muuhhhh eyeeessssss

had a bad nose-eye day..my eyes were so dry! had to keep dropping eye drops to keep them moist if not open eyes also quite painful. then keep having to chase my nose.. work was fine..was doing appeals today.

so basically had to read thru the "sob-stories". well...some of them are legit but when they aren't fulfilling the clauses, guess its time to be 'hard-hearted' and reject them once again. well well..learnt to 'fake' an approval letter.. mine came out not too bad k! tried to copy the real ones till they were almost identical.. so identical if non of them said anything you would have thot that it was real! :P (r--i--t--e..!) so now i'm a pirated forger LOL :D

then went to hit some balls with the local indian hustler..played quite ok if not for my eyes which were burning out of their sockets..my friend did spot one of my major errors..said my head tended to lift up at the last moment thus losing the aiming point..so guess have to keep my head down more..

anyways there's this dumb show on ghost-hunting on ch 5. haha..imagine this scenario, you're sleeping when 4 pple burst into your room.. you throw something at them to hint to them you're not to be disturb..they seem to take the hint and leave. but 10 mins later they come back in chanting some rubbish and putting up some lights so you sneak up and pull the plug on their light. they freak out and run back downstairs. then they pull out a board with many letters and expect you to play with them, when all you want to do is to be left alone to continue sleeping. well thats precisely what those pple in that show were trying to do.."hunt a ghost" really looked like some video that could have made it for "america's funniest home videos"

anyway signing off..i remember its 28 days more to ns. haha..how time flies =/

stressed tennis or tennised stress

talk about stress man..! i was so stressed today at work. see the work had to be cleared really quick and the supervisor wants it to be cleared..so was rushing the work and realised that a lot more things had to be done. and most of these things my cousin didn't and hadn't done. well i seemed to have taken a more leading role in doing it and been delagating work to the other staff as well..sometimes i feel bad. so when i had to find the missing pieces and stuff today..i felt quite under pressure to 'do well' and do my job..so embarrassing :P

well really had a good time at tennis after work today..seems that i've picked up a couple more things and well i'm playing slightly better :) cept for the slight knock i picked up when the ball hit my racket's rim and hit my eye..so there's a little bruise there now..

so tired..

methinks i'm gonna sleep quite soon..falling asleep typing this post heh ;)

btw..songs of the week are "if i had a million dollars" by bare-naked ladies, "simple kind of lovely" by maroon5 and the accoustic version of "she will be loved" by the same group and "innocent" by fuel.. haha..!

nites ya'all..btw..its 29 days to go!

the essence of time

heard this on my way home from lunch from a father of two daughters..

daughter: "look pa..we're only going to be 5 mins late.. its better than being 30 minutes late which is whole lot more later!"
father: "well..5 mins is alot of time. see 10 pple are waiting for me. so 5 mins to 10 is... 50 mins. and that is alot of time isn't it?"
daughter: "ummm..."


well..really found that interesting and had my head thinking abt that for awhile..guess i should be more punctual, ya?

couple of things to do this week..
- mum's birthday on thurs
- tennis tmrw!
- badminton sat!
- save more money :P
- physio on thurs


and yes i'm wondering what has happened to my faithful taggers..seems so quiet there.

200th post..

long day today..was so busy covering my cousin's duties..got a bit overwhelmed by the amount of work and like realised how slack a cousin i have.

doing extra work to cover but at least it was good i guess..i feel good at the end of the day when i saw all the work completed. :)

went straight to gf and played with a couple of the guys there..won 7-5 (with 2 golden breaks) and lost 6-7 to bryan and won some team gf member 5-4 (with lots of safety play)..not bad..even though haven't touched the cue for like quite a while.. since sunday heh.

playd quite well after that at rc but like the table was really bad..so apart from that i could well, drop out of that playing rhythm and get right back into it is really a good start..tmrw's there's still ept tour at klassic (which sounds really..phoneyy!) and i have to work!!hahaha..alternatively..i could sleeeeeeeep in..*rolls eyes & yawn*

and yeash this is my 200th posting.. :) its been so long..haha..and didn't realise that it's finally here! haha...but well..just another small marker on the road..

