yeap its that time of the year again..
may you have a blessed Christmas and may the spirit of giving, love, joy and peace be in your hearts and lives always. God bless!
btw, sarah (: blessed birthday too!
and to those who are gettin baptized tmrw, count it a double blessing!
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Saturday, December 03, 2005
tired - part 2
haiz..
gee i guess some pple just don't get a break don't they?
like just an hour into my duty, (which so happened when the csm wasn't ard so i could get some much needed rest,) i was summoned back to the bde office and given instructions to go to plc to lay phone lines for their exercise. wow. -_-!zzZ
so off i went with another of my colleagues and it was a waste of time. left office ard 9plus got there by 10 and then after that proceeded to sit there, have lunch, and wait till 2pm when we finally got to work. bad part abt that waiting ard was that we couldn't sleep as it is an open area. wouldn't have minded the trip and time wasting if i could catch some sleep.
anyways laying the line was alright la. wasn't as difficult nor as fun as i expected heh. that done, went back to camp, took over my duty and thank God (as everytime on duty) it was uneventful. however, didn't really get to sleep till it was abt 12 so i guess it was just 6 hrs of sleep.
proceeded to cancel my physio (actually i haven't but they were too busy to take my call to reschedule..TWICE) as my rsm did say he wanted me and another guy to go down again. ended up not going so i started on this "big" project, which was a photo montage for the outgoing formation commander. one of my colleagues (who's good at photoshop and photography) was like telling me to not do such a good job so that they'll pick his. *rolls eyes* thing is i saw his design today and my only comment is, good photographer, good photoshop-er, but er..bad designer. really bad.
i don't really care if i'm a noob photoshop-er but i think i did a better job (not bragging) but throwing photos on a brown-lined textured background ain't exactly interesting or pretty to look at. anyhows i have come to the conclusion that i'll just do whatever i think is best and leave it to the committee to decide.
anyway for the record, this week i prob had the least amt of sleep..
sunday - 5 hrs, monday - 6 hrs, tuesday - 4 hrs, wednesday - 6 hours, thursday - 3 hours, friday - (prob) 6 hrs, saturday - (prob) 6 hrs. total = 36 hours over 7 days. zzz!
gee i guess some pple just don't get a break don't they?
like just an hour into my duty, (which so happened when the csm wasn't ard so i could get some much needed rest,) i was summoned back to the bde office and given instructions to go to plc to lay phone lines for their exercise. wow. -_-!zzZ
so off i went with another of my colleagues and it was a waste of time. left office ard 9plus got there by 10 and then after that proceeded to sit there, have lunch, and wait till 2pm when we finally got to work. bad part abt that waiting ard was that we couldn't sleep as it is an open area. wouldn't have minded the trip and time wasting if i could catch some sleep.
anyways laying the line was alright la. wasn't as difficult nor as fun as i expected heh. that done, went back to camp, took over my duty and thank God (as everytime on duty) it was uneventful. however, didn't really get to sleep till it was abt 12 so i guess it was just 6 hrs of sleep.
proceeded to cancel my physio (actually i haven't but they were too busy to take my call to reschedule..TWICE) as my rsm did say he wanted me and another guy to go down again. ended up not going so i started on this "big" project, which was a photo montage for the outgoing formation commander. one of my colleagues (who's good at photoshop and photography) was like telling me to not do such a good job so that they'll pick his. *rolls eyes* thing is i saw his design today and my only comment is, good photographer, good photoshop-er, but er..bad designer. really bad.
i don't really care if i'm a noob photoshop-er but i think i did a better job (not bragging) but throwing photos on a brown-lined textured background ain't exactly interesting or pretty to look at. anyhows i have come to the conclusion that i'll just do whatever i think is best and leave it to the committee to decide.
anyway for the record, this week i prob had the least amt of sleep..
sunday - 5 hrs, monday - 6 hrs, tuesday - 4 hrs, wednesday - 6 hours, thursday - 3 hours, friday - (prob) 6 hrs, saturday - (prob) 6 hrs. total = 36 hours over 7 days. zzz!
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
tired - part 1
counting tmrw would be 3 24 hour duties in 8 days.
yes it could be worse like 3 in 5 days..
my upperstudy is USELESS. bloody *@($!# thinks he's my "supervisor". he's only a freakin lcp and he tells me i have to do his work. friggin son of a (#$*%. supposed to hand over dockets on fri and what the friggin hell was he doing? typing his damn resume while i was doing a home visit with my as1. then monday and i was on duty the whole freaking day and he was still doing his resume and chatting on msn. and when i asked him what he did on monday, he told me, "yeah i did some work." yeah rite. i bet the only work he did is to take down the NSmen's name/ic/number on some paper and leave it somewhere and forget abt it. and today? right after i came back from handing over duty, he was rushing to get the dockets to the medical centre for a FFI that was on-going that morning. looked so flustered and worried that he couldn't find them. no brainer. when 2/3 of them were in the medical centre already and he didn't bother to look in the handing/taking-over file. maybe he doesn't even realise it exists. then he tells me, "eh what are you doing? thot you would have prepared already on fri? i'm not supposed to be doing that anymore, i'm supposed to supervise you." F*@$ you! the only pple who are fit to supervise me is my as1, my chief clerk, my rsm and prob my s3. 1.5 hrs canteen breaks and sitting in front of the i-net com and typing his damn resume, which so happens to read like, "i work well with people, and am willing to work hard." maybe it should read "i don't work well with people, and am willing to make others work hard, while i supervise."
well it could be worse. but i would hate to have today's DO and duty clerk to do an incident report and follow-up on someone being sent to hospital after getting beaten up.
then to top it off, tonight headed down to century to talk to a couple of guys abt joining the tourney on sat, then ended up having dinner. then got a bit delayed and sidetracked and then it had to rain at that moment when i decided to leave. so waited till it was abt a drizzle and then one of the customers had to have her phone stolen by some kids or so we think. so all the regulars got "mobilized" to help find it. sheesh. short story, we searched and couldn't find it but well high chance its gotta do with those kids. well police came, took statements, still taking statements when i left ard 12.15am -_-
and yes sarah..what were you doing out so late? heh.
anyways "tired - part 2" should be out on thurs/fri if time/energy permits.
yes it could be worse like 3 in 5 days..
my upperstudy is USELESS. bloody *@($!# thinks he's my "supervisor". he's only a freakin lcp and he tells me i have to do his work. friggin son of a (#$*%. supposed to hand over dockets on fri and what the friggin hell was he doing? typing his damn resume while i was doing a home visit with my as1. then monday and i was on duty the whole freaking day and he was still doing his resume and chatting on msn. and when i asked him what he did on monday, he told me, "yeah i did some work." yeah rite. i bet the only work he did is to take down the NSmen's name/ic/number on some paper and leave it somewhere and forget abt it. and today? right after i came back from handing over duty, he was rushing to get the dockets to the medical centre for a FFI that was on-going that morning. looked so flustered and worried that he couldn't find them. no brainer. when 2/3 of them were in the medical centre already and he didn't bother to look in the handing/taking-over file. maybe he doesn't even realise it exists. then he tells me, "eh what are you doing? thot you would have prepared already on fri? i'm not supposed to be doing that anymore, i'm supposed to supervise you." F*@$ you! the only pple who are fit to supervise me is my as1, my chief clerk, my rsm and prob my s3. 1.5 hrs canteen breaks and sitting in front of the i-net com and typing his damn resume, which so happens to read like, "i work well with people, and am willing to work hard." maybe it should read "i don't work well with people, and am willing to make others work hard, while i supervise."
well it could be worse. but i would hate to have today's DO and duty clerk to do an incident report and follow-up on someone being sent to hospital after getting beaten up.
then to top it off, tonight headed down to century to talk to a couple of guys abt joining the tourney on sat, then ended up having dinner. then got a bit delayed and sidetracked and then it had to rain at that moment when i decided to leave. so waited till it was abt a drizzle and then one of the customers had to have her phone stolen by some kids or so we think. so all the regulars got "mobilized" to help find it. sheesh. short story, we searched and couldn't find it but well high chance its gotta do with those kids. well police came, took statements, still taking statements when i left ard 12.15am -_-
and yes sarah..what were you doing out so late? heh.
anyways "tired - part 2" should be out on thurs/fri if time/energy permits.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
wow just when you thot it wouldn't be busy.
its wierd that when no one is ard that you will seem to be busiest. crzy i tell you.
so lets look at the forecast of events for week 48 starting: Nov 27 to Dec 3:
Nov 27: book in late to camp to prepare for deployment of marshallers on the 28th
Nov 28: deploy and ensure everything is set up by 0715. this is later followed by 1 x 24 hour ops duty.
Nov 29: finish duty and resume office work. Oh yes, NSmen FFI screening. yes, that is the only 'free' day.
Nov 30: another 1 x 24 hour ops duty. zzz. oh and NSmen medical review too. time to use the clone machine for a bit.
Dec 1: finish duty, back to office. Grandfather's birthday at night, i'll prob end up sleeping there.
Dec 2: just the day i thot i would have nothing. considering that i would have not much sleep over the few days, there's still the draw for the tourney to do. shouldn't be too hard.
Dec 3: chalk! "fun" 9 ball tourney *nods* 1200-2200 *GAHHHHHHHHHHH*
forgot to add, when those times i think i will be free, i might just get attached out to high command of EX switchblade, meaning irregular hours. to add on to that, i have to do a montage for the Change-of-Command for Comd Tradoc to be finished in 2 weeks. and no, i didn't volunteer for that.
the good part about all this is: if everything's done well and properly, i should have a lot of days off, but no time to clear it. ain't life grand?
so lets look at the forecast of events for week 48 starting: Nov 27 to Dec 3:
Nov 27: book in late to camp to prepare for deployment of marshallers on the 28th
Nov 28: deploy and ensure everything is set up by 0715. this is later followed by 1 x 24 hour ops duty.
Nov 29: finish duty and resume office work. Oh yes, NSmen FFI screening. yes, that is the only 'free' day.
Nov 30: another 1 x 24 hour ops duty. zzz. oh and NSmen medical review too. time to use the clone machine for a bit.
Dec 1: finish duty, back to office. Grandfather's birthday at night, i'll prob end up sleeping there.
Dec 2: just the day i thot i would have nothing. considering that i would have not much sleep over the few days, there's still the draw for the tourney to do. shouldn't be too hard.
Dec 3: chalk! "fun" 9 ball tourney *nods* 1200-2200 *GAHHHHHHHHHHH*
forgot to add, when those times i think i will be free, i might just get attached out to high command of EX switchblade, meaning irregular hours. to add on to that, i have to do a montage for the Change-of-Command for Comd Tradoc to be finished in 2 weeks. and no, i didn't volunteer for that.
the good part about all this is: if everything's done well and properly, i should have a lot of days off, but no time to clear it. ain't life grand?
Sunday, November 20, 2005
wierd huh?
I had this strange dream last nite. A dream i could not shake off even after i have woken up.
It begins on my way out from church, walking to an unrevealed destination. Why would i be on the other side of the road (going towards Jurong) under the fly-over near my church, i do not know. My laces kept coming untied and i hate to stop every few paces to tie them. Sounds nonesensical, rite? Here's when it gets bizarre. I spot a 10ct coin on the ground, proceed to pick it up and then spot a $1 coin slightly behind that. As i pick them up, i spot yet another and another and another, and i just keep picking them up. Some stuck in the ground, so i had to dig a lil. Motorists gave me curious stares, as they spot a young man kneeling, diggin at the ground. I just ignored them as they zip by. I had a large pile of coins when i dig and see this thing which is not a coin. I continue to dig around it and suddenly i stop. I realise what it is. Its a skeletal hand and then i start to see the rest of the outline of the skeleton. After this, the rest just simply doesn't connect.
