yeah! got my downgrade to C1L1 which means i'm fit for some operational vocations and am required to take IPPT but can be excused up to 2 stations and am fit for field duties includiing front-line duties.

well..i got my downgrade and that's good enough for me. i'm not so chao keng heheh..besides i'm going in 22nd oct so like thats some way off. still can play pool, go out and lead a normal life haha..

post more later, going to play pool later and i wanna take a nap.

haven't decided whether to go or not. but most pple seem to point towards trying. so i guess i shall tmrw.

NOW if only i could wake up!

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"You haven't failed till you've stopped trying."

caught in two minds over a lot of things.

starting with the most recent, i had my medical checkup by the ttsh docs and though my theraphist like told the docs she would feel it is advisable i downgrade, the doc that wrote my letter didn't seem to think so. anyways here is it, from what i can make out (from the handwriting)

Dear colleague, i write to you to update on the above patient's condition. He had (L) ulnar nerver anterior transposition in Nov 2003 for ulnar neropathy. currently still has slight (L) UL weakness with reduced grip strength. he also has an old (L) 5th toe P2# which has left him with fixed flexion deformity and he complains of pain with prolonged running. we have advised that he continue with his training as best as he can and we will review its impact on his condition in 3/12 we have also advised that he present early if his conditions deterioate

so i'm stuck. do i go and show it to the MO @ cmpb asap or wait till i get sucked into ptp before reporting sick. both options are have their pros and cons but like seriously, who would wanna get thrown in? i'm worried that if i show the letter, i might not get my downgrade and worse still would find it more difficult to downgrade while inside. or wait till i'm inside and try to downgrade and use the letter as an "i-told you so" and probably get marked for the rest of my 2 years. those are the cons, pros however means that i won't go in anytime soon and with a downgrade, i hope i'm safe. then i can go for the nationals, which brings me to the 2nd pt.

nationals are definitely going to be delayed. like in 2 weeks time is the comp and the forms aren't even out yet. so it would mean a push back to maybe mid or end june (which if i don't get my downgrade i can forget abt going for). so to take a risk, sign up irregardless and hope to get the downgrade while in ptp or just don't bother at all.

and thus brings me back to the first sentence that "nationals are definitely going to be delayed.", which just like my payment from a certain RICHARD WEE (HON. SECRETARY OF SBSC) which he promised on 11/5 that he'll pay on 15/5 that he delayed to 18/5 which he further delayed to 19/5 and which he pushed back to 31-5 will be delayed yet again.

i think its time i got those letters ready for me to pass to him. then gg no re.

"We act as though comfort and luxury are the chief requirements of life, when all we need to make us really happy is something to be enthusiastic about (like God :)"

didn't play well last nite. let physcological reason come over me and affect my game. apart from that i just wasn't gettin the rolls. sighh..

did a test on www.mindmedia.com

"joel, your hemispheric dominance is equally divided between left and right brain, while you show a moderate preference for auditory versus visual learning, signs of a balanced and flexible person.

Your balance gives you the enviable capacity to be verbal and literate while retaining a certain "flair" and individuality. You are logical and compliant but only to a degree. You are organized without being compulsive, goal-directed without being driven, and a "thinking" individual without being excessively so.

The one problem you might have is that your learning might not be as efficient as you would like. At times you will work from the specific to the general, while at other times you'll work from the general to the specific. Sometimes you will be logical in your approach while at other times random. Since you cannot always control the choice, you may experience frustrations not normally felt by persons with a more defined and directed learning style.

You may also minimally experience conflicts associated with auditory processing. You will be systematic and sequential in your processing of information, you will most often focus on a single dimension of the problem or material, and you will be more reflective, i.e., "taking the data in" as opposed to "devouring" it.

Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself - and of others - while maintaining an "openness" which is redeeming. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity is not in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, the more obvious and the more functional"

go and do it for fun. haha..i'm like heading off to mambo2 to play a lil while. then go cmpb tmrw since i overslept today.

haha went for shrek2 with joseph, jonathan and nic haha..damn funny!! :D good show so go catch it while you can! and remember to stay till after the credits!!

went for the mambo u21 tournament for sponsorship and prizes. i gave it my best but i still have some shots unfigured out.

first rd of 16, played with a mambo2 regular called pui ruan and he wasn't as good as he seemed. he was uncomfortable and well not playing his game well. or if that was his usual game, he needs a lot more improvement to be able to talk big the way the does at m2. beat him 4-1 and like i was shooting fine. though the first rack was a bundle of nerves, thank God i managed to settle down.

rd of 8, and faced with the player, my friend anthony, tipped to win it, was alex. now say what you want abt him but he's really good. somehow it seems that some lack of practice at mambo1 or that the tables aren't optinum got to him and he did miss some shots that you wouldn't expect him to. if i was a machine in the first match, alex must have been a better one. consistency. well, i didn't really give him the match on a silver platter and quietly die away, and i feel i gave it my best, winning 1 rack thru safety play, and another 2 from well a mistake from him.

competitions are like that, either you're in stroke there and then or just nothing at all.

tmrw, gotta go for my medical appointments at ttsh. and get my downgrade cuz i really need it.

"As we advance in life, it becomes more and more difficult, but in fighting the difficulties, the inmost strength of the heart is developed"

heh. like jere's losing his touch. hahah..played guard with him and kevin today and like it was me +6, jere -6, k evens. like first time siah. use to be k the one on the losing end and me breaking even. but heck :P played so small and so short while. like i was just getting into stroke and k said like last 3. sians.

went to fly more and crash less today (desert combat alpha). played a dumb map called berlin and like had a new record. i beat my kill record of 110 today with 118. haha..and both in like 20 mins. rofles. the ai abit dumb but heh its quite fun to destress (thats until they start shooting at you)

gonna go like soon. or i'll be late which is fine by my standards. don't wanna be too early. haha :D

"Researchers at Harvard say that taking a power nap for an hour in the afternoon can totally refresh you. They say by the time you wake up you'll feel so good, you'll be able to start looking for a new job"

well so much for last week. i like said that i would want to take a break this week and guess what? i've played like 3 days out of 5. -.- so much for a break. 22nd or 24th there's a new pool hall opening so stayed tuned for that. then like next week promises to be a busy one but like as usual i'll be caught slacking off. besides i've got a competition that week. the first of many to come.

this one's at mambo2 on the 24th. and hopefully i get to make it to the next rd which will be at mambo1 on the 25th, which i have my ttsh appointments on and then follwed to go and get downgraded. :) haha..i really think its a waste of time to go for ptp (seriously)

anyways tmrw going for a birthday gathering. so like this week there was serena's (18th), westin's (19th) and alex's (21st). so for any party you should go to, this week or any week, remember this,

"Never be the first to arrive at a party or last to go home, and never, ever be both."

haven't been doing much these days. either playing pool, or desert combat with jos or staying at home.

yes that guy has done it yet again. said he would have cash on sat, but yesterday he told me that he would have the cash on weds. fantastic eh?

i should like create a blog that i can put every single detail and name it "www.richardweeowesmoneytojoel.blogspot.com" rofles.

anyways, my msn nick always seem to get good answers and wierd ones so this time when i asked "where's my break clear?" in it, i got this answer, which i think is pretty cool so i'll put it down on the qotd.

"the essence of great pool comes from the mind, the essence of playing great pool comes from the heart, the essence of being a great player comes from the Player himself...... thats where your break clear is.."

went for ept today. didn't do well but that was expected. went down 0-3, 2-3, 2-3 and won one 3-2.

well a 'machine' won in the end. and that was after like 9 hours of playing.

too shagged to say much.

oh btw i got my enlistment letter. and i'm going in on 9th june for ptp -_-

and i've got to downgrade soon soon!

anyways forgot to add to thursday's post,

after the movie, (i switched my fone to silent -- unlike certain others) i saw i had a msg. it said this "ARE YOU ANGRY WITH ME??" from a number that i've never seen before. comically i showed it to jos and then i proceeded to reply like this, "yes, i am. but first, who are you?" =D lol. obviously the person must have been fairly confused/embarassed so he/she/it told me that the msg was sent to a wrong number lol.

btw, soccer was great but like the sun was scorching..have ept tour later at gf. gonna just try to do my best. got a couple of things on my mind that i want to put aside when i play.