btw..joseph has like such a "lucky" mouth. the first time it happened was when he told kevin that he was going to try the 5 ball combination if kevin missed the ball..which he did..and jos pulled off the combi like it was a piece of cake. today's the second, when edgar missed the 2, jos said he's going for the 9 at any cost and then he made it..incredibly. guess whats the third..we went for supper at west coast..then we ordered teh tarik..but the guy took like forever to come, by which time we were thirsty and had almost finished our food..so we decided to heck care and order from the drink stall across us..as the guy was getting the drinks for us, he said, "after we buy this only the teh tarik will come.." well he wasn't that far off..i had only filled my cup when..yes, the guy with the teh tarik came.. -____-

well done joseph..! well done! -______-

now i'm all awake la!

really ahchoo-ed

woke up today feeling really sick..ugh..

didn't head out for work today and still feeling lightheaded and throatless.

gonna go down to the polyclinic to see a doctor later and at the same time get my ankle checked out. its been really bad of late.

still feeling like going to sleep..again.

uuuugggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..!!!!!

aaaaahhhhhhhchhhhhhooooooooooo

haha..bad nose day. my sinus really acted up today.. 'ran' thru 4 packets of tissue within the day..literally 'blowing my own trumpet' haha..got made the slight brunt of jokes in the office..

speaking of which, today wasn't that a killer day (if not for the nose) but it was tough and fun in a way..had more staff to help us out but some of them turned out to be more non-committal than i thought. haha..apart from that the ankle's really bad..seem to have really bad muscle spasms in my ankle and they really hurt. apart from that, the work was good..what made the work light was prob the company (its like really good to have pple who are naturally funny working alongside you :) also lots of wierd cases, like these person has 2 mothers, and like how would you address someone's mistress? yeah, that got my sups stumped. lol..really funny day.

wantd to run today..but didn't in the end cuz of my ankle..then couldn't book the court so no badminton on friday =/ really quite looking forward to it and now its off. really tough to book man..hahah..owells..went to buy groceries and stuff after that..so that i won't spend so much on food in office..like really..you'd be surprised how much i've been eating since i started work. and yes food = money. so if you waste food = waste money. thus more money = more food..erm wait..that doesn't work out rite! hahah..

well..hopefully the ankle will get better..! its like quite bad today and don't want to get it any worse.. songs of the week has been, "me and my monkey" by robbie williams, "falling for the first time" by barenaked ladies and "hold on" by jet. it'll be a while before i get some of those lyrics up..quite meaningful some of them.

and yeah my 'desk' has now 3 styrofoam coffee cups and they're all decorated by..me! haha..got so bored while waiting for my work to respond so i drew a herd of sheep..haha..workplace art huh? ;) maybe show it you peeps when i finally quit haha..

ouchh

work was a killer today. a huge stack of those levy forms ended up on everyone's desk but heh still managed to clear my pile of work from my desk. didn't move from my desk except for a 'power nap' and a toilet break..a couple others did too but like the rest still had alot leftover. btw there's like another mountain of papers to go thru..really doubt we'll finish by the 19th. quite impossible, really..

and yes more raves and rants..btw..there's a family thats quite cool..there's like 6 kids and their names all start with 'A'..and not those normal names but "cheem-cheem" names. haha was too busy rushing thru the forms so didn't really take it down. and i found out that the fastest i go thru a form that only needed checking was 18 secs haha.. ;)

and yes..the thought of tennis after work just kept me going. didn't really play very well. donno how to hit the backhand even though some pple *prod-prod* make it look so simple haha..guess it boils down to lots of practice *shrugs* and then the doubles game was crap..kept double faulting.. =/ need more practice and like eugene can really serve along with dn chia against the two joels who couldn't.. hahaa..no prizes for guessing who was losing but! didn't lose! ah-hah! the lights went out as we were serving for the game at 2-4 (yes, joels 2). earlier called a fault from dn chia's serve and then foolishly didn't move out of the way -__-! yes ouchh.. but i'm fine lah..

then went to rail road place or sth to follow jq to return and borrow some movies..then tried to get some food from cold storage and 7-11 but didn't see anything appetising so left with a 'big gulp' of 100 plus..then while waiting for the bus to go back, saw a shop which sign read to me as, "life's like a bagel" and wondering why it looked so wierd till jq told me that it was actually "life's like a booze!" -_-" felt really stew-pidd after that.

saw this quote and thot this was really cool, goes like this, "chance makes our parents, but choice makes our friends" so choose wisely :)

past few days have been alright..did what i set out to do and stuff.

one of the more experienced (and older) temp staff left for another job so means more work coming in. gah..and my cousin's taking 2 days off this week so.. -_-!

ended up playing pool instead of sleeping today..bad choice haha..but *shrugs can't chase the time back, aye?

