =/ or too nicely stupid..whichever.

also i've no affinity with pools. well to cut the long story short, tennis was great..45 mins of good running and smacking balls with jon's new racket (i want!!) and kang's racket and then after we taupok-ed jon heh.

so after being taupok-ed, logically being the birthday boy, we would throw him into the pool. well he got into the pool anyway..even though we promised him dry shoes and socks, he tried to tussle and well his fault anyway..now here's where the fine line comes.

he asks for help to get out of the pool..so as a nice guy, i would give my hand to him to help him up rite? wrong.. i help him up he pulls me in for his 2nd dip and my first. ;__; best la i got wet shoes and socks laaaaa..shirt and shorts i have but shoes..ughhhh!! anyway for the record, he went in a 3rd time. a personal present from me ;)

ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh

don't think i've ever been this sick before. one week throat infection, now today something wrong with my stomach.

woke up this morning with this pain in the left side, had to like take a shit 3 times to clear the pain. but now its like a general pain across the stomach, with the left side still a bit sore. geez dunnoe what could be wrong. cuz the previous two days were like diarrheoa days or sth. wierd feelings then bomb the toilet every 2 hours.

arghhs..anyway, the via i've been waiting for for so long is finally here! heh got it last thurs :) will try to get some photos of it soon. much to lazy and can't seem to find the rite time to get take some of it. but its beeeauutifullllllll! :) plays well too, nice solid hit with no resistance to your stroke..anyway more when i get to know my cue better heh. then comes the big dilenma, p2 or via?

via's here!

haha..my via is here at last! :)


short update..more soon!

waiting...for the floor to dry

heh. :) dad's coming home tmrw! or rather later today..just finished with the mopping..ain't too thorough but i'll do a better one soon next week..this is too rushed..my fault :P

anyways been awhile since i last blogged..got a couple of stuff going on heh. watched a couple of movies (actually 2) and well got some comments i thot i'd share. hope it doesn't a) stumble anyone, b) offend anyone with my comments, c) encourage any stupid acts that i won't condone (check with me please ;) .. well sort of a disclaimer though, and partly i feel there's a freedom of speech/writing and it may not just be a pleasing sight to some but owells..

"hitch" was rather funny, not really that funny and romantic but had a good mix..the advice is well *rolls eyes* logical, yet comical. and at the end of the day, its just about following your heart..hmmms like basic man, just that the movie takes you on a thrill ride to get to it, at least its a ride in like a normal car not some soupped up racer heh :P

watched "passion of the christ" tonight at jq's place. well..i've got my views and frankly, its just wrong..the protrayal, the script, the characters, the 'action' is so hollywood-ish..firstly, its as they say, you wanna sell, you gotta sell it the wide and broad way and we all know where that leads.. secondly, doctrinally, there are some major glaring errors..i didn't feel a single bit of spiritual movement, cuz it didn't feel right..right from the first scene, it just reeks of commercialism. thirdly, you can say "director's interpretation" i say "pure hambug", its fine if you interpret LoTR the book way vs the movie way, or any book - movie..but when you're talking about sth like the God who became a man to die for my sins, and taking it so lightly, then its pure &^#@$(%$@#

if i watch a movie for entertainment value and because it contains that, its fine with me. to watch something so blasphemous like that and not stand against it, then something's wrong with me. if you nice readers do have sth against what i've just posted, sorry i guess we're all entitled to our own opinion, do drop a msg or comment and tell me about it. would really love to hear and discuss about it, its always good to learn :)

gotta sleep soon, soccer @ 9!

twins!

heh let me tell you a story:

long long time ago, in the land we call Singapore, there was a pair of cojoined twins, whose names were Joel. interestingly, they were co-joined at the ankle, both had seperate bodies and living systems but were joint at the ankle. thus as the birth parents had not the finances to undertake the operation to seperate them, they put them up for adoption. two couples came along and after some discussion decided to adopt the twins after they were seperated and pay for the operation. the operation was a success and now you have two seperate Joels. since then, we have seen them and they're Joel Quah and Joel Lim. both wear ankle braces to this day, one on his right and the other on his left.



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sorry =P its a big joke HEH!

no lah i'm just wearing an ankle brace to see if it helps my ankle to get stronger..don't believe any part of the story..i'm just phibbing =D

i wanna call saf hotline!!

i hate camp now.

stupid master sergeant just there to screw up my day and my entire routine. i'm so damn pissed off and so really fustrated. i'm sick and tired of her ordering me and the other guys ard, falsely accusing us of things, having us to ineffecient work and then complainin we're causing her perfect system to not work out. pple like that aught to be done away with.

waste my time.

mucho gracias

i'm old :p

haha..yeah it doesn't feel older in physical sense but heh well mentally. gee!

thanks to the special group of you (lisa, dawn, zhuang, jq, elvin, calvin) for making this day unforgettable! =) for the hard work and effort, joel bows in gratitude.

my only two things i guess i kinda forgot to do then, was a) take some pics, b) (erm i think i'll keep that to myself lol =D).

anyways, daddy's moving to ang mo kio community hospital (which is actually at yck) tmrw and tmrw's also lisa's birthday.

so..