I dunno what this means nor what it is trying but it has kept me thinking. My dad might be asked to retire soon, and if not for his govt job, his medical bills would have been un-manageable. Thank God for seeing us through thus far but i have to think abt the future a lil. Without the medical benefits, i dunno how it'll turn out. So i'm thinking of getting a part-time job. Work 4-5 days a week to bring in some extra money to help out at home. I'm no longer a child and can't say that it is not for me to provide. So if you have any ideas for jobs i could take up, please do tell me. I'd be willing to hear you out. Thanks.
It begins on my way out from church, walking to an unrevealed destination. Why would i be on the other side of the road (going towards Jurong) under the fly-over near my church, i do not know. My laces kept coming untied and i hate to stop every few paces to tie them. Sounds nonesensical, rite? Here's when it gets bizarre. I spot a 10ct coin on the ground, proceed to pick it up and then spot a $1 coin slightly behind that. As i pick them up, i spot yet another and another and another, and i just keep picking them up. Some stuck in the ground, so i had to dig a lil. Motorists gave me curious stares, as they spot a young man kneeling, diggin at the ground. I just ignored them as they zip by. I had a large pile of coins when i dig and see this thing which is not a coin. I continue to dig around it and suddenly i stop. I realise what it is. Its a skeletal hand and then i start to see the rest of the outline of the skeleton. After this, the rest just simply doesn't connect.
I dunno what this means nor what it is trying but it has kept me thinking. My dad might be asked to retire soon, and if not for his govt job, his medical bills would have been un-manageable. Thank God for seeing us through thus far but i have to think abt the future a lil. Without the medical benefits, i dunno how it'll turn out. So i'm thinking of getting a part-time job. Work 4-5 days a week to bring in some extra money to help out at home. I'm no longer a child and can't say that it is not for me to provide. So if you have any ideas for jobs i could take up, please do tell me. I'd be willing to hear you out. Thanks.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
I'm afraid.
I'm afraid.
Afraid of falling.
Falling so many times.
Times i bleed my heart out.
Out there where people see me not.
Not my will, but Thine.
you know the song, "Did you ever talk to God above?"
someday, God willing, that prayer would be answered.
till then.
Afraid of falling.
Falling so many times.
Times i bleed my heart out.
Out there where people see me not.
Not my will, but Thine.
you know the song, "Did you ever talk to God above?"
someday, God willing, that prayer would be answered.
till then.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Monday, October 31, 2005
what happened during duty
well..i caught a couple of productions from Dream-works (pun intended) while on duty heh.
*plays the Star Wars theme in the background*
they were:
Part 1: The Dream Menace
Part 2: Attack of the ZZ Monsters
Part 3: Revenge of the Sleep
Part 4: A New Awakening
Part 5: The ZZ Monsters Strike Back
Part 6: The Return of the Sheep
lol...! =D
*plays the Star Wars theme in the background*
they were:
Part 1: The Dream Menace
Part 2: Attack of the ZZ Monsters
Part 3: Revenge of the Sleep
Part 4: A New Awakening
Part 5: The ZZ Monsters Strike Back
Part 6: The Return of the Sheep
lol...! =D
Sunday, October 30, 2005
serving the nation on duty..
well tmrw or rather today or rather later, i'll be back in camp to do my monthly regimental duties. kind of sucky, ya? sighh owells..can't really be helped. anyways my plan was and is:
1930-0100: pool
0100-0300: supper/friends
0300-0400: packing up
0400-0530: games/tv/net
0530-0630: nap
0630-0730: breakfast/go to camp
0750-0800: take over duty
0800-1130: zzz
1130-1200: lunch
1200-1630: zzz
1630-1700: dinner
1700-0800(mon): zzz
hahaha..please please let there be no calls and no one sent to hospital so i can sleep :P btw..if you guys see any good shows on tv, tell me so i can watch and if you're bored and lonely, calling me would also be fine. butbutbut plsplspls don't rub it in thanks ^^
oh ya and i'm on amber alert too -.- *which means if there's a mobilization, i will need to be back in camp in an hour (which i will already be) and start calling NSmen to go to their mob centres.
1930-0100: pool
0100-0300: supper/friends
0300-0400: packing up
0400-0530: games/tv/net
0530-0630: nap
0630-0730: breakfast/go to camp
0750-0800: take over duty
0800-1130: zzz
1130-1200: lunch
1200-1630: zzz
1630-1700: dinner
1700-0800(mon): zzz
hahaha..please please let there be no calls and no one sent to hospital so i can sleep :P btw..if you guys see any good shows on tv, tell me so i can watch and if you're bored and lonely, calling me would also be fine. butbutbut plsplspls don't rub it in thanks ^^
oh ya and i'm on amber alert too -.- *which means if there's a mobilization, i will need to be back in camp in an hour (which i will already be) and start calling NSmen to go to their mob centres.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
GOOoooaaallllll.....!
played soccer this evening with those old guys again..
guess we didn't really get off to a good start getting knocked out twice very early. guess we weren't that used to each other's game and stuff. then we sorta discussed what we would do and where we went wrong and guess it must have worked..we won like 5 in a row (:
then our young legs gave way (actually not very young, i have a torn ankle ligament, terence-my as1 had prob sth do with his ankle as well, and brandon-my ops spec has/had back problems, my ops clerk had a knee op) and we bowed out graciously. quite pleased la..scored think twice through out that run of games (: prob assisted a few and definitely made a couple of saves.
well..think i need to train up kenneth haha..i wanna play upfront and well i'm no longer the keepr i was in sec sch leh (boy that was a long time ago.. sheesh!)
and yes i still think of playing soccer 5 times a week :P
guess we didn't really get off to a good start getting knocked out twice very early. guess we weren't that used to each other's game and stuff. then we sorta discussed what we would do and where we went wrong and guess it must have worked..we won like 5 in a row (:
then our young legs gave way (actually not very young, i have a torn ankle ligament, terence-my as1 had prob sth do with his ankle as well, and brandon-my ops spec has/had back problems, my ops clerk had a knee op) and we bowed out graciously. quite pleased la..scored think twice through out that run of games (: prob assisted a few and definitely made a couple of saves.
well..think i need to train up kenneth haha..i wanna play upfront and well i'm no longer the keepr i was in sec sch leh (boy that was a long time ago.. sheesh!)
and yes i still think of playing soccer 5 times a week :P
Saturday, October 22, 2005
blehh
played one of the worst games of pool in a looonng looonnnggg time. excuses i could give were probably not used to my cue, too dim, too little practice and i boil down to the only other logical reason, i'm not good enough ):
sighhh
sighhh
Thursday, October 20, 2005
chalk! 2nd tournament
me and my guys are running our 2nd chalk! tournament on the 4th and 5th of Nov. Details are at the chalk! website (available from the "chalk!" word at my aboutme or here. if you've got any queries, feel free to ask! thanks!
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
and p comes before q!
yes sarah, at least you got it after some time. i tell you army dulls the mind..told my campmates and most of them didn't get it la. =/ toots.
yay! tennis today was quite fun, though its quite hard to teach when i'm like so lousy. well at least two things came out of that. 1) i think everyone had some fun at least, 2) we got to play soccer with some old men. hahaha..we were like leaving then i was like asking my friends, "eh want anot? just ask lah, no harm..!"
so we got to play like 2 games with them, first one we totally were all over them, but the second..well, i think they knew how to control the game and we were all so tired by then lol. yes, we got owned but i think we played well :P got an invite to come down every wed to play with them, which i would prob do from now heh. think have to tape + ankle guard my ankle haha..will play like max of 5 times in a week lo.
and yes, p comes before q like i before u! :P
yay! tennis today was quite fun, though its quite hard to teach when i'm like so lousy. well at least two things came out of that. 1) i think everyone had some fun at least, 2) we got to play soccer with some old men. hahaha..we were like leaving then i was like asking my friends, "eh want anot? just ask lah, no harm..!"
so we got to play like 2 games with them, first one we totally were all over them, but the second..well, i think they knew how to control the game and we were all so tired by then lol. yes, we got owned but i think we played well :P got an invite to come down every wed to play with them, which i would prob do from now heh. think have to tape + ankle guard my ankle haha..will play like max of 5 times in a week lo.
and yes, p comes before q like i before u! :P
Saturday, October 08, 2005
a note for some "duh" people.
if i block you from my msn, what the hell has it got to do with you? my msn or yours?
grow up.
grow up.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
hungry cats in camp
yeap you got the title right. see, when i was having ICT on friday and looking after the food for the NSmen, there was this cat which snuggled up to me. guessing it was hungry and stuff heh. was kinda docile (right word?) too. here's some pics:
and then today while having lunch there was another one and boy was it hungry..
check out the claws! *gasps*
and in (less) hungrier times (:
and then today while having lunch there was another one and boy was it hungry..
check out the claws! *gasps*
and in (less) hungrier times (:
Sunday, October 02, 2005
if i'm not alone, why do i feel so lonely?
i think i live in a world of pain. physical-emotional pain. maybe its what keeps me going, maybe its what keeps me awake and aware, maybe its just there. maybe.
good news is that i don't have to take ippt anymore. bad news is that its because i've somehow managed to tear both ankles' ligaments. prob a minor tear but bad enough to give me pain. and really i have had no idea why its like that or how long it has been or what caused it, i'll just take it along as i go.
counting back 6 months ago. i guess things are completely different. back then, i was just looking forward to turning 21 and then right after that, i guess things really move along differently. back then i had many more friends or 'friends' then i do now. back then i believed in a lot more things then i do now. back then i guess i was more foolish then i am now. back then was in the past, i'm living in the present now.
maybe its a set (and sad) formula, that you have friends = you are popular + life is blessed. and maybe if you choose to follow your dreams, dreams = -ve friends - populuar - blessed. is it always true? maybe if you add success + dreams = many more friends + more popular + more blessed. well it seems to me its true, not ranting or anything but it only feels so superficial to me.
4 mths ago i embarked on a path that certain pple were not happy nor comfortable with. many have asked, 'whats wrong with you?' or 'its bad' or 'you had better stop' but no, i persevered on. i still stand firm on that. its never wrong to chase your dreams, your ideals but never lose hold on your beliefs. you can compromise on your work, you can compromise on your time, you can compromise on your rewards but never compromise the very essence of your beliefs.
i'm sad at times when i think about these things, to think abt just giving up when it gets tough, but then i realise that if i do, i'm just bowing to 'popular' pressure. i don't have to be like anyone, i am myself and there isn't another me. i want to hold my head high and say, thank God for giving me enough. enough to fulfil the path You've chosen for me. not too much that i may think it comes from me nor too little that i fail to see Your providence. but enough.
i'm not alone, but sometimes it feels that lonely. maybe its the weather, cold/chilly/rainy that reflects my thoughts. maybe i'm just thinking more and looking less. maybe its just me. maybe.
good news is that i don't have to take ippt anymore. bad news is that its because i've somehow managed to tear both ankles' ligaments. prob a minor tear but bad enough to give me pain. and really i have had no idea why its like that or how long it has been or what caused it, i'll just take it along as i go.
counting back 6 months ago. i guess things are completely different. back then, i was just looking forward to turning 21 and then right after that, i guess things really move along differently. back then i had many more friends or 'friends' then i do now. back then i believed in a lot more things then i do now. back then i guess i was more foolish then i am now. back then was in the past, i'm living in the present now.
maybe its a set (and sad) formula, that you have friends = you are popular + life is blessed. and maybe if you choose to follow your dreams, dreams = -ve friends - populuar - blessed. is it always true? maybe if you add success + dreams = many more friends + more popular + more blessed. well it seems to me its true, not ranting or anything but it only feels so superficial to me.