this is gonna be another long week and i'm still ranting and raving about those forms whose applicants either can't read (low levy conversion is for maids for parents/grandparents over 65 and/or children under 12 -- but pple apply for themselves, their sister/brother, uncle/auntie)/spell (hmmms...so do i give low levy to pple who have a monther at home? -- maybe 'monther' = mother-in-law .. hmmms..)/understand (like 'read' only that when you ask them about whether xxxx is their auntie, they go, "no..she's my mother's sister" -- d'oh..!)

yikes~ anyways tennis tmrw at jq's place at 7..and touch nfl on sat was quite fun..haha..like my team's plays and like it ain't fair that their wide reciever is 4 years younger and 4 times as fast as this old fart sitting front of the pc :P

btw..the last post wasn't really directed at anyone..just felt fustrated that sometimes (because of upbringing/perception/opinion,) we tend to read between the lines..when we shouldn't and we're all guilty of it sometime or another, myself included.

there's more to life than just the girl

well..things just seemed like a blast all week..having fun, working out doing the things i always wanted to do but never did..feeling good and all that and then "bam!" sth happens and now it really seems quite pointless to carry on.

maybe its abt time to come clean.. maybe its abt time to say that i just guess i've been misunderstood.. maybe its time for me to say, "hey, there's more in life than just the girl".

in another 40 days i'll disappear into the system called national service, all i want it to have a good time before i'll have no time..

to those who know me well enough.. you'll prob know of my interest in someone and you prob know that i just got two left feet. guess i have my problems expressing myself and stuff.. haven't ever put my feet right into the right path and while its changing.. i'm not too bothered by what i do anymore.i'm not too bothered by what to care abt..what pple think and what you feel anymore.

but sometimes i wish pple could look at the big picture and not get sidetracked.. life just sucks when everyone looks at you like a freak.

Check out this cool pic!

Thanks, James.
Thanks, Lianyi!

speaks of my impending doom.

haha.. =)

been really draining at work, but the after-work activities have been keeping me going. first, monday's badminton @ cck, tuesdays' squash/table tennis @ jq's (which i was made to run in circles), and today's badminton @ clementi. played 3 hours today and well thot it was quite good..(considering i hadn't played at that level since i was p4?) so like my fitness program has gone quite well hahah..cept i lost weight when i should have gained.. rofles =D

still got lot to learn to improve my game. can't serve for nuts haha..

might go running tmrw and then see how abt friday ;)

work work

had posted on sat but then the post got chewed up..

owells a short summary..started work on tuesday (you guys know that already), weds was spent in the mail room then thurs onwards was furiously attacking the coms to check and amend the info (so to those who's parent(s) applied for the low levy maid thingy, pls remind them incomplete forms and bad handwriting is really a pain in the ass to process) haha..really..can die going thru those forms.

thank God for a good week on the whole, and a good job with a good work environment. and also for good colleagues. starting a brand new week is tough..i don't feel like going to work today :P but don't think i'll have a choice.

caught bourne supremacy on thurs and it was good :) the action scenes, car chases, the predictable plot but it was still good. however, those who are fans of robert ludlum (guy who writes the bourne series, 4 books altogether - identity, supremacy, ultimatium, legacy. you'll be disappointed to know that the book and movie aren't the same)

and ain't it ironic at times when you're just waiting and looking forward to seeing someone and then hesitate and then find out later that person was looking forward to meeting you too?

and somehow i still feel vindicated..even now.

"we have two ears and one tongue so we should listen more and talk less."

back from the first day of work! and aiyoh i'm so tired!! :(

doing data entry at MoM and while didn't really work much (actually started work at 1030 and ended at 1700), i was so tired..kept dozing off when i wasn't doing anything. see, there were 3 guys to 1 pc, which was me (who's new), my cousin (who's more familiar with the data check) and this other guy (who has the id and password but not very familiar). so we took turns to do the data checking. finished random checking approx 500 names.

looks like i'll be trying all the food available from hong lim every lunch hour..haha the bak kut teh wasn't fantastic..the meat was nice but thats abt it..the soup like not very nice and the yuo tiao like too thick. haha..anyways..

work ended early..like the whole bunch of temps (10 of us) all left at the same time..so went to the qshop to get the moori s that i clamped on friday.. justin said that it seemed like a moori q. so good haha..now to let joseph test it..