Blessed Birthday Lisa :)

sighhh

the facts i lay now before your eyes.

his tumor is in the same region as the last two times. because of its location and too close to the spine and spinal cord, they can't zap the cancer with radiotherapy. also he has had 2 bouts of RT and it hasn't seemed to kill the cancer. also because of the region its in, they can't do surgery because they can't possibly move the backbone to get to it. now the last option, chemo. they can't use the 1st line drug on him due to the fact his body nor the dialysis machine can dialyise it properly, so they can't give it to him. they're only available option now is a 2nd-line drug which they feel is not curative.
thus their focus now is no longer on curing his cancer but to delay and push back the onset of it. the survival rate from the docs is on the average is 30% after 5 years.

broken..lost..alone.

i just want you to know who i am

when you know someone like your dad is down with something incurable, the only thing keeping him here is time, what can you say? what can you do? i dun even know how to say it anyway.




"when everything's meant to be broken.. i just want you to know who i am."

i'm useless.

once (seemingly) long ago, joel used to be a responsible, responsive guy. used to go to the extreme ends to do things for others, take up extra duties and work, do stuff people would shun because it was out of the way/dirty/not something they would do.

now.. on the verge of adulthood, joel realises how things have changed. now he shirks reponsibilities, doing the minimum and walks off. he is unresponsive, sometimes lost in the world of his own. what brought about this change?


yes..thats me talking about me. can't even seem to make good a simple promise of taping a msg that would benefit others, its like not making the extra effort to do it. i could have done so much to prevent all this from happenin and no, not once did i contemplate doing it till after, by then ,as we always know, is too late.

my dad's not really doing better. he just got the doctor's word that the growth which was in his neck is really a tumour and a cancerous one. its like just another blow which he and my family are reeling from. mum was crying, i was dazed. after all the hopes and wishes for a soon return, turn to a feeling of helplessness and despair.

and yes, similarly to helping a friend and helping my dad, i find myself useless.

simple tasks i can't fulfil for a friend, difficult task to fulfil for my dad, that i know i have already failed.

life doesn't seem to hold the meaning to whys, whats, whos, wheres, hows anymore to me. especially when i know i can't.

down and out

my net's been down for like almost a week and well it ain't stable. gee. think i need to get a new modem soon..

anyway updates. dad's op is a success, even though the docs didn't manage to screw the plate into his neck, they managed to stabilise the neck so that he won't ever need to go for another op again. he was moved to a HD (High Dependency) ward on sat and stayed there till monday where he's now at ward 22 bed 8, in a normal ward. so his condition is improving. thank God :) and also thank you for your prayers. on behalf of my family, thank you for the emotional, spiritual, financial, physical support thats been coming from all of you :) may God bless you.

on the other end, i've been so tired..falling sick quite often. in fact, its like the 2nd week, i'm carrying this cough and bad nose. hope i recover soon.

i'm gonna be 21 in a week, and boy, i'm starting to feel really old..well, when i didn't blog i wrote. so maybe i'll leave you all with some part of what i wrote.

"been such a long time, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically. dad's been in hospital since the 11th. i haven't been more exhausted in my life. been acting so strong yet feeling so weak, so in want of companionship and yet feeling the need to be all alone, having the fear of losing someone i hold dear but yet never daring to make the move, wanting to trust but always so cynical." @ 220205 1605hrs

sick and sigh

dad's op is tmrw. pray that the surgeon(s) will have steady hands and wisdom to do it right. God will see him through it and well hope he can take it =/

as for me, think i'm sick. got some throat itchiness and quite bad nose.

gonna see the doc again tmrw then.

time alone.

i need some time alone.

i'm numb, hurt and right now, don't know how to feel cuz its happening all over again.

tired. bone-weary. and can't be bothered with how good the show was.


so don't talk me now. i've got too much on mind and i just don't wanna feel or think anymore. not now. not ever.

screwed up medical system

i would tell you its a waste of time reporting sick. unless you're purple in the face and like have a obvious bone sticking out of your leg or like your knees don't connect anymore would they then refer you to somewhere else (see that again means they're helpless too..they'll just say, "we are not equipped to handle it.")

i've got a bad ankle that gives me pain when i walk and what does my mo do? he feels it, presses and ask whether i feel pain from where, where do i feel the pain, then gives me a status i don't need (like what would i need 5 days excused lower limb activities when i've had this pain for 2 weeks?) the polyclinic doc's one better..he doesn't even press to check, he looks, then lifts the ankle and begins interrogating me on my lifestyle (what the hell? i don't think he knows whats wrong with the ankle at all in the first place) then he tells me the saf is better equipped to deal with it and sends me away with a dumb memo, no mc, no timesheet, no medicine. and i would bet, no idea of what is wrong with me.

sure being a doctor's no walk in the park but they like both are like super bo chap, they see, prod then come up with something that doesn't remotely sound like the problem (or don't even tell you the problem), one wonders why one should report sick and come out even more confused.

what the hell..waste my bloody time and now i'm stuck with nothing. )(@&)($&@#

stupid mo's.

AGHHHHHHHH

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ok after a fantastic day. i just realised i dropped my phone. and guess what i just found it like an hour after i dropped it. don't worry it ain't stolen. its just been run over.

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