4 mths ago i embarked on a path that certain pple were not happy nor comfortable with. many have asked, 'whats wrong with you?' or 'its bad' or 'you had better stop' but no, i persevered on. i still stand firm on that. its never wrong to chase your dreams, your ideals but never lose hold on your beliefs. you can compromise on your work, you can compromise on your time, you can compromise on your rewards but never compromise the very essence of your beliefs.
i'm sad at times when i think about these things, to think abt just giving up when it gets tough, but then i realise that if i do, i'm just bowing to 'popular' pressure. i don't have to be like anyone, i am myself and there isn't another me. i want to hold my head high and say, thank God for giving me enough. enough to fulfil the path You've chosen for me. not too much that i may think it comes from me nor too little that i fail to see Your providence. but enough.
i'm not alone, but sometimes it feels that lonely. maybe its the weather, cold/chilly/rainy that reflects my thoughts. maybe i'm just thinking more and looking less. maybe its just me. maybe.
Monday, September 12, 2005
eeeshh outrunned........by a pretty girl!
for all those in NS and in Singapore. yes, AHM was yesterday. felt i wasted my sunday morning on the padang/esplanade/sheares bridge, running when i could have been comfortably tucked in bed sleeping.
so okay no big deal, its all part of serving your nation. i mean like walking 6km shouldn't be a big problem..ha! then the problem arises when everyone ard you starts running. -_-" so you're being overtaken and finally you can't take it and then you run yourself!
ok knowing me and my schedule..i didn't train, nor do i run 6km on a regular basis sooooooooo i'm in trouble. alright the first 1 km was walking (there was hardly any space to run) then the next was spent zipping in and out of pple, the real running came after the turn towards the sheares bridge. somehow in the midst of my zipping-in and out, i ended up behind a pretty girl (who was running more steadily than me -___-") and after pacing her for a bit, overtook her. now usually the case is that after you overtake someone you USUALLY don't see them again on your run. but noooo, she caught up with me somewhere on the descent from the bridge and overtook me, so i was pacing her again and then overtook her and then it was like a you overtake-i chase thing all the way till the turn to padang.
yes and silly me thot once you turn into padang it'll all be over. so only after i turned into that stretch than saw "600M" i basically gave up. hahahaha..while she carried on running. and yeah the whole time i was huffing and panting and dragging myself thru, the way she ran was like effortless la. -_-" sickening.
owells. at the very least i got one day off. quite tired since i went to play soccer in the evening somemore. (sounds like i can go take ippt already) slept 12 hours and gonna cook breakfast soon :P
so okay no big deal, its all part of serving your nation. i mean like walking 6km shouldn't be a big problem..ha! then the problem arises when everyone ard you starts running. -_-" so you're being overtaken and finally you can't take it and then you run yourself!
ok knowing me and my schedule..i didn't train, nor do i run 6km on a regular basis sooooooooo i'm in trouble. alright the first 1 km was walking (there was hardly any space to run) then the next was spent zipping in and out of pple, the real running came after the turn towards the sheares bridge. somehow in the midst of my zipping-in and out, i ended up behind a pretty girl (who was running more steadily than me -___-") and after pacing her for a bit, overtook her. now usually the case is that after you overtake someone you USUALLY don't see them again on your run. but noooo, she caught up with me somewhere on the descent from the bridge and overtook me, so i was pacing her again and then overtook her and then it was like a you overtake-i chase thing all the way till the turn to padang.
yes and silly me thot once you turn into padang it'll all be over. so only after i turned into that stretch than saw "600M" i basically gave up. hahahaha..while she carried on running. and yeah the whole time i was huffing and panting and dragging myself thru, the way she ran was like effortless la. -_-" sickening.
owells. at the very least i got one day off. quite tired since i went to play soccer in the evening somemore. (sounds like i can go take ippt already) slept 12 hours and gonna cook breakfast soon :P
Sunday, August 07, 2005
645i & some other stuff
just had a ride in a friend's 645i with the top down. *beams*
3 break clears in two weeks. last time i bc-ed was almost a year ago.
things have been popping up. thank God (:
and yesh. "in a world where money talks, there is no such thing as free speech."
3 break clears in two weeks. last time i bc-ed was almost a year ago.
things have been popping up. thank God (:
and yesh. "in a world where money talks, there is no such thing as free speech."
Monday, August 01, 2005
The Final Analysis
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centred;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of having selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world your best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anway
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of having selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world your best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anway
Friday, July 15, 2005
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
lost time.
btw don't ask me what about day 2, i was too tired and busy to write on my trusty palm.
AND those who are into pool should check out my new site, http://chalkbilliards.multiply.com
forgive me its a lil outdated. still trying to catch up with my articles and write-ups. it should catch up to current life within the week! (thanks to being understaffed and overworked)
and yes. thanks for the sms and msns (:
AND those who are into pool should check out my new site, http://chalkbilliards.multiply.com
forgive me its a lil outdated. still trying to catch up with my articles and write-ups. it should catch up to current life within the week! (thanks to being understaffed and overworked)
and yes. thanks for the sms and msns (:
Sunday, July 10, 2005
kl day 3
100705 03.39
still approx 400km away
well guess saying that m'sia is some way behind in the pool scene some what sums up the trip. Visited 4 different halls (reviews up soon) and if they keep it up, soon who knows, i might decide to start one up in kl! That's just for thoughts. Anyway, don't want to wake my two sleeping companions (playing two nights in a row till 2plus from 9-10pm and not enough rest is really draining) so i'll write again on the ride back.
1502 STILL approx 400km
on the bus back, waiting for it to move off. Hopefully will be back in time for the WPC finals at 1930. Hope Kuo wins. But kudos to Rodney "Rocket" Morris and Marlon Manaloj they played their heart out but well their taiwanese opponents were just better.
Played 2 great days of pool up here in kl. Learnt a great deal of my game here too. Pity i didn't get to do a lot (other than play pool) but it had been fun to travel, even mimicking the life of a road player.
Besides that, the other reason is that i needa get away from my life back home. I'm too caught up with the nitty-gritty and all the unwanted details and lose focus on my objectives and the reason of my exsistance.
Quite tired already. write when i wake later on.
1711 approx 140km
had quite a good sleep. Was raining while i was. Still kinda lethargic though.
Was wondering, should a Christian ever have stress? Logically speaking, since knowing that God is over all and everything one goes thru is set there by God, whether good or bad. Yet sometimes i find myself complaining. Why?
Though i suppose i don't have the charm of living that "perfect" life with no flaws and hiccups, not being smart and having to deal with various expectations. Why can't one be a God-fearing pool player or run a pool hall? Can one not be a Daniel in Babylon? A white sheep amongst the black? To say, oh that was becuz he was Daniel and a man of God, then am i not a child of God and human like he is?
still approx 400km away
well guess saying that m'sia is some way behind in the pool scene some what sums up the trip. Visited 4 different halls (reviews up soon) and if they keep it up, soon who knows, i might decide to start one up in kl! That's just for thoughts. Anyway, don't want to wake my two sleeping companions (playing two nights in a row till 2plus from 9-10pm and not enough rest is really draining) so i'll write again on the ride back.
1502 STILL approx 400km
on the bus back, waiting for it to move off. Hopefully will be back in time for the WPC finals at 1930. Hope Kuo wins. But kudos to Rodney "Rocket" Morris and Marlon Manaloj they played their heart out but well their taiwanese opponents were just better.
Played 2 great days of pool up here in kl. Learnt a great deal of my game here too. Pity i didn't get to do a lot (other than play pool) but it had been fun to travel, even mimicking the life of a road player.
Besides that, the other reason is that i needa get away from my life back home. I'm too caught up with the nitty-gritty and all the unwanted details and lose focus on my objectives and the reason of my exsistance.
Quite tired already. write when i wake later on.
1711 approx 140km
had quite a good sleep. Was raining while i was. Still kinda lethargic though.
Was wondering, should a Christian ever have stress? Logically speaking, since knowing that God is over all and everything one goes thru is set there by God, whether good or bad. Yet sometimes i find myself complaining. Why?
Though i suppose i don't have the charm of living that "perfect" life with no flaws and hiccups, not being smart and having to deal with various expectations. Why can't one be a God-fearing pool player or run a pool hall? Can one not be a Daniel in Babylon? A white sheep amongst the black? To say, oh that was becuz he was Daniel and a man of God, then am i not a child of God and human like he is?
Friday, July 08, 2005
kl day 1
10.10 - approx26km away
coach ain't too shabby, comfortable but certainly not the shangri-la either. Driver's showing an old james bond movie, "Octopussy" what a name for a movie. And it's lame, the first 5 mins have already convinced me to go to sleep or read.
1) paratroopers do not always carry their chutes with them.
2) you can't possibly fly a plane thru a crowded hangar
3) you don't fill up at your local pump station when your plane's tanks are empty.
Anyway, thank God for keeping me safe thus far. Immigrations was smooth, thank God for that too! (: barely 50km into m'sia. I'll write later.
1950 approx 400km away
it's 10 mins before we're supposed to meet for dinner and the games begin. Afternoon at Pro Billiards quite enlightening.
coach ain't too shabby, comfortable but certainly not the shangri-la either. Driver's showing an old james bond movie, "Octopussy" what a name for a movie. And it's lame, the first 5 mins have already convinced me to go to sleep or read.
1) paratroopers do not always carry their chutes with them.
2) you can't possibly fly a plane thru a crowded hangar
3) you don't fill up at your local pump station when your plane's tanks are empty.
Anyway, thank God for keeping me safe thus far. Immigrations was smooth, thank God for that too! (: barely 50km into m'sia. I'll write later.
1950 approx 400km away
it's 10 mins before we're supposed to meet for dinner and the games begin. Afternoon at Pro Billiards quite enlightening.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
going the distance... away.
sometimes, when someone does something, there's always some reason for it. It's just that as humans, caught up in our worlds and lives, that we stop caring enough and just point that accusing, or rather, un-understanding finger and judge that they are wrong.
Who gave you that right to judge? Does being rich/going to church more often/being smarter/being more sucessful give you that privilege? Say what you want, call me jealous, whatever. I'm just so sick and tired of living my life based on people's template, especially those who don't deserve to be followed.
If i'm truly in the wrong, show me what is the mistake. Show me that you are deserving of that respect, show me why i have to listen to you. Show me all of that before you try to tell me what's wrong with my life. It has been done before.
Lately, i've been stressed, emotionally and mentally. I've not felt this drained for some period of time. Hopefully, over the next few days and a short trip to KL, should solve that. Thank God for a chance to distance myself from all that is going on. Pray for journey mercies.
Who gave you that right to judge? Does being rich/going to church more often/being smarter/being more sucessful give you that privilege? Say what you want, call me jealous, whatever. I'm just so sick and tired of living my life based on people's template, especially those who don't deserve to be followed.
If i'm truly in the wrong, show me what is the mistake. Show me that you are deserving of that respect, show me why i have to listen to you. Show me all of that before you try to tell me what's wrong with my life. It has been done before.
Lately, i've been stressed, emotionally and mentally. I've not felt this drained for some period of time. Hopefully, over the next few days and a short trip to KL, should solve that. Thank God for a chance to distance myself from all that is going on. Pray for journey mercies.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
the things we say
actual real life conversation,
mother ordering pizza from pizza hut, giving an additional instruction,
M: can you help us cut one of the pizzas into 20 slices?
PH: erm..they all come in 10 slices? why?
M: cuz your knife is sharper
PH: ah? *stunned silence*
me sitting infront listening to the conversation, rolling in laughter :D
mother ordering pizza from pizza hut, giving an additional instruction,
M: can you help us cut one of the pizzas into 20 slices?
PH: erm..they all come in 10 slices? why?