and while heading back by train, its suddenly stopped at tiong bahru due to a "track obstruction" so thot jialat have to get out and change..then it started moving again after 15 mins.. (guess i was too lazy to move..not that i was sitting but standing -_-") then it stopped again at redhill then i saw what the problem was. someone/something was on the track (most likely someone) got knocked down by the train..could see the scdf officers looking for something under the train..no blood and gore though haha..

anyway did i mention my muscles are all aching from monday's running and tennis? =X hahaa..now super aching haha..craps siah.

tennis & work

finally manage to get myself moving to go for a jog. and under the hot blazing sun, it was a wonderful tiring jog..! like the 15 mins i spent seemed like 2 hours..lol..

then went to collect my O lvl cert from my old school..which has changed quite a bit..like the general office is downstairs..so i walked up the original lvl then walked down haha..and yeash i finally got it haha..

so after that went for tennis..quite fun! getting some stroke back but have to work on my backhand..can't seem to hit for nuts..at least can serve ok now haha..

and yesh! i'm going to start work tmrw!! haha..like finally and when i only have 50 days left..wierd siah.

anyways..have to sleep early..dun wanna be late for work :P

also actually this happened yesterday but had wanted to keep it a surprise. bought deception point by dan brown yesteday when i had nothing to do and finished it 6.5 hours after i started. yikes~ haha..just started on the teeth of the tiger by tom clancy. don't think i would finish it soon.

heh movies to catch soon..bourne supremacy, the terminal, dodgeball haha..!

two funny things that need to happen after i rpess the "publish post" button

i would usually blog first then go ard my routine of checking other pple's blogs or forums..
but this is the first time i had to post..


grace: "if there's a procrastinator that's better than me i'll like to meet the person. my room's been really messy for 1 MTH already and i can't sleep and do my work well if it's messy can't do my work at all and so my tutorials are not done. got to sleep "


haha..that person should be me. i've procrasinated watching collateral ever since it came out and haven't caught it yet and...i've not packed (besides pushing my stuff into the only neat pile in my room) my room for nearly 8 years? procrasination all the way..

teh win!

btw check http://www.jadeit.com.au/jcsworld/war3.html this out!

of hydrophobia and phobia of roller coasters

well..some things i meant to make clear but didn't or rather feel like making clear but never got the chance to.

first, i guess i've some minor form of hydrophobia (for those who can't tell :P its fear of water)..no idea where i got it from or when the fear started. but if my feet can't touch the ground i somehow really start to panic, mildly. well haha..so swimming at the deep end's a no-no for me. strangely i'm fine in the normal end of the pool (where i can reach the bottom) or when i can't reach the bottom but it ain't that deep that i can't kick myself back up..

but guess on thurs it wasn't that bad..somehow all the tossing INTO and OUT OF and dunking helped a bit..and yes mr plasticine rules k!

and the other is the fear of roller coasters..although i've been able to take some of them which were probably done when i'm either on a death wish or just willing to scare myself out of my skin. on a completely normal day, nothing could make me go on one heh.


and off topic..i'm quite fascinated with the descriptive writing of dan brown, been thru his books like no one's business. really spell-bound/captivated/caught up in his works. can't believe i finished 2 books in 6-7 hours each. once again..read with discernment but with an eye for his detail of description.

gonna stay up for the closing ceremony later..i mean like if i caught most of the olympics whats one more nite?

and caught harold & kumar today..incredibly hilarious but yet so subtle the hidden meanings. apart from excessive cursing *rolls eyes* it was a really entertaining yet eye opening movie. wierd it only shows on saturdays and sundays..

and like lisa, grace and danny had to go back for sgbf and i had till 7 (for my dinner appointment) so i walked to city hall and...

went to phoebe's place for tennis and then swam abit/played alot in the pool..

quite tired now..just finished a bit of food leftover..
still hungry but..lazyyyyyy hahah..
54 days to go!

procrasinator~

sheeeshhhh..for the umpteenth time this week i have procrasinated catching collateral. --" stupid time waster that i am. well 55 days to go and i'm slack..i know i'm slack..i'm know i'm not supposed to be slack and i know i'm supposed to be doing something else and not be slack BUT.. i'm not doing it.

