tired - part 1

counting tmrw would be 3 24 hour duties in 8 days.
yes it could be worse like 3 in 5 days..

my upperstudy is USELESS. bloody *@($!# thinks he's my "supervisor". he's only a freakin lcp and he tells me i have to do his work. friggin son of a (#$*%. supposed to hand over dockets on fri and what the friggin hell was he doing? typing his damn resume while i was doing a home visit with my as1. then monday and i was on duty the whole freaking day and he was still doing his resume and chatting on msn. and when i asked him what he did on monday, he told me, "yeah i did some work." yeah rite. i bet the only work he did is to take down the NSmen's name/ic/number on some paper and leave it somewhere and forget abt it. and today? right after i came back from handing over duty, he was rushing to get the dockets to the medical centre for a FFI that was on-going that morning. looked so flustered and worried that he couldn't find them. no brainer. when 2/3 of them were in the medical centre already and he didn't bother to look in the handing/taking-over file. maybe he doesn't even realise it exists. then he tells me, "eh what are you doing? thot you would have prepared already on fri? i'm not supposed to be doing that anymore, i'm supposed to supervise you." F*@$ you! the only pple who are fit to supervise me is my as1, my chief clerk, my rsm and prob my s3. 1.5 hrs canteen breaks and sitting in front of the i-net com and typing his damn resume, which so happens to read like, "i work well with people, and am willing to work hard." maybe it should read "i don't work well with people, and am willing to make others work hard, while i supervise."
well it could be worse. but i would hate to have today's DO and duty clerk to do an incident report and follow-up on someone being sent to hospital after getting beaten up.

then to top it off, tonight headed down to century to talk to a couple of guys abt joining the tourney on sat, then ended up having dinner. then got a bit delayed and sidetracked and then it had to rain at that moment when i decided to leave. so waited till it was abt a drizzle and then one of the customers had to have her phone stolen by some kids or so we think. so all the regulars got "mobilized" to help find it. sheesh. short story, we searched and couldn't find it but well high chance its gotta do with those kids. well police came, took statements, still taking statements when i left ard 12.15am -_-
and yes sarah..what were you doing out so late? heh.

anyways "tired - part 2" should be out on thurs/fri if time/energy permits.

wow just when you thot it wouldn't be busy.

its wierd that when no one is ard that you will seem to be busiest. crzy i tell you.

so lets look at the forecast of events for week 48 starting: Nov 27 to Dec 3:

Nov 27: book in late to camp to prepare for deployment of marshallers on the 28th
Nov 28: deploy and ensure everything is set up by 0715. this is later followed by 1 x 24 hour ops duty.
Nov 29: finish duty and resume office work. Oh yes, NSmen FFI screening. yes, that is the only 'free' day.
Nov 30: another 1 x 24 hour ops duty. zzz. oh and NSmen medical review too. time to use the clone machine for a bit.
Dec 1: finish duty, back to office. Grandfather's birthday at night, i'll prob end up sleeping there.
Dec 2: just the day i thot i would have nothing. considering that i would have not much sleep over the few days, there's still the draw for the tourney to do. shouldn't be too hard.
Dec 3: chalk! "fun" 9 ball tourney *nods* 1200-2200 *GAHHHHHHHHHHH*

forgot to add, when those times i think i will be free, i might just get attached out to high command of EX switchblade, meaning irregular hours. to add on to that, i have to do a montage for the Change-of-Command for Comd Tradoc to be finished in 2 weeks. and no, i didn't volunteer for that.


the good part about all this is: if everything's done well and properly, i should have a lot of days off, but no time to clear it. ain't life grand?

wierd huh?

I had this strange dream last nite. A dream i could not shake off even after i have woken up.

It begins on my way out from church, walking to an unrevealed destination. Why would i be on the other side of the road (going towards Jurong) under the fly-over near my church, i do not know. My laces kept coming untied and i hate to stop every few paces to tie them. Sounds nonesensical, rite? Here's when it gets bizarre. I spot a 10ct coin on the ground, proceed to pick it up and then spot a $1 coin slightly behind that. As i pick them up, i spot yet another and another and another, and i just keep picking them up. Some stuck in the ground, so i had to dig a lil. Motorists gave me curious stares, as they spot a young man kneeling, diggin at the ground. I just ignored them as they zip by. I had a large pile of coins when i dig and see this thing which is not a coin. I continue to dig around it and suddenly i stop. I realise what it is. Its a skeletal hand and then i start to see the rest of the outline of the skeleton. After this, the rest just simply doesn't connect.

I dunno what this means nor what it is trying but it has kept me thinking. My dad might be asked to retire soon, and if not for his govt job, his medical bills would have been un-manageable. Thank God for seeing us through thus far but i have to think abt the future a lil. Without the medical benefits, i dunno how it'll turn out. So i'm thinking of getting a part-time job. Work 4-5 days a week to bring in some extra money to help out at home. I'm no longer a child and can't say that it is not for me to provide. So if you have any ideas for jobs i could take up, please do tell me. I'd be willing to hear you out. Thanks.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.
Afraid of falling.
Falling so many times.
Times i bleed my heart out.
Out there where people see me not.
Not my will, but Thine.


you know the song, "Did you ever talk to God above?"

someday, God willing, that prayer would be answered.

till then.

nanonanonanonano....wheeeeeeeeeeee

yeah... (:

nano today, capone next month?