"99% of lawyers(liars) give the rest a bad name."

went to watch troy today with joseph and i thot it was good. the effects the fight scenes were good. can't say much for the storyline. (though jq has very strong feelings against it) haha..like you throw a spear/javelin from 50 feet away and it hits the guy straight in the neck and flies 10 feet off his horse like foof! power! fantastic animation effects and stuff. good show hahah..i'll like give it 3.5/5

hahaa..and yes don't watch it if you see a bunch of sec school girls going in. the row in front of me was filled with them and everytime homer's baby came to screen you'd hear "awwwww..." or "so cuteeeeee~~~~" or giggling. at least thats better than hearing a phone go off and the guy chatting away for the next 5 mins.

tmrw gonna go book basic theory and then chill out somewhere.

"war is young men dying and old men talking"

talkin to pple like that, its a complete waste of my time

gah`_: eh
gah`_: jackie
gah`_: the # topic you posted
gah`_: when is it postphoned to?
Metz: not sure.
Metz: just that i called SBSC for the entry form.
Metz: they said it's not out yet.. but than the scheduled date to start is 7th JUn.
Metz: and the lady told me that it most likely will be postponed.
gah`_: which lady?
Metz: the one who answered the phone .. duh~
gah`_: sbsc there got 3-4 ladies.
gah`_: duh
Metz: whatever lah.
Metz: you want you call them yourself.
gah`_: i was there past 3 days
gah`_: today, yesterday and the day before
Metz: and did you ask them abt the forms?
Metz: there also no use if you don't enquire abt anything.
gah`_: yeah. but the counter staff doesn't know. says he's guessing next week
Metz: and like i went there to play so i didn't really bother to ask
Metz: well.. you didn't bother ask mah.
gah`_: if they dunno i ask also they cannot tell me

like first off, don't post up anything that you aren't sure of so to mislead everyone else. secondly read before you type and make yourself look like an an idiot. asked if i did ask them and what did i say "yeah" and he said that i didn't bother to ask. stupid dumb ass. waste of my time and waste of my energy.

got a dumb virus i think. under a program called "mdm.exe" eating up my processing power.


"42.7% of all statistics are made up on the spot"

erm changed my skin again. bear with me for the next few days while i shuffle the things ard. or like anyone wanna do it for me? :P

sians..have to re-adjust waking/sleeping hours again..

got a msg from that baskit today. says he will get the money on sat and cuz his dad has terminal cancer of some sort and he's under a lot of pressure which is why he couldn't give me the money. sounds like a whole lot of bs to me.

money thats been owed for more than 2 mths and over 3 classes. he better have a better explanation to where he spent the money. and i'm gonna say that on sat he won't have the money to pass to me.

anyway this is his msg:

wl b getting my money dis sat n wl gv u d money.sorry4d delay cos my dad hv terminal cancer.2much pressure on me. rwee

pple (specifically my mum and some of the counter staff at ph) have been telling me to write a letter of complaint to several parties (namely sbsc's president, gm, redbox, case, newspaper) like its a total abuse of his given power with that community. yeah people hate tattletales but more people hate ratbags like that.

now i asked him how much does he plan to pay me, fantastic answer from him:

i wl check my remittance first.

so well done. tell you more when i get back tonight. getting so freakin pissed by the people i'm dealing with sometimes.

"you haven't failed till you've stopped trying."

church today was fine. i'm like a little bit angry in a way shall get to that in a while.

my cousin's gf (alice) came today so i intro-ed angeline to her and like help her make friends that kinda thing. who would have known that all 3 of them are from cgs (which had slipped my mind completely) and in running years too! (dun ask me the years..i won't say erm..or rather i forgot already :P) so they like dragged lisa and debbie along for a 'mini-crescent reunion' lol..they should have dragged my 2nd, 4th aunt and my mum. they too were from crescent lol although abit the long ago ;)

then followed them for dim sum at red star restuarant or sth (sounds quite communist -- like sickle & hammer) then off to yck for bowling haha..i haven't bowled in abt half a year or a year and i had my best score and average so far today! heh..like 183 :P then the other games were 152, 133 and 167. (you do the math for the average) and my arm is aching a little :P

then went back to church for sgbf and then got ticked off by dn chia abt my plans for church camp. which i'll have to say, enjoy yourselves there cuz i won't be going. like a bit pissed off cuz of the way he put it. like as i planned out, and chee meng's offered solution, if i have two other willing parties to let me bunk in, i can settle my transportation myself, not as if i'm going there for the wrong reason or sth. i want to go and learn more lorh and church camps always the best i feel..but this year i won't be going..sigh.. #&%((*&(@#^^@@^$*@#$

like ain't it ridiculous to pay for and confirm a room and stuff when you're not even sure you're gonna go up? so dumb.

anyways sth i thot off to cheer myself up,
"warm chocolate milk comes from hot, brown cows"

first yf in like what? 2.5 mths and a good msg to revive me :) thank God for that.

and the other one is the 5Vs of Christ. Virgin birth, vicarious death, victorious ressurection, visibile acenssion and very soon coming!