*rolls eyes*

heh stole the mouse cursor from someone's blog ;) and so must thank him/her :) haha...doesn't show up everywhere though..but anyways its so nice! ahhhh..

yeah! the pics from viattorre are finally here.

btw i've got an account at multiply.com, http://thingie.multiply.com and the pics are there. haha..to those who aren't interested..whatever :P ;)

and its my parents' anniversary today! :)

so we had lunch at crystal jade, had like dim sum and it was quite good.. then pool in the afternoon..

and yes sg idol is good..some of them are the sg idiots and some of them truly deserve to be idols, esp the deaf and the speech impaired two..heads off to them..


and yes i watched the encore..! dohh!

wow..really..past few days have flown past.

started with ept ranking on sat which i got frozen out by quite a good player. lost like 7-0 in under an hour. didn't do much cept sit in my chair. :( guess that means i've still got a long way to go =/ then yf was fine cept i was quite zoned out..a mistake on my part. considering i only went to sleep at 6 in the morning after watching the men's doubles finals which was like 6-4, 3-6, 17-15 to the croatian pair. forgive me i'm lazy to check the actual scores but i remember it was sth like that. a 4 hour match zz -_- but nevertheless very entertaining. BUT..i had to be up by 10 in hte morning so i got abt 4 hours sleep. which meant by the time ept started i was ready to fall asleep (which i didn't) and for yf i was too tired.

then sunday was really ok. went to qshop to get the set of balls for galvin's birthday prezzie (happy birthday dude!) then back to church for sgbf. watched the national day rally by the new PM and wheeeeeeeeeeee!!! i'm so happy! hhaha...he said that all civil servants including army personel would have a 5 day week! lol...! and yes olympics till 4 am. hahaha..like why must they put the 100m finals at the end of the night! *grumbles*

so well i just got up. and my aunt told me to get an application form and fill it up so that i can take up a part time job when there are vacancies..yikes hope they do it fast..


owells and yes 58 days to go!

yikes..guess what olympics does to me.

now i'm an armchair/couch potato..i just sit there and watch and channel surf..but like most of the sports i don't follow hahah..

table tennis, badminton, soccer, tennis perhaps but gymnastics? weightlifting? handball? swimming?

yikes! hahaha..

just came back from proverbs ii at febc..

have this to share with you guys

10 better choices in life

1. Wisdom > Wealth
Proverbs 3:13-14, "13 Happy is the man that findeth wisdom and the man that getteh understanding. 14 For the merchandise of it is better than the merchandise of sliver, and the gain thereof than fine gold."

16:16, "How much better is it to get wisdom than gold! and to get
understanding rather to be chosen than silver!"

2. Humility > Pride
12:9, "He that is despised, and hath a servant, is better than he that honoreth himself, and lacketh bread."
25:7, "For better it is that it be said unto thee, Come up hither; than that thou shouldest be put lower in the presence of the prince whom thine eyes have seen."

3. Fear of the Lord > No fear of the Lord
15:16, "Better is little with the fear of the LORD than great treasure and
trouble therewith."

4. Love > Hate
15:17, "Better is a dinner of herbs where love is, than a stalled ox and hatred therewith."

5. Righteousness > Injustice
16:8, "Better is a little with righteousness than great revenues without right."
"Work as much as you can, Gain as much as you can, Save as much as you can and Give (to God) as much as you can."

6. Peace > Anger
16:32, "He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city."

7. Integrity > Decietful
19:1, "Better is the poor that walketh in his integrity, than he that is perverse in his lips, and is a fool."
19: 22, "The desire of a man is his kindness: and a poor man is better than a liar."
22:1, "A good name is rather to be chosen than great riches, and loving favor rather than silver and gold."

8. Loving Wife > Contentious Wife
21:9, "It is better to dwell in a corner of the housetop, than with a brawling woman in a wide house."
21:19, "It is better to dwell in the wilderness, than with a
contentious and an angry woman."
25:24, "It is better to dwell in a corner of the housetop, than with a brawling woman in a wide house."

9. Love Expressed > Love Suppressed
27:5, "Open rebuke is better than secret love."
28:23 "He that rebuketh a man afterwards shall find more favour than he that flattereth with the tongue."
13:24, "He that spareth his rod hateth his son: but he that loveth him chasteneth him quickly."