M: cuz your knife is sharper
PH: ah? *stunned silence*
me sitting infront listening to the conversation, rolling in laughter :D
Monday, May 30, 2005
stroke
think my stroke is a bit screwed up. i'm quite confused really.
i'll prob have to make up for that by training and pushing myself hard these couple of days when i still can. sigh what great timing huh?
anyways, some of my stuff's, the tip tools and shaft care stuff, coming in 2 days, the rest an It's George case in maybe 102 weeks, and well possibly another custom cue soon. or in planning at least ;)
i'll prob have to make up for that by training and pushing myself hard these couple of days when i still can. sigh what great timing huh?
anyways, some of my stuff's, the tip tools and shaft care stuff, coming in 2 days, the rest an It's George case in maybe 102 weeks, and well possibly another custom cue soon. or in planning at least ;)
Sunday, May 22, 2005
tired
maybe its cuz i got back and slept about 3.30 last night. maybe cuz i have this lethargy that hangs about me now. maybe its just that i'm sick and tired of sth.
whatever it is, i really don't know why i just left after service and went straight back home. not like i got much rest from lying down for the next 4 hours either.
strange.
whatever it is, i really don't know why i just left after service and went straight back home. not like i got much rest from lying down for the next 4 hours either.
strange.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Review on the new pool hall
just finished it and its up on the chalk! billiards & co. multiply site
link here Pool Hall: The Labyrinth
currently doing it alone, so if there's anything i can improve on or made a mistake somewhere, please do tell me (:
nites ya'll (:
link here Pool Hall: The Labyrinth
currently doing it alone, so if there's anything i can improve on or made a mistake somewhere, please do tell me (:
nites ya'll (:
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
conceptual thoughts
went down to review The Labyrinth down at middle road and had a talk with one of the bosses. more ideas and facts to think about. helped us with some figures.
review will be out soon on "The Pool Page" which is a site covering the latest in the Singapore pool scene. site is done by me and a couple of guys and we're bringing you news, tips, articles, guides, reviews to the pool halls and hopefully event-coverage in the near future. Currently we have some articles and stuff. Email me if you have any other ideas, comments, suggestions to improve. thanks (:
anyways, been out alot lately, mostly night/afternoon trainings and stuff. still trying hard to find the consistency in my game. been really lacking that. break-cleared in 8 today but game crashed about an hour after that. didn't pick up at all while i was at labyrinth, so i guess its gotta do with mental stamina which i think i really lack. finding it not too easy to keep thoughts, other than potting and placing in my head when i play and get down on a shot.
sigh where will it come from? hehs. tired already. shall go and crash before my mind completely crashes.
review will be out soon on "The Pool Page" which is a site covering the latest in the Singapore pool scene. site is done by me and a couple of guys and we're bringing you news, tips, articles, guides, reviews to the pool halls and hopefully event-coverage in the near future. Currently we have some articles and stuff. Email me if you have any other ideas, comments, suggestions to improve. thanks (:
anyways, been out alot lately, mostly night/afternoon trainings and stuff. still trying hard to find the consistency in my game. been really lacking that. break-cleared in 8 today but game crashed about an hour after that. didn't pick up at all while i was at labyrinth, so i guess its gotta do with mental stamina which i think i really lack. finding it not too easy to keep thoughts, other than potting and placing in my head when i play and get down on a shot.
sigh where will it come from? hehs. tired already. shall go and crash before my mind completely crashes.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Ace > Jack
just like in bridge, an ace is always more highly valued than a jack.
i wonder now why i've so willingy been a jack for so long and never aspired to be an ace.
In bridge, a jack is sometimes used to draw out cards above it. In another words, a bait. It doesn't matter to anyone that that jack was "sacrificed" as long as the end result of a win is achieved.
Also, the term "jack of all trades, master (ace) of none." speaks quite clearly on the fact that being profecient in too many skills, would not enable one to be fully skilled in one specific skill.
The point i'm trying to drive home is that i have never tried to be a master al whatever i was proficient at, whether it was in audio & visual, in gaming, in studies (not that i'm really any good at that,) in human relations, in organization, in pool.
I'm too weighed down by the things of my life to concentrate on one single thing. Take pool as an example, God has graciously given me good eyesight, ball sense and thinking mind. But when, i'm at table, when i get down on a shot, my mind is in a million places. I just don't know why, what and how.
Maybe its time to stop being someone's jack and be my own ace instead.
i wonder now why i've so willingy been a jack for so long and never aspired to be an ace.
In bridge, a jack is sometimes used to draw out cards above it. In another words, a bait. It doesn't matter to anyone that that jack was "sacrificed" as long as the end result of a win is achieved.
Also, the term "jack of all trades, master (ace) of none." speaks quite clearly on the fact that being profecient in too many skills, would not enable one to be fully skilled in one specific skill.
The point i'm trying to drive home is that i have never tried to be a master al whatever i was proficient at, whether it was in audio & visual, in gaming, in studies (not that i'm really any good at that,) in human relations, in organization, in pool.
I'm too weighed down by the things of my life to concentrate on one single thing. Take pool as an example, God has graciously given me good eyesight, ball sense and thinking mind. But when, i'm at table, when i get down on a shot, my mind is in a million places. I just don't know why, what and how.
Maybe its time to stop being someone's jack and be my own ace instead.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Your #1 Match: ENTP |
The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor. |
Your #2 Match: INTP |
The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. |
Your #3 Match: ENFP |
The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. |
don't ask me why i did that. i just felt like it heh.
Monday, May 09, 2005
invalid angles
haven't really been updating much. seems like i don't really have much to say now. if there's anything i'm still busy with the idea and my training.
spending a lot of time with a certain miss ( ... ... ... via) and consquently getting to know her really well ;) lol. *jokes! don't think dirty you sickminded freakos* =P
consistency is a problem for me now. i guess. i'll shoot great for a rack and die the next. not exactly becoming of a precision player.
anyways those who have experience in publications (eg. magazines), could you mail/sms/call me about the how much cash they need to start one up, procedures etc etc. would greatly appreciate it. :)
btw, if you're in town and very bored and very free and have a mind for visual arts. i think esplanade's a nice place to hang out, even if you don't go to the shows and stuff.
anyway check back in a couple of days, i might have something to add :)
disillusioned into oblivion
spending a lot of time with a certain miss ( ... ... ... via) and consquently getting to know her really well ;) lol. *jokes! don't think dirty you sickminded freakos* =P
consistency is a problem for me now. i guess. i'll shoot great for a rack and die the next. not exactly becoming of a precision player.
anyways those who have experience in publications (eg. magazines), could you mail/sms/call me about the how much cash they need to start one up, procedures etc etc. would greatly appreciate it. :)
btw, if you're in town and very bored and very free and have a mind for visual arts. i think esplanade's a nice place to hang out, even if you don't go to the shows and stuff.
anyway check back in a couple of days, i might have something to add :)
disillusioned into oblivion
Thursday, May 05, 2005
some teaser shots
(left to right) nissan silvia s-15, interior, front lights
for the others its at this link (silvia + evo + via)
the rushhhhhhhhh
wowwowowow. the silvia haha blew my socks off again. this time i came prepared. so i've got 3 video clips of launching plus accelerating to about 120-150kmh, shaky though but quite nice. must listen to the sound of the engine *AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH drove me nuts!* :D
btw if you got any prog that can change/invert the video cuz i took it upright (need to rotate it clockwise 45deg to make it more viewable) pass it to me so i can do it asap!
anyways i uploaded the photos and they are in this link (click here!)
also for the entire album of pics, its here (click here!). mainly cue and car pics.
apart from that, my training's going along nicely, learnt a new stroke, and trying to keep it up. quite tiring i must say. today had a race to 13, guard style with galvin and lionel. we gave it up after 36 racks with the scores all tied at 12. by which time, i couldn't even pot and place. too mentally exhausted, shall have to give pool a break for a while.
btw today's date is really nice :) *05-05-05* enjoy (:
btw if you got any prog that can change/invert the video cuz i took it upright (need to rotate it clockwise 45deg to make it more viewable) pass it to me so i can do it asap!
anyways i uploaded the photos and they are in this link (click here!)
also for the entire album of pics, its here (click here!). mainly cue and car pics.
apart from that, my training's going along nicely, learnt a new stroke, and trying to keep it up. quite tiring i must say. today had a race to 13, guard style with galvin and lionel. we gave it up after 36 racks with the scores all tied at 12. by which time, i couldn't even pot and place. too mentally exhausted, shall have to give pool a break for a while.
btw today's date is really nice :) *05-05-05* enjoy (:
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
ooohh the reply to the dream
anyways mark bear got back to me, says he does 5 floating points or 4 full spliced ones. thing is for the latter its 950 with matching joint, butt rings and 2 shafts. so for the 5 points he might charge thereabouts. worth considering but i've not heard of anyone with one so i could test.
hercek's out of the question, so is bluegrass..the waiting + the price. from someone in the pf forums, a high-end pfd would hit superb but the price might be on the scale of 2k usd so well if i really do want something special i'll have to wait and save up for it (say 2 years?), dayton and gilbert have good resale values and hit not too bad though heard from justin that dayton is not so consistent. thing is, i've been playing more recently in a bid to raise my game since i don't have to worry about my arm anymore (its actually quite theraputic, helping my arm to get the motion back), and the via's actually giving me suprises more and more. benny's been praising it haha..saying that the hits really nice and there's a lot of power in the cue. i couldn't agree more *beams* but well maybe as i improve its a good time to improve along as well but thats for the future..i'm starting to ramble a lil so i'll stop here ;)
hercek's out of the question, so is bluegrass..the waiting + the price. from someone in the pf forums, a high-end pfd would hit superb but the price might be on the scale of 2k usd so well if i really do want something special i'll have to wait and save up for it (say 2 years?), dayton and gilbert have good resale values and hit not too bad though heard from justin that dayton is not so consistent. thing is, i've been playing more recently in a bid to raise my game since i don't have to worry about my arm anymore (its actually quite theraputic, helping my arm to get the motion back), and the via's actually giving me suprises more and more. benny's been praising it haha..saying that the hits really nice and there's a lot of power in the cue. i couldn't agree more *beams* but well maybe as i improve its a good time to improve along as well but thats for the future..i'm starting to ramble a lil so i'll stop here ;)
Saturday, April 30, 2005
cocobolo or rosewood or cored ebony forearm
5 fixed curly maple points 3 veneers (black outer-dark brown, maple) or single veneer-ed floating 5 pointed curly maple floating points [full spliced points]
ivory square blocks bounded by silver rings for ring work at a, b, e (shaft collar, joint collar, buttcap)
tiger or curly maple handle and buttsleeve
white delrin buttcap
full ivory joint
ivory ferrules of 3/4"
2 stiff shafts
hercek (nuts!), pfd (maybe), mark bear (also maybe), via (if there's no one else available and if jackson promises very nice curly maple), paul dayton (haven't seen whether he does), andy gilbert (also dunnoe whether he does)
crazy but what the hell.