"recipe for happiness: (ingredients) 1 cupful of sins forgiven, 1 cupful of gratitude towards God, 2 cupfuls of prayer, 2 cupfuls of God's word and lastly 3 cups of discipline. (method) mix all together and make sure they are all blended well. then serve. remember to serve daily in large proportions"

have to say i'm quite proud of my mei :)

think you acted really well and stuff :D thank God for your talent and for the way the thing turned out.

haha..apart from a "blackout" on stage and some stuttering/mistakes (can't blame the actors/actresses -- you'd be nervous if you were there) it was great play, unique as it is. very interesting ending and some very cheesy lines which added the comic relief ;) haha..

break from pool this week. played on mon, weds only haha..will restart on mon or sth. u21's coming!! haha..and so is church camp. on the same week summore! arghs...can't decide which to go for. like i want to go church camp but i got the u21's right smack in the middle. so dunnoe what to do. was thinking and hoping if possible play on the first day and if lose, then next day take a coach up to malaysia to join up with the camp. but then i worried that i will win (erm..?! haha..must have confidence mah!!) or play on like weds or sth then like bookin and stuff and rooms like got a lot of problems.

"enthuiasm is a disease. start an epidemic"

went to CGH for some tests and stuff to see if i qualify for some drug test. they're looking for fit, healthy Chinese guys between ages of 18-40 (all 4 grandparents and parents must be chinese) and they're paying like 500 so leave me a msg i'll pass along the email to you. anyways i didn't..my ecg wasn't too good..said sth abt some minor heart block so i don't qualify. sigh..haha..

saw the ugly side of singaporeans yet again (don't we all? =/) this guy was talkin on the fone to his mum/gf (prob the latter) and he was saying he's gonna do all the tests and stuff cuz its a free medical checkup and all that and even if he gets a place, he'll withdraw after that. Its like cheapskate la. not as if he doesn't have the cash and stuff, he looks well-to-do enough to me. *rolls eyes*

came all the way back to clementi to eat laksa and tan tiong boon (national player, galvin's coach) came up and said hi and chit-chatted a bit with me. haha..nice guy :) didn't know he stays at clementi too ^^ and even offered me a lift to ph which i had to turn down sadly cuz my cues are at home. haha..can't believe he actually recognised and acknowledged my presence :P like he = uber pro and i = uber noob. haha..well glad to see that even the greats are humble :)

"we could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in this world"

haven't bc-ed in a month. just like last mth. hmms..maybe its time to bc soon :P

and the ass still hasn't paid me. keeps saying tmrw. i bet he'll say that tmrw too. that $(*&#$&&@(&#@!#). i'm so gonna embarrass him on purpose.

gonna support my mei on fri for her play at the UCC at 7:30pm. anyone else going?

went to taka to work at the xbox live thing. worked only a couple of hours then it was done. haha..best pay so far :D

lots of eye candy too..wasted never bring camera :P

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it or work around it."

played badly again. won 2/4 games. two which i should have won outrightly and didn't and made a complete fool of myself. gg no re. i guess i just suck.

got my joss back, loaning dennis' 314. should be buying it over when i got the money.

cuz the p2 is taking its time to come over. (should be done by the 7th of may) but..shipping it here is another question. and i think i dun wanna incur additional cost to the shop so like told them to take their time to bring it in with the rest of a shipment. the via's taking more than what i expect to come in, i think august is a good and conservative estimate. anyways i don't intend to use it till end of the year or rather the start of next year anyway.

mind is filled with thots. thots of some personal stuff, thots of my downhill game, thots of the money some cheapskate, two-faced, cheating, lying old man owes me, thots of my future. guess its affecting and affected my game to the point i need a break. soon soon. one or two more competitions then a good break.