10. Faithfulness > Unreliable
27:10, "Thine own friend, and thy father's friend, forsake not; neither go into thy brother's house in the day of thy calamity: for better is a neighbour that is near than a brother far off."

just had to share it, thot it was very good. anyway all verses are from proverbs and the version's kjv :) most of them (if not all) should need no explanation but if need be, just tag

after that, i went for a long walk by myself to a bustop where i could get a bus back and that was good..quiet and alone and all :)

and somehow i feel tired after it --" haha..

owells..

of pool and buffets

wheee :) first bc with the p2. hopefully many more to come..(which considering that the 2nd ball was a fluke..i should be happy :)

did it while practicing alone after rajesh pangseh-ed me (cuz smart him forgot he had to refree a match later that evening!) but was really feeling sluggish and bloated the entire day too..no thanks to a stuffing from a dim sum buffet.

like met anthony for lunch at some restuarant. bugger's stinkin rich (can you believe he is my age and like has a gold card?) and fat :P so he order we eat and it was like a lot..hmmms 16 dishes? donno lost count after they decided to all start arriving at the same time. so full can? now i need to work it off again..argh!

anyways after the solo practice went to the qshop where i left at ard 11. was playing pool on the 7footer there..8 and 9 ball practice with justin. and i can tell that when i'm tired i play like crap.

and like so sorry small one! big one forgot all abt your birthday --" so hope it made it up to you :)

well..the rest of the day wasn't that bad afterall..

did a lil' trade with anthony..quite happy now heh.

playd a bit and not too bad..wondering if i should go and play tmrw too..then rest on thurs instead of the other way around. well we'll see..ask pple later.

stupid jere..pulled me out of my slumber to play guard with him and joseph. what a waste of my time! like seriously.

today's fireworks were good :) and longer than last weeks ^^ very nice!! too bad its over hahah..see lah..tell you all to go see no one 'hiew' me. anyways..today was ok lah..stepped in to cover for jon and like after service had lunch before going to cine to catch i, robot which was good..based on the same book as debbie's play. concept the same, characters and everything else is a lot different, lets just put it its made for the screen.

anyways, i just realised i've got 6.33 gb of mp3s in my hdd..like haha..oops..music pirate i am. :P like click and let it download then ooops! =D and yes, i went hmv after putting it off for super long and guess what, i didn't pick up anything! dohh! anyways got my mind set on the quite old 3eb album (which someone lost for me) and prob sth for the dude going in 2 mths ahead of me..

"i thought i found the girl of my dreams, so it seems. this is how the story ends, she's gonna turn me down and say, "can't we be friends?"" <--- wahhahaha..btw this is from jamie cullum's album, 'twentysomething' but you won't won't find it in singapore. hilarious song. think there's still another song somewhere in that 6+ gb. find it later.

"AH CHOO! excuse me..i'm allergic to bullshit!" (WHAHAHAHAHHAAH!! teh win! :)

aching

yesterday's tennis was good..found a bit of my stroke back..still gotta keep working on it too. like i can't hit anything with my backhand. anyway we played some 2+ hours before going for dinner and i was pooped by that time (not that i did run a lot..)

went for dinner then back home and was dota-ing till jo msged me for at.. heh tried a orc-hmn combi and it worked quite well except for the first map which was erm...really a bad map to play, so lost that one and went on to win the next 3. two were really nothing big..but one of them started with very badly (their hero harass me) and we were on the verge of losing. luckily, they made a couple of mistakes and we managed to win. hard fought one.

so i went to sleep at 6! hahah...now i'm up and abt and i'm aching all over! decided to turn down the invitation to west coast and stop pool for the weekend..at least till monday (will restart on tues) and now i've got nothing to do, save for going back to play more warcraft :P

fuckin' screwed up

i hate home sometimes. hate to stay at home. want to go out for supper/drinks can't..reason being "what if you are in the wrong place at the wrong time, then get killed or injured or sth" like wtf. its like not gonna happen la. damn fugged up. can't she see? i'm old enough to take care of myself to make sure that nothing bad is gonna happen duh. like seriously..

first my stroke screwed up now this. fug it! i hate having to be told what to do all the time. i hate this stupid rule. i hate all this shit abt stuff happening that should have happen years ago. now i'm sitting in front of the pc pulling a damn black and long face.

everything's really fuggin pissin me off.

p i e c e s

my life is in pieces i guess..

pool's not been good.. i'll play well for a while and then things don't work out.. losing focus before i completely throw it out the window. don't know what i'm doing and what i'm doing wrong. also i feel myself stagnating again... can't seem to get past this mental barrier and improve..

at least friendship has been going up.. though sometimes i swear i've got pple trying to stab me with invisible daggers.. but apart from that, there's been new friendships made, old ones not forgotten and hurtful ones forgotten.

well.. guess someday the pieces will come to place and i will be whole again..

so first, i'll try to concentrate on pool. the key word being try..

and i'm not too keen on discussin the other pieces that are apart right now..