5 fixed curly maple points 3 veneers (black outer-dark brown, maple) or single veneer-ed floating 5 pointed curly maple floating points [full spliced points]
ivory square blocks bounded by silver rings for ring work at a, b, e (shaft collar, joint collar, buttcap)
tiger or curly maple handle and buttsleeve
white delrin buttcap
full ivory joint
ivory ferrules of 3/4"
2 stiff shafts
hercek (nuts!), pfd (maybe), mark bear (also maybe), via (if there's no one else available and if jackson promises very nice curly maple), paul dayton (haven't seen whether he does), andy gilbert (also dunnoe whether he does)
crazy but what the hell.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
double ouch?
lol. i realised how stupid the nurse who pulled my stitches out was. apparently there was another stitch and she completely didn't touch that..thats why she couldn't pull it out. and erm if you're wondering, yup i pulled it out by myself today. didn't really hurt la but like ant biting heh. think the idiot is bit grossed out haha..but owells thats me.
gonna return my library book tmrw haha..reading "band of brothers" by stephen e. ambrose now
(heh watch the show now read the book)
gonna return my library book tmrw haha..reading "band of brothers" by stephen e. ambrose now
(heh watch the show now read the book)
ouchie
got my stitches removed yesterday along with my medical appointment, good news i'm on mc for another 3 weeks. bad news, they were pulling out the stitches from one end again and the string snapped. so i've got part of the stitch in my skin. *shrugs* and yeah it hurt like crazy. silly pple sigh.
went for an interview to be a financial advisor. frankly i donno what i was doing there. pple looking for full time and i'm in ns, the recruiter abit desperate lah i guess. still wasn't a wasted trip i guess, so if any of you out there who wants to earn big money, hardworking, can get along with others and as well as being a natural "seller" of "ideas" (something like persuasive), please do tell me, i can recommend you and help you get a job there. lol..guess now i'm a recruiter too haha..owells.
went for an interview to be a financial advisor. frankly i donno what i was doing there. pple looking for full time and i'm in ns, the recruiter abit desperate lah i guess. still wasn't a wasted trip i guess, so if any of you out there who wants to earn big money, hardworking, can get along with others and as well as being a natural "seller" of "ideas" (something like persuasive), please do tell me, i can recommend you and help you get a job there. lol..guess now i'm a recruiter too haha..owells.
melancholy
short note since i'm not supposed to be online :P (banned for the night cuz i came back late)
another analogy of mine,
"generally, humans are like cats. we start off as innocent-looking, cute, playful kittens and as we grow older, we become like the matured cats, we are wary, cautious and lose our innocency."
anyways will blog more tmrw..had to do it before i forgot :)
another analogy of mine,
"generally, humans are like cats. we start off as innocent-looking, cute, playful kittens and as we grow older, we become like the matured cats, we are wary, cautious and lose our innocency."
anyways will blog more tmrw..had to do it before i forgot :)
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
cooped up at home.
yeap! thats me. cooped up at home with nothing to do =/
no real motivation to go out or rather pple haha..uni guys still having exams, well poly pple are done but not many in sight, thanks to attachments and stuff..
at least there's still some of them ard heh (: anyways been staying at home watching "band of brothers", if you haven't caught it or donno what it is, its a 10-episode history movie about Easy Coy in WW2. its really good and i'd recommend it. makes you wonder about the strength of the human spirit sometimes too.
anyways stitches coming out tmrw...*prays for mc extension* haha..ttyl!
no real motivation to go out or rather pple haha..uni guys still having exams, well poly pple are done but not many in sight, thanks to attachments and stuff..
at least there's still some of them ard heh (: anyways been staying at home watching "band of brothers", if you haven't caught it or donno what it is, its a 10-episode history movie about Easy Coy in WW2. its really good and i'd recommend it. makes you wonder about the strength of the human spirit sometimes too.
anyways stitches coming out tmrw...*prays for mc extension* haha..ttyl!
Sunday, April 24, 2005
locked out..
fantasticale..got locked out due to some strange error. so if you can't see my blog now on firefox haha..go and clear your cookies and cache. then reload my page.
which reminds me. i need a new blogskin. zz shall have to motivate myself to do it..soon! meanwhile i just get stuck to my chair watching band of brothers :)
(ed: erm yeah i realised..if you can't see my blog cuz of the error, you prob won't be able to see what i just posted lol.)
which reminds me. i need a new blogskin. zz shall have to motivate myself to do it..soon! meanwhile i just get stuck to my chair watching band of brothers :)
(ed: erm yeah i realised..if you can't see my blog cuz of the error, you prob won't be able to see what i just posted lol.)
Friday, April 22, 2005
what is the law for?
Evangelist Fred Brown used three images to describe the purpose of the law.
First he likened it to a dentist's little mirror, which he sticks into the patient's mouth. With the mirror he can detect any cavities. But he doesn't drill with it or use it to pull teeth. It can show him the decayed area or other abnormality, but it can't provide the solution.
Brown then drew another analogy. He said that the law is also like a flashlight. If suddenly at night the lights go out, you use it to guide you down the darkened basement stairs to the electrical box. When you point it toward the fuses, it helps you see the one that is burned out. But after you've removed the bad fuse, you don't try to insert the flashlight in its place. You put in a new fuse to restore the electricity.
In his third image, Brown likened the law to a plumbline. When a builder wants to check his work, he uses a weighted string to see if it's true to the vertical. But if he finds that he has made a mistake, he doesn't use the plumbline to correct it. He gets out his hammer and saw.
The law points out the problem of sin; it doesn't provide a solution.
- Fred Brown
got this thru sis eena's daily bible gems, and i thot it really made sense so i'll share it with you pple :)
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
the arm's still there
haha..just in case you who are sitting behind a computer screen and reading this message, doesn't know, i'm fine.
op was alright..quite smooth in fact, thank God for seeing me thru it :) lots of funny experiences after though..
first it was after they wheeled me to the ward, me having just recovered from ga and stuff, still groggy and blur and very thirsty. see op was at 12, woke up 1st time at 3, ward by 3.30. so basically drifted in and out of dreamless sleep, waking every 30-40 mins. and what was i waking up for? heh..usually there's a bottle/flask/pot of water by your bedside, but they haven't given it to me yet. so i would open my eyes, look for the pot and if it wasn't there, go right back to sleep. so right ard 5, i woke up and it was there! haha...have never felt more motivated to wake up. so i struggled up and stuff (with one arm it ain't no walk in the park), and then i realised..i can't reach it! AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh!! luckily, the bed beside mine had some visitors and one of them helped me with it lol. thanks man! :) so happily gulped down water like free..half an hour and many cups later, i had finished almost the entire pot. HEE HEE!
then for the next wierd thing, my mum really seemed to have a good time, cuz with one good arm its hard to feed yourself =P so she ended up feeding me (dinner, ice cream, lunch) and she enjoyed it la. she said it was sth like a 2nd childhood lol. maybe cuz when i was young (or when you are young) your/my mum would feed us and then we would be naughty and stuff and refuse or take our time haha..but it was quite smooth, actually finished my food in like 15-20 mins flat. partly that the dinner that day was not too bad and that i was uber hungry! :P
next up were the visits by jq, sarah tang, william. lol..they came really really late and after visiting hours too heh. talked, had fun poking fun at others (i think that was only me haha..), and luckily no one thot of attackin me in my vulnerable position :P but yeah it was a good time for me :) thanks for the cheer or i'll so bored whiling my time away in there.
anyways me on mc till the 27th, *prays for extension*
update you all..arm's tired already heh :P
btw westin's msn nick is roflmao, "the new Pope's been chosen from China, and his name is Popiah" then while talking he went that he's got it wrong, it should have been, " the new Pope's been chosen from India, and his name is Popadum"
LOL! rofles! =D
op was alright..quite smooth in fact, thank God for seeing me thru it :) lots of funny experiences after though..
first it was after they wheeled me to the ward, me having just recovered from ga and stuff, still groggy and blur and very thirsty. see op was at 12, woke up 1st time at 3, ward by 3.30. so basically drifted in and out of dreamless sleep, waking every 30-40 mins. and what was i waking up for? heh..usually there's a bottle/flask/pot of water by your bedside, but they haven't given it to me yet. so i would open my eyes, look for the pot and if it wasn't there, go right back to sleep. so right ard 5, i woke up and it was there! haha...have never felt more motivated to wake up. so i struggled up and stuff (with one arm it ain't no walk in the park), and then i realised..i can't reach it! AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh!! luckily, the bed beside mine had some visitors and one of them helped me with it lol. thanks man! :) so happily gulped down water like free..half an hour and many cups later, i had finished almost the entire pot. HEE HEE!
then for the next wierd thing, my mum really seemed to have a good time, cuz with one good arm its hard to feed yourself =P so she ended up feeding me (dinner, ice cream, lunch) and she enjoyed it la. she said it was sth like a 2nd childhood lol. maybe cuz when i was young (or when you are young) your/my mum would feed us and then we would be naughty and stuff and refuse or take our time haha..but it was quite smooth, actually finished my food in like 15-20 mins flat. partly that the dinner that day was not too bad and that i was uber hungry! :P
next up were the visits by jq, sarah tang, william. lol..they came really really late and after visiting hours too heh. talked, had fun poking fun at others (i think that was only me haha..), and luckily no one thot of attackin me in my vulnerable position :P but yeah it was a good time for me :) thanks for the cheer or i'll so bored whiling my time away in there.
anyways me on mc till the 27th, *prays for extension*
update you all..arm's tired already heh :P
btw westin's msn nick is roflmao, "the new Pope's been chosen from China, and his name is Popiah" then while talking he went that he's got it wrong, it should have been, " the new Pope's been chosen from India, and his name is Popadum"
LOL! rofles! =D
Thursday, April 14, 2005
TTSH 140405 1100hrs
yeap. thats my appointment time for my op. should i guess should be ard 12 or 1pm. well..be gone for a day or two heh. update you peeps when i get back. btw..i still want your comments on the two questions, i'll repost them here for you. please please do help me out them heh.
1) what is the most important aspect of a poolhall to you? a) location b) equipment c) ambience d) others? (elaborate)
2) what facilities should a poolhall have?
1) what is the most important aspect of a poolhall to you? a) location b) equipment c) ambience d) others? (elaborate)
2) what facilities should a poolhall have?
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
tennis got cancelled so...
yup..my last chance to play before thurs and it got rained out and played out :P
sooooo..made an about turn and went for rjc's band concert thingy.. thanks aunty margaret for the tix! :)
anyways it was quite good..didn't regret the rush to get to the esplanade on time (i was 3 mins late - you can't believe that it took 14 mins to get to the city area and 9 mins to turn to esplanade) had nice seats, the accoustics in the place were well the best i've heard..however abit of a deadzone ard the front, missed hearing a couple of instruments esp when the entire band was playing (eg see the instrument being played, but miss the sound)
anyways, silly trivial.. the person who plays a flute is a flutist, the one playing the bass a bassist, what about the one playin the oboe?
(answer in comments!)
sooooo..made an about turn and went for rjc's band concert thingy.. thanks aunty margaret for the tix! :)
anyways it was quite good..didn't regret the rush to get to the esplanade on time (i was 3 mins late - you can't believe that it took 14 mins to get to the city area and 9 mins to turn to esplanade) had nice seats, the accoustics in the place were well the best i've heard..however abit of a deadzone ard the front, missed hearing a couple of instruments esp when the entire band was playing (eg see the instrument being played, but miss the sound)
anyways, silly trivial.. the person who plays a flute is a flutist, the one playing the bass a bassist, what about the one playin the oboe?
(answer in comments!)
Sunday, April 10, 2005
analogies of a thinking mind.
came up with an analogy of looking at chasing our dreams which is like,
we're commuters and we all have some money in our ez link cards, we can board the mrt train to our desired (dream) destination, but for most of us, it'll cost too much and we can only stand on the inside and can't leave the station. the twist is that some of us will think of ways to get the money to get out and live our dreams and some of us would just take another train and stop at a destination we desire less and have the fare to go out.
interesting way of looking at things rite?
another analogy of lives and trains is this by junhao (one of my soccer mates),
we cannot board the train we want. like there are express trains, short trains and cheaper trains but we experience different things when we board each one. though the time taken may be different, but we learn different things that are valuable to our lives..
some food for thought :)
we're commuters and we all have some money in our ez link cards, we can board the mrt train to our desired (dream) destination, but for most of us, it'll cost too much and we can only stand on the inside and can't leave the station. the twist is that some of us will think of ways to get the money to get out and live our dreams and some of us would just take another train and stop at a destination we desire less and have the fare to go out.
interesting way of looking at things rite?
another analogy of lives and trains is this by junhao (one of my soccer mates),
we cannot board the train we want. like there are express trains, short trains and cheaper trains but we experience different things when we board each one. though the time taken may be different, but we learn different things that are valuable to our lives..
some food for thought :)
thoughts running thru my head..
doing a lil thinking and a chasing of a dream. anyway anyone with ideas for a pool hall, could you please step forward and advise :) the advice would be greatly appreciated.
anyway, 2 questions i like to pose to anyone reading and hopefully you could gimme your honest opinions.