cycling, sun, and other stuff

today was really quite fun :)

danny and lisa planned a cycling trip to pple's houses to wish them a happy national day, take a pic and give a lollipop.. sounds really funny..too bad lisa couldn't make it..

then i was late in waking up, like i got up at 11..so had to push the meeting time back to abt 1215 then danny's tires were flat so he had to pump so by the time we first met up was already 1235. reached our first stop, lingwei's then on to the next stop where danny, broke his pedal (like woohoo well done!) and then onto nancy's place, who wasn't feeling too well, but she made it out to welcome us, then down the canal to amanda's place followed a rest stop at lisa's :) then we slacked abit more and then left at ard 1400, only to discover her tires were almost flat. so had to go esso to pump and that was at 1430 when we reached esso and viola! her tires weren't flat, they were punctured! --" so had to get back and then change a bike. following that was just a smooth journey all the way to west coast park where the teens were kiteflying and some of the j2s were playing touch rugby and stuff. so after accompanying them all the way there, then turned ard and headed for home. by the time i got home was 1540 i believe..so got a scolding for being late..haha..it didn't matter..i was having too much fun to care abt the time :P

then went to my auntie's place at u.serangoon there..watched the national day thing and played mahjong :) but today no luck =X so got kicked out of the table in quick succession (each person starts with 25 chips, lose that and you can sit out)..but woo..the level they were playing at was over me head..but at least i learnt much and didn't play too badly :) watched my "pro" uncles and aunties play a couple of rounds and it was like woow..! heh..so like just got back home.. prob gonna sleep soon..

so happy national day :) and happy 39th birthday, singapore :)) (which i've no idea why i'm saying it but maybe i'm hyper on caffiene or sth)

sometimes, we can only talk the talk.

played poorly this morning and it carried forward to the afternoon game..losing 7-2, i had an all time high record of like 13-17 scratches in the game. never played so poorly before in a competitive game. *shrugs just donno what went wrong.

anyway yf was good, glad i made the effort to go. see, smart me who knows the bus routes and stuff took 970 and missed the stop (dun ask me why..!) so had to alight at holland v. then there got shortage of buses going to clementi, like suddenly. so waited ard 15 mins and managed to get onto 7. then went to clementi and tried to change to 154. guess what, that played me out too! waited nearly half an hour for the 154 to come!! -.-" so like i reached church at 7. when in the first place, i could have taken 51 from gf and reach half an hour earlier *rolls eyes fantastic? i thot so too.. =X

anyways..yf was on the book of joel :) haha..and like went eld cheong went over a certain pt i thot of sth. he said that the bible didn't include much information of the prophet joel, it simply put it as God spoke to the prophet, who is the son of so-and-so. but thats all the information there is. eld cheong put it this way, says the book basically is abt the message of the book, that like although when we hear the message at sermons or sharings, we look at the life the person is living...cuz as my title put it, "don't talk the talk if you can't walk the walk" its true la..but this time its just about the msg and what an apt name for the prophet giving God's statements in this book, jo-el is split like this and it means "Jehovah is God"

well apart from that, walked lisa back with grace and dawn and geez it was so hyper..i felt so old :P haha..but it was fun..thanks you three! :) (should you see this that is)

age ain't everything @)$&@*#&

i've got no patience anymore to argue after spending the better part of the last 3 hours fixing the damn %)#*)(*$##&$^ external hard disk to no avail. then a simple enough conversation became warped enough to fly. my goodness. age doesn't denote experience, when will people ever get that.

honestly, if he wants to stay there, i dun give a #()*%)(#&$# damn anyway. afterall, all i said was, "i think the place cmi" and that gave it wings to fly too.

yes the damn thing still can't work and i'm pissd off by/with it enough already. prob gonna sleep tmrw then go hmv and pay louis then go gf and train for sat.

and don't start talking to me abt the shallowness of it all.

days have just gone by

seem to be updating less nowadays. don't seem to have that interest or that sparkle in life for now. been bit-torrenting music past few days to fill up my muvo. even my pool has taken a backseat and a decline.

besides the good news (as always abt my cue), nothing much interests me besides getting my stroke back and having good music to groove to. sighh.. =S

my viattorre!

just heard from jackson (viattorre) that my cue has been started on! so happy :P hahah..changed a couple of things now the bill has gone up but like its now purpleheart instead of cocobolo. however i think i might leave the buttsleeve as cocobolo instead..would it look wierd if i had purpleheart points and cocobolo buttsleeve? (tell me whatcha think!)