1) what is the most important aspect of a poolhall to you? a) location b) equipment c) ambience d) others? (elaborate)
2) what facilities should a poolhall have?
thanks! :)
also anyone who knows anyone or themselves who have experience with people oriented businesses or with starting business, just like to find out more and get your/their opinions and hear about their experiences.
anyway, 2 questions i like to pose to anyone reading and hopefully you could gimme your honest opinions.
1) what is the most important aspect of a poolhall to you? a) location b) equipment c) ambience d) others? (elaborate)
2) what facilities should a poolhall have?
thanks! :)
also anyone who knows anyone or themselves who have experience with people oriented businesses or with starting business, just like to find out more and get your/their opinions and hear about their experiences.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
vrooooooommmmm
wow.
one word to describe how i'm feeling now. just "wow." first time i took a ride in a silvia (nissan s-15) and omgomgomgomg the feeling is just incredublous. galvin did like 2 tries at acceleration, first one went to 100km/h in like roughly 5 secs (felt like 3), the second was up to 120km/h in like ard 5-6..the g-force and the thrust were like "wahhhh" i'm having the shakes all over..
the car's pretty (well to me), cept for the spoiler..the car looks like stock but well under that hood..woah..! the interior's like well squeezy but the dash..looks better in the day..cept for the dials which were swweeeeeeeeettt! anyway i'm being promised photos of the now and then the after the makeover ^^
anyway, pool at his place was really good..the cues were all really pretty but i still like my via the best ;) upload the photos when i can..
anyway have fun ya'll for the touch rugby/football tmrw..sian..i'll be stuck in camp, thanks to some contractors who can only come in on fri and sat -___- and being a tss i can only take orders. ah wells at least i get tuesday off if there's any consolation in that. *sigh*
its 2 and i doubt i can sleep after the ride. WOOOOHOOOOOOO!
btw if you see a black nissan silvia with the number plate SFG1551L, wave and drool :P
one word to describe how i'm feeling now. just "wow." first time i took a ride in a silvia (nissan s-15) and omgomgomgomg the feeling is just incredublous. galvin did like 2 tries at acceleration, first one went to 100km/h in like roughly 5 secs (felt like 3), the second was up to 120km/h in like ard 5-6..the g-force and the thrust were like "wahhhh" i'm having the shakes all over..
the car's pretty (well to me), cept for the spoiler..the car looks like stock but well under that hood..woah..! the interior's like well squeezy but the dash..looks better in the day..cept for the dials which were swweeeeeeeeettt! anyway i'm being promised photos of the now and then the after the makeover ^^
anyway, pool at his place was really good..the cues were all really pretty but i still like my via the best ;) upload the photos when i can..
anyway have fun ya'll for the touch rugby/football tmrw..sian..i'll be stuck in camp, thanks to some contractors who can only come in on fri and sat -___- and being a tss i can only take orders. ah wells at least i get tuesday off if there's any consolation in that. *sigh*
its 2 and i doubt i can sleep after the ride. WOOOOHOOOOOOO!
btw if you see a black nissan silvia with the number plate SFG1551L, wave and drool :P
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
recce and one word answers
recce today was quite productive. brought back some memories *thoughtful look* and well it was good cuz the ideas were abounding and stuff :) grace bp is a nice place, very home-ish feeling..
and oh ya..i've been arrowed to do games so spare me a thot ya?
anyway today was the sending off dinner for johan, at rocky's and the pizzas good! :) *yum* what was better was the after dinner entertainment i guess, "Wednesday Nite LIVE! with the GTD". started out with grace getting the talk and then to dawn then to michelle and suddenly to me? abit wierd la..but GTD well, he's got a mind of his own. so well describe joel lim (me) in one word and the question went ard the table, SOOooooooooooooOOOooo..according to everyone i'm a "skinny, thrashed, dual (ORIGINAL!), short, *hahahahah*, *shrugs*, faithful, clever, ord-oh" person.
well done! :) alright had a blast tonight..
tiredd...and have to go back to camp tmrw.. *pulls long face*
and oh ya..i've been arrowed to do games so spare me a thot ya?
anyway today was the sending off dinner for johan, at rocky's and the pizzas good! :) *yum* what was better was the after dinner entertainment i guess, "Wednesday Nite LIVE! with the GTD". started out with grace getting the talk and then to dawn then to michelle and suddenly to me? abit wierd la..but GTD well, he's got a mind of his own. so well describe joel lim (me) in one word and the question went ard the table, SOOooooooooooooOOOooo..according to everyone i'm a "skinny, thrashed, dual (ORIGINAL!), short, *hahahahah*, *shrugs*, faithful, clever, ord-oh" person.
well done! :) alright had a blast tonight..
tiredd...and have to go back to camp tmrw.. *pulls long face*
Monday, April 04, 2005
nice and stupid
there's a fine line between nice and stupid..i think i'm too stupid to be nice =/ or too nicely stupid..whichever.
also i've no affinity with pools. well to cut the long story short, tennis was great..45 mins of good running and smacking balls with jon's new racket (i want!!) and kang's racket and then after we taupok-ed jon heh.
so after being taupok-ed, logically being the birthday boy, we would throw him into the pool. well he got into the pool anyway..even though we promised him dry shoes and socks, he tried to tussle and well his fault anyway..now here's where the fine line comes.
he asks for help to get out of the pool..so as a nice guy, i would give my hand to him to help him up rite? wrong.. i help him up he pulls me in for his 2nd dip and my first. ;__; best la i got wet shoes and socks laaaaa..shirt and shorts i have but shoes..ughhhh!! anyway for the record, he went in a 3rd time. a personal present from me ;)
also i've no affinity with pools. well to cut the long story short, tennis was great..45 mins of good running and smacking balls with jon's new racket (i want!!) and kang's racket and then after we taupok-ed jon heh.
so after being taupok-ed, logically being the birthday boy, we would throw him into the pool. well he got into the pool anyway..even though we promised him dry shoes and socks, he tried to tussle and well his fault anyway..now here's where the fine line comes.
he asks for help to get out of the pool..so as a nice guy, i would give my hand to him to help him up rite? wrong.. i help him up he pulls me in for his 2nd dip and my first. ;__; best la i got wet shoes and socks laaaaa..shirt and shorts i have but shoes..ughhhh!! anyway for the record, he went in a 3rd time. a personal present from me ;)
Sunday, April 03, 2005
ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh
don't think i've ever been this sick before. one week throat infection, now today something wrong with my stomach.
woke up this morning with this pain in the left side, had to like take a shit 3 times to clear the pain. but now its like a general pain across the stomach, with the left side still a bit sore. geez dunnoe what could be wrong. cuz the previous two days were like diarrheoa days or sth. wierd feelings then bomb the toilet every 2 hours.
arghhs..anyway, the via i've been waiting for for so long is finally here! heh got it last thurs :) will try to get some photos of it soon. much to lazy and can't seem to find the rite time to get take some of it. but its beeeauutifullllllll! :) plays well too, nice solid hit with no resistance to your stroke..anyway more when i get to know my cue better heh. then comes the big dilenma, p2 or via?
woke up this morning with this pain in the left side, had to like take a shit 3 times to clear the pain. but now its like a general pain across the stomach, with the left side still a bit sore. geez dunnoe what could be wrong. cuz the previous two days were like diarrheoa days or sth. wierd feelings then bomb the toilet every 2 hours.
arghhs..anyway, the via i've been waiting for for so long is finally here! heh got it last thurs :) will try to get some photos of it soon. much to lazy and can't seem to find the rite time to get take some of it. but its beeeauutifullllllll! :) plays well too, nice solid hit with no resistance to your stroke..anyway more when i get to know my cue better heh. then comes the big dilenma, p2 or via?
Friday, April 01, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
waiting...for the floor to dry
heh. :) dad's coming home tmrw! or rather later today..just finished with the mopping..ain't too thorough but i'll do a better one soon next week..this is too rushed..my fault :P
anyways been awhile since i last blogged..got a couple of stuff going on heh. watched a couple of movies (actually 2) and well got some comments i thot i'd share. hope it doesn't a) stumble anyone, b) offend anyone with my comments, c) encourage any stupid acts that i won't condone (check with me please ;) .. well sort of a disclaimer though, and partly i feel there's a freedom of speech/writing and it may not just be a pleasing sight to some but owells..
"hitch" was rather funny, not really that funny and romantic but had a good mix..the advice is well *rolls eyes* logical, yet comical. and at the end of the day, its just about following your heart..hmmms like basic man, just that the movie takes you on a thrill ride to get to it, at least its a ride in like a normal car not some soupped up racer heh :P
watched "passion of the christ" tonight at jq's place. well..i've got my views and frankly, its just wrong..the protrayal, the script, the characters, the 'action' is so hollywood-ish..firstly, its as they say, you wanna sell, you gotta sell it the wide and broad way and we all know where that leads.. secondly, doctrinally, there are some major glaring errors..i didn't feel a single bit of spiritual movement, cuz it didn't feel right..right from the first scene, it just reeks of commercialism. thirdly, you can say "director's interpretation" i say "pure hambug", its fine if you interpret LoTR the book way vs the movie way, or any book - movie..but when you're talking about sth like the God who became a man to die for my sins, and taking it so lightly, then its pure &^#@$(%$@#
if i watch a movie for entertainment value and because it contains that, its fine with me. to watch something so blasphemous like that and not stand against it, then something's wrong with me. if you nice readers do have sth against what i've just posted, sorry i guess we're all entitled to our own opinion, do drop a msg or comment and tell me about it. would really love to hear and discuss about it, its always good to learn :)
gotta sleep soon, soccer @ 9!
anyways been awhile since i last blogged..got a couple of stuff going on heh. watched a couple of movies (actually 2) and well got some comments i thot i'd share. hope it doesn't a) stumble anyone, b) offend anyone with my comments, c) encourage any stupid acts that i won't condone (check with me please ;) .. well sort of a disclaimer though, and partly i feel there's a freedom of speech/writing and it may not just be a pleasing sight to some but owells..
"hitch" was rather funny, not really that funny and romantic but had a good mix..the advice is well *rolls eyes* logical, yet comical. and at the end of the day, its just about following your heart..hmmms like basic man, just that the movie takes you on a thrill ride to get to it, at least its a ride in like a normal car not some soupped up racer heh :P
watched "passion of the christ" tonight at jq's place. well..i've got my views and frankly, its just wrong..the protrayal, the script, the characters, the 'action' is so hollywood-ish..firstly, its as they say, you wanna sell, you gotta sell it the wide and broad way and we all know where that leads.. secondly, doctrinally, there are some major glaring errors..i didn't feel a single bit of spiritual movement, cuz it didn't feel right..right from the first scene, it just reeks of commercialism. thirdly, you can say "director's interpretation" i say "pure hambug", its fine if you interpret LoTR the book way vs the movie way, or any book - movie..but when you're talking about sth like the God who became a man to die for my sins, and taking it so lightly, then its pure &^#@$(%$@#
if i watch a movie for entertainment value and because it contains that, its fine with me. to watch something so blasphemous like that and not stand against it, then something's wrong with me. if you nice readers do have sth against what i've just posted, sorry i guess we're all entitled to our own opinion, do drop a msg or comment and tell me about it. would really love to hear and discuss about it, its always good to learn :)
gotta sleep soon, soccer @ 9!
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
twins!
heh let me tell you a story:
long long time ago, in the land we call Singapore, there was a pair of cojoined twins, whose names were Joel. interestingly, they were co-joined at the ankle, both had seperate bodies and living systems but were joint at the ankle. thus as the birth parents had not the finances to undertake the operation to seperate them, they put them up for adoption. two couples came along and after some discussion decided to adopt the twins after they were seperated and pay for the operation. the operation was a success and now you have two seperate Joels. since then, we have seen them and they're Joel Quah and Joel Lim. both wear ankle braces to this day, one on his right and the other on his left.
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sorry =P its a big joke HEH!
no lah i'm just wearing an ankle brace to see if it helps my ankle to get stronger..don't believe any part of the story..i'm just phibbing =D
long long time ago, in the land we call Singapore, there was a pair of cojoined twins, whose names were Joel. interestingly, they were co-joined at the ankle, both had seperate bodies and living systems but were joint at the ankle. thus as the birth parents had not the finances to undertake the operation to seperate them, they put them up for adoption. two couples came along and after some discussion decided to adopt the twins after they were seperated and pay for the operation. the operation was a success and now you have two seperate Joels. since then, we have seen them and they're Joel Quah and Joel Lim. both wear ankle braces to this day, one on his right and the other on his left.
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sorry =P its a big joke HEH!
no lah i'm just wearing an ankle brace to see if it helps my ankle to get stronger..don't believe any part of the story..i'm just phibbing =D
Friday, March 11, 2005
i wanna call saf hotline!!
i hate camp now.
stupid master sergeant just there to screw up my day and my entire routine. i'm so damn pissed off and so really fustrated. i'm sick and tired of her ordering me and the other guys ard, falsely accusing us of things, having us to ineffecient work and then complainin we're causing her perfect system to not work out. pple like that aught to be done away with.
waste my time.
stupid master sergeant just there to screw up my day and my entire routine. i'm so damn pissed off and so really fustrated. i'm sick and tired of her ordering me and the other guys ard, falsely accusing us of things, having us to ineffecient work and then complainin we're causing her perfect system to not work out. pple like that aught to be done away with.
waste my time.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
mucho gracias
i'm old :p
haha..yeah it doesn't feel older in physical sense but heh well mentally. gee!
thanks to the special group of you (lisa, dawn, zhuang, jq, elvin, calvin) for making this day unforgettable! =) for the hard work and effort, joel bows in gratitude.
my only two things i guess i kinda forgot to do then, was a) take some pics, b) (erm i think i'll keep that to myself lol =D).
anyways, daddy's moving to ang mo kio community hospital (which is actually at yck) tmrw and tmrw's also lisa's birthday.
so..
Blessed Birthday Lisa :)
haha..yeah it doesn't feel older in physical sense but heh well mentally. gee!
thanks to the special group of you (lisa, dawn, zhuang, jq, elvin, calvin) for making this day unforgettable! =) for the hard work and effort, joel bows in gratitude.
my only two things i guess i kinda forgot to do then, was a) take some pics, b) (erm i think i'll keep that to myself lol =D).
anyways, daddy's moving to ang mo kio community hospital (which is actually at yck) tmrw and tmrw's also lisa's birthday.
so..
Blessed Birthday Lisa :)
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
sighhh
the facts i lay now before your eyes.
broken..lost..alone.
his tumor is in the same region as the last two times. because of its location and too close to the spine and spinal cord, they can't zap the cancer with radiotherapy. also he has had 2 bouts of RT and it hasn't seemed to kill the cancer. also because of the region its in, they can't do surgery because they can't possibly move the backbone to get to it. now the last option, chemo. they can't use the 1st line drug on him due to the fact his body nor the dialysis machine can dialyise it properly, so they can't give it to him. they're only available option now is a 2nd-line drug which they feel is not curative.
thus their focus now is no longer on curing his cancer but to delay and push back the onset of it. the survival rate from the docs is on the average is 30% after 5 years.
broken..lost..alone.
i just want you to know who i am
when you know someone like your dad is down with something incurable, the only thing keeping him here is time, what can you say? what can you do? i dun even know how to say it anyway.
"when everything's meant to be broken.. i just want you to know who i am."
"when everything's meant to be broken.. i just want you to know who i am."
Saturday, February 26, 2005
i'm useless.
once (seemingly) long ago, joel used to be a responsible, responsive guy. used to go to the extreme ends to do things for others, take up extra duties and work, do stuff people would shun because it was out of the way/dirty/not something they would do.
now.. on the verge of adulthood, joel realises how things have changed. now he shirks reponsibilities, doing the minimum and walks off. he is unresponsive, sometimes lost in the world of his own. what brought about this change?
yes..thats me talking about me. can't even seem to make good a simple promise of taping a msg that would benefit others, its like not making the extra effort to do it. i could have done so much to prevent all this from happenin and no, not once did i contemplate doing it till after, by then ,as we always know, is too late.
my dad's not really doing better. he just got the doctor's word that the growth which was in his neck is really a tumour and a cancerous one. its like just another blow which he and my family are reeling from. mum was crying, i was dazed. after all the hopes and wishes for a soon return, turn to a feeling of helplessness and despair.
and yes, similarly to helping a friend and helping my dad, i find myself useless.
simple tasks i can't fulfil for a friend, difficult task to fulfil for my dad, that i know i have already failed.
life doesn't seem to hold the meaning to whys, whats, whos, wheres, hows anymore to me. especially when i know i can't.
now.. on the verge of adulthood, joel realises how things have changed. now he shirks reponsibilities, doing the minimum and walks off. he is unresponsive, sometimes lost in the world of his own. what brought about this change?
yes..thats me talking about me. can't even seem to make good a simple promise of taping a msg that would benefit others, its like not making the extra effort to do it. i could have done so much to prevent all this from happenin and no, not once did i contemplate doing it till after, by then ,as we always know, is too late.
my dad's not really doing better. he just got the doctor's word that the growth which was in his neck is really a tumour and a cancerous one. its like just another blow which he and my family are reeling from. mum was crying, i was dazed. after all the hopes and wishes for a soon return, turn to a feeling of helplessness and despair.
and yes, similarly to helping a friend and helping my dad, i find myself useless.
simple tasks i can't fulfil for a friend, difficult task to fulfil for my dad, that i know i have already failed.
life doesn't seem to hold the meaning to whys, whats, whos, wheres, hows anymore to me. especially when i know i can't.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
down and out
my net's been down for like almost a week and well it ain't stable. gee. think i need to get a new modem soon..
anyway updates. dad's op is a success, even though the docs didn't manage to screw the plate into his neck, they managed to stabilise the neck so that he won't ever need to go for another op again. he was moved to a HD (High Dependency) ward on sat and stayed there till monday where he's now at ward 22 bed 8, in a normal ward. so his condition is improving. thank God :) and also thank you for your prayers. on behalf of my family, thank you for the emotional, spiritual, financial, physical support thats been coming from all of you :) may God bless you.
on the other end, i've been so tired..falling sick quite often. in fact, its like the 2nd week, i'm carrying this cough and bad nose. hope i recover soon.
i'm gonna be 21 in a week, and boy, i'm starting to feel really old..well, when i didn't blog i wrote. so maybe i'll leave you all with some part of what i wrote.
anyway updates. dad's op is a success, even though the docs didn't manage to screw the plate into his neck, they managed to stabilise the neck so that he won't ever need to go for another op again. he was moved to a HD (High Dependency) ward on sat and stayed there till monday where he's now at ward 22 bed 8, in a normal ward. so his condition is improving. thank God :) and also thank you for your prayers. on behalf of my family, thank you for the emotional, spiritual, financial, physical support thats been coming from all of you :) may God bless you.
on the other end, i've been so tired..falling sick quite often. in fact, its like the 2nd week, i'm carrying this cough and bad nose. hope i recover soon.
i'm gonna be 21 in a week, and boy, i'm starting to feel really old..well, when i didn't blog i wrote. so maybe i'll leave you all with some part of what i wrote.
"been such a long time, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically. dad's been in hospital since the 11th. i haven't been more exhausted in my life. been acting so strong yet feeling so weak, so in want of companionship and yet feeling the need to be all alone, having the fear of losing someone i hold dear but yet never daring to make the move, wanting to trust but always so cynical." @ 220205 1605hrs
Thursday, February 17, 2005
sick and sigh
dad's op is tmrw. pray that the surgeon(s) will have steady hands and wisdom to do it right. God will see him through it and well hope he can take it =/
as for me, think i'm sick. got some throat itchiness and quite bad nose.
gonna see the doc again tmrw then.
as for me, think i'm sick. got some throat itchiness and quite bad nose.
gonna see the doc again tmrw then.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
time alone.
i need some time alone.
i'm numb, hurt and right now, don't know how to feel cuz its happening all over again.
tired. bone-weary. and can't be bothered with how good the show was.
so don't talk me now. i've got too much on mind and i just don't wanna feel or think anymore. not now. not ever.
i'm numb, hurt and right now, don't know how to feel cuz its happening all over again.
tired. bone-weary. and can't be bothered with how good the show was.
so don't talk me now. i've got too much on mind and i just don't wanna feel or think anymore. not now. not ever.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
screwed up medical system
i would tell you its a waste of time reporting sick. unless you're purple in the face and like have a obvious bone sticking out of your leg or like your knees don't connect anymore would they then refer you to somewhere else (see that again means they're helpless too..they'll just say, "we are not equipped to handle it.")
i've got a bad ankle that gives me pain when i walk and what does my mo do? he feels it, presses and ask whether i feel pain from where, where do i feel the pain, then gives me a status i don't need (like what would i need 5 days excused lower limb activities when i've had this pain for 2 weeks?) the polyclinic doc's one better..he doesn't even press to check, he looks, then lifts the ankle and begins interrogating me on my lifestyle (what the hell? i don't think he knows whats wrong with the ankle at all in the first place) then he tells me the saf is better equipped to deal with it and sends me away with a dumb memo, no mc, no timesheet, no medicine. and i would bet, no idea of what is wrong with me.
sure being a doctor's no walk in the park but they like both are like super bo chap, they see, prod then come up with something that doesn't remotely sound like the problem (or don't even tell you the problem), one wonders why one should report sick and come out even more confused.
what the hell..waste my bloody time and now i'm stuck with nothing. )(@&)($&@#
stupid mo's.
i've got a bad ankle that gives me pain when i walk and what does my mo do? he feels it, presses and ask whether i feel pain from where, where do i feel the pain, then gives me a status i don't need (like what would i need 5 days excused lower limb activities when i've had this pain for 2 weeks?) the polyclinic doc's one better..he doesn't even press to check, he looks, then lifts the ankle and begins interrogating me on my lifestyle (what the hell? i don't think he knows whats wrong with the ankle at all in the first place) then he tells me the saf is better equipped to deal with it and sends me away with a dumb memo, no mc, no timesheet, no medicine. and i would bet, no idea of what is wrong with me.
sure being a doctor's no walk in the park but they like both are like super bo chap, they see, prod then come up with something that doesn't remotely sound like the problem (or don't even tell you the problem), one wonders why one should report sick and come out even more confused.
what the hell..waste my bloody time and now i'm stuck with nothing. )(@&)($&@#
stupid mo's.
Monday, January 31, 2005
AGHHHHHHHH
@($*)(@&#$(&%U@ *(@&*&#*@& (#@(*(!#!) !)(~0*@ !@*!^&@!)(*@)
ok after a fantastic day. i just realised i dropped my phone. and guess what i just found it like an hour after i dropped it. don't worry it ain't stolen. its just been run over.
F*()@#&)!@()K*#$^@()@!*
ok after a fantastic day. i just realised i dropped my phone. and guess what i just found it like an hour after i dropped it. don't worry it ain't stolen. its just been run over.
F*()@#&)!@()K*#$^@()@!*
tiring tennis
first, i would really think today's a wierd but good kind of day.
(hahah any day that master S is around is a good day..! :)
anyways, yeap S wasn't ard so heh as they say "when the cat is out, the mice begin to play" so play we did. there's like worms2 on my office com haha..and we're all playin it today, till it got a lil bit out of hand. and yeah though there was some work and running ard to do, well its not really that bad. surprisingly i went without a cup of kopi the entire day which i think is quite sth for myself (been drinking 1-2 kopis everyday for the past 2 weeks). ok la..end result i slept on the way to the mrt station but heh :)
thats where the day took another twist and heh while waiting for dn chia to pick me up outside yck to go to jq's place, i met lisa, who was waitin for zhuang to pick her up to go to jq's place, lol. like how 'qiao'. anyways turns out she ponned training cuz she's lazy (tsk tsk..) lol.
anyways tennis was good, think i improved a lil bit today. went thru 3 basketful of balls (think 3 * 60 = 180!!!) before william came and was already sorta tired out by that. gotta work on that timing. hitting the balls too late so can't control the direction it goes, at least the backhand's showing some improvement at last. really got pushed to the limit by dn chia hahaha, but its true its a faster way to improve (like another 10 sessions i should play like him... RITE!)
later tennis became a more fun thing haha..not so serious and a lot of monkeying around like ultra mini-tennis at the net with zhuang heh. or playing volleys (yeap..OUCH!) or just running ard picking balls off the court while they're still at play (actually we were trying to get them to go off earlier instead of draggin till too late ;)
and yeah i'm quite shaggd and bound to ache and groan tmrw (confirm + chop + guarantee!) but at least i've exercised my fill for the night and well..they said hard work on the court, sweet dreams in bed, i'll see if thats for real.
besides i need my rest, i'm the temporary i/c for resource tmrw (my two sergeants are off to tekong hahhahahhahahaha =D where the mozzies will eat them alive! teh horrars!!!)
(hahah any day that master S is around is a good day..! :)
anyways, yeap S wasn't ard so heh as they say "when the cat is out, the mice begin to play" so play we did. there's like worms2 on my office com haha..and we're all playin it today, till it got a lil bit out of hand. and yeah though there was some work and running ard to do, well its not really that bad. surprisingly i went without a cup of kopi the entire day which i think is quite sth for myself (been drinking 1-2 kopis everyday for the past 2 weeks). ok la..end result i slept on the way to the mrt station but heh :)
thats where the day took another twist and heh while waiting for dn chia to pick me up outside yck to go to jq's place, i met lisa, who was waitin for zhuang to pick her up to go to jq's place, lol. like how 'qiao'. anyways turns out she ponned training cuz she's lazy (tsk tsk..) lol.
anyways tennis was good, think i improved a lil bit today. went thru 3 basketful of balls (think 3 * 60 = 180!!!) before william came and was already sorta tired out by that. gotta work on that timing. hitting the balls too late so can't control the direction it goes, at least the backhand's showing some improvement at last. really got pushed to the limit by dn chia hahaha, but its true its a faster way to improve (like another 10 sessions i should play like him... RITE!)
later tennis became a more fun thing haha..not so serious and a lot of monkeying around like ultra mini-tennis at the net with zhuang heh. or playing volleys (yeap..OUCH!) or just running ard picking balls off the court while they're still at play (actually we were trying to get them to go off earlier instead of draggin till too late ;)
and yeah i'm quite shaggd and bound to ache and groan tmrw (confirm + chop + guarantee!) but at least i've exercised my fill for the night and well..they said hard work on the court, sweet dreams in bed, i'll see if thats for real.
besides i need my rest, i'm the temporary i/c for resource tmrw (my two sergeants are off to tekong hahhahahhahahaha =D where the mozzies will eat them alive! teh horrars!!!)
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
sai kang...is never good for health
busy day today.
one moment re-writing the formats list, next i'm running ard doing stuff. its been awhile since it got this busy.
anyway "highlight" of the day was maintanence of the CPR room. basically means, sweep, mop, rinse, repeat. half the time, some of the guys were just using eye-power (like me, she just told me to hold the door open - so i did and thats abt all i did). so like why waste my time when i have other important stuff to do? *grumbles*
anyways, work got done, everyone's happy. i'm rather annoyed i had to bring the chairs in and 5 mins later out again but well..at the very least she won't come hounding ard resource anytime soon (i hope! =D)
gotta start sleeping earlier :P hard but true. 5 mins difference in bus = 25 mins difference in reaching camp. tough but true.
one moment re-writing the formats list, next i'm running ard doing stuff. its been awhile since it got this busy.
anyway "highlight" of the day was maintanence of the CPR room. basically means, sweep, mop, rinse, repeat. half the time, some of the guys were just using eye-power (like me, she just told me to hold the door open - so i did and thats abt all i did). so like why waste my time when i have other important stuff to do? *grumbles*
anyways, work got done, everyone's happy. i'm rather annoyed i had to bring the chairs in and 5 mins later out again but well..at the very least she won't come hounding ard resource anytime soon (i hope! =D)
gotta start sleeping earlier :P hard but true. 5 mins difference in bus = 25 mins difference in reaching camp. tough but true.
Friday, January 21, 2005
boo...boo...boo...
really..don't watch elektra (unless you're just an action buff - which in that case is quite worth it till the end). the storyline looks like when someone's heart stopped beating - totally flatlined. besides the hot hot lead..well nothing else really stood out. and haha the ending's totally anti-climatic. so yeah go watch it at your own risk.
anyways..soccer in the morning's great..haha..for once too many pple turned up. had abt 4 teams of 5 lol (ed: 3 teams of 5 and 1 team of 5 + 1 kid) and like the action's good. hmmms maybe that had to do with my team staying on the pitch for an extended period :) had a blast and a nice tone i think. can't really see whether i'm burnt or tanned :P
went back, zipped off to suntec to get my oaks fixed and whooo! they're looking good now. at least i don't get oil marks on my lens anymore ^^ went to hmv, listend ard and (although the movie is a letdown) the elektra ost's nice :) got great tunes to rock to. then off to kino to meet everyone else and then yeah the movie.
after the movie, headed to marche to celebrate zhuang's birthday. dude, gotta lighten up man! don't be so uptight over those kinda things :) we're old already, must be able to look over/thru such rubbish heh.
blessed birthday dude :)
anyways..soccer in the morning's great..haha..for once too many pple turned up. had abt 4 teams of 5 lol (ed: 3 teams of 5 and 1 team of 5 + 1 kid) and like the action's good. hmmms maybe that had to do with my team staying on the pitch for an extended period :) had a blast and a nice tone i think. can't really see whether i'm burnt or tanned :P
went back, zipped off to suntec to get my oaks fixed and whooo! they're looking good now. at least i don't get oil marks on my lens anymore ^^ went to hmv, listend ard and (although the movie is a letdown) the elektra ost's nice :) got great tunes to rock to. then off to kino to meet everyone else and then yeah the movie.
after the movie, headed to marche to celebrate zhuang's birthday. dude, gotta lighten up man! don't be so uptight over those kinda things :) we're old already, must be able to look over/thru such rubbish heh.
blessed birthday dude :)
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
sierra square, delta square
this is gonna be a rant post. i dun care, i just wanna vent it out.
ok lets have this guy named T. now T is no ordinary TSS (Temp Support Staff..which you should all know by now), he is the slackest one in my wing. why do i say so? simply, he got transferred from the office to the resource and he hasn't done much.
see from monday, he has only done what M (who is also another slacker...but with rank) has asked him to do and that only took him an hour. so for the rest of monday, he was a) sleeping, b) "meditating" with his head on a toilet roll, c) reading last month's magazine. when i asked T to sweep the library, all i got was this blank, stoned look but no work done. when my sergeant asked me to ask him to call up those people who owes us stuff from the T-Loan file, he said he'll do it but i've got no way to check, because when my sergeants asked him, he said some said, they return/renewed/never borrowed/not free, BUT couldn't specify who said what. so how to know he called? can't check all rite?
so nvm..i left it as that. so today, he was a stoning mission. basically just sat there in his chair and STONED the entire morning. didn't clear the desk when my sergeant made a remark abt the untidy desk, didn't bother to even move aside so i could get some stationery. wow. and the best part is when we were all counting the formats in the publications room, he just stood there like sir stanford raffles, arms folded and all and didn't help out at all.
my goodness, no wonder the permstaff doesn't like him. 3 days with the guy and i'm happy to get him out of my face. such lousy attitude, would prob serve him right if he gets screwed at his next posting. so darn pissed off.
ok lets have this guy named T. now T is no ordinary TSS (Temp Support Staff..which you should all know by now), he is the slackest one in my wing. why do i say so? simply, he got transferred from the office to the resource and he hasn't done much.
see from monday, he has only done what M (who is also another slacker...but with rank) has asked him to do and that only took him an hour. so for the rest of monday, he was a) sleeping, b) "meditating" with his head on a toilet roll, c) reading last month's magazine. when i asked T to sweep the library, all i got was this blank, stoned look but no work done. when my sergeant asked me to ask him to call up those people who owes us stuff from the T-Loan file, he said he'll do it but i've got no way to check, because when my sergeants asked him, he said some said, they return/renewed/never borrowed/not free, BUT couldn't specify who said what. so how to know he called? can't check all rite?
so nvm..i left it as that. so today, he was a stoning mission. basically just sat there in his chair and STONED the entire morning. didn't clear the desk when my sergeant made a remark abt the untidy desk, didn't bother to even move aside so i could get some stationery. wow. and the best part is when we were all counting the formats in the publications room, he just stood there like sir stanford raffles, arms folded and all and didn't help out at all.
my goodness, no wonder the permstaff doesn't like him. 3 days with the guy and i'm happy to get him out of my face. such lousy attitude, would prob serve him right if he gets screwed at his next posting. so darn pissed off.
Saturday, January 15, 2005
meet the fockers
the show's quite funny haha..ben stiller's still lame..but at least its funny-lame not lame-lame. show makes a bit of sense haha..well hope i'll never have in-laws like that :P (or if i do, work it out somehow like that..erm well not entirely like that :P)
anyways been alright lah..haven't blogged since the year started. dunno why, seems to have lost this sense of writing. bogged down by this feeling of sian-ness. it seems that life seems more complete now for me in a way that i've got nothing more to share with the readers and/or its been too "normal"
haha.."normal" = wake up early early + go to camp + do sai kang + relac-one-corner + 2x tea break + 1x lunch + 1x book-out + go home/out/play/class. or at least thats what i define as normal for now.
at least i'm making a bit of effort in reading up JJR (Joshua, Judges, Ruth) for the thurs nite's nite class :) the notes are really helping but they're quite deep so hmmmm.. *ponders*
its wierd how a random event can change things..? like when you're letting things slide into normalcy and something just decides to come along and rake it up. hope there won't be a misunderstanding all over again and stuff but well i'll cross the bridge when i come to it. (any other advice just beep me on msn :) thanks)
tag me pple..lemme know who's still alive :)
anyways been alright lah..haven't blogged since the year started. dunno why, seems to have lost this sense of writing. bogged down by this feeling of sian-ness. it seems that life seems more complete now for me in a way that i've got nothing more to share with the readers and/or its been too "normal"
haha.."normal" = wake up early early + go to camp + do sai kang + relac-one-corner + 2x tea break + 1x lunch + 1x book-out + go home/out/play/class. or at least thats what i define as normal for now.
at least i'm making a bit of effort in reading up JJR (Joshua, Judges, Ruth) for the thurs nite's nite class :) the notes are really helping but they're quite deep so hmmmm.. *ponders*
its wierd how a random event can change things..? like when you're letting things slide into normalcy and something just decides to come along and rake it up. hope there won't be a misunderstanding all over again and stuff but well i'll cross the bridge when i come to it. (any other advice just beep me on msn :) thanks)
tag me pple..lemme know who's still alive :)
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