been bombarding him with my emails haha esp after shawn and desmond got theirs :P

gonna change the description in my templates later. and church's silver jubilee anniversary dinner later too. have to be there earlier to help out with the door gifts or sth but i'm feeling rather lazy :P heh

i wear my heart on a sleeve

its been a long time since i felt this feeling of being so terribly screwed up that i can't seem to associate it with anyone, anything. but yet i'm feeling it now. i hate the way things are yet i am either powerless to do anything abt it or i just couldn't care less. never understood why i feel ths way or react to it this way either.

its just a matter of don't care, don't want to care and what the **** is happening.

sometimes there's a silver lining to every dark cloud, and sometimes there ain't.

got the spots?

heh went to theqshop to get the spotted ball :) sharing it with jo, jere and kev. lol..

yeah its 4 am and i'm still awake. like you would too if you read the "da vinci code" :) its a great book as long as you don't get stuck to believing its actually true. there are too many facts that are wrong and besides the very basis of the book in my opinion is false.

but that kept me up from 11 till now or rather 3.30 heh. like 4.5 hrs of reading. eeeks hahah..its been awhile since i stuck on to reading something so intriguing that i don't even do anything else. =P

just to give you pple some fun, a couple of anagrams came up..see if you can figure it out, if you can't tell me heh. if you can keep quiet (esp those who have read the book! :)

13-3-2-21-1-1-8-5
O, Draconian devil!
Oh, lame saint!

ankle's better :)

just woke up :( meant to stay up for the copa but fell asleep in my room. heh at least brazil won..

ankle still hurts like a nag..supposed to go to a sensei but man i hate that..swelling went down ofter the nite thank God. :) just a bit of tightness when i move the foot upwards and sideways.

have this $40 voucher for hmw considering what i should get. =S

"i am...vindicated, i am selfish, i am wrong, i am right, i swear i'm right, swear i knew it all along..and i am flawed, but i'm cleaning up so well...i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself...so clear"
- dashboard confessional - vindicated

arghhs of guard and sprains

had my this entry gone twice --"

anyways summing up, on weds i went poolfusion3. not too bad the place..had the funky cueball but the cloth, cushions and lighting wasn't the best i've seen. played relatively ok there. rates wise also a bit on the high side..

then thurs had like guard la..with jo, alex and teh. managed to walk out winning enough to cover the table *shrugs (at least its a start) and like boy, like the 'traffic' was fantastic. ;) also realised sth. i was playing with my p2 then wasn't exactly able to play well..so i switched back over to the joss and began to have my confidence in my stroke, in my game. quite bad i know.. -_-"

then fri went to gf to train since they have good rates for ept players. then ended playing guard with justin and bryan..even giving me the 8 still can't save me. sighh..really learnt a lot by losing. at least i guess i'll be more confident in future.

then went for supper with jo..eat already talk cock then go over to his place that time my bike went into a ditch and i sprained my ankle really badly. it seemed better as i let it rest and as we headed over to his place.

well this morning it like swelled double or triple already..super pain now..even the slightest touch sent my scream factor up (yes its that painful =S) dunnoe what to do abt it. can't even walk 5 paces and i just sprayed some aerosol thing for sprains. prob bind it up in a while. doubt i'll be walking fast/running this couple of days. least of all play pool sighh..

wow incredibly. played for 5 hours and only managd to sqeeze 9 out of him. kinda let him off the hook once too often. sighh..if only i was as sharp as i was before he came. like i break cleared one rack and then after that jo broke the next and scratched and i ran out.

was using the joss too..its in quite a need for a new tip..draw or shots that are hit harder has that horrible 'thwack' sound. at least 1 break clear today. 93 more to go.

realised its been awhile since i last blogged and read pple's blog..this strange lethargy seems to envelope and come over me.

like just a brief run through, nothing much interesting has happened this week, strangely. maybe cuz its just been home in front of my com or reading or out playing pool or soccer. its nice lah but sometimes it gets a wee bit boring. money's flowing like the river out of my pocket and i got bills to pay arghhh..

blog again later if i feel like it.

borrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddddddddddddd!~

was so damn boring at the sembawang chalet thing. first off i don't think its meant to be a chalet/resort. there's nothing to do there, apart from a pool (which you can't swim in unless you're wearing sexy swimming trunks -- which i have none off, like wats wrong with broadshorts? *stupid rules) which is 1.2m on one end and 2.8m on the other, a gym (with not much equipment), a video-games room (with not much games), and a restuarant (which is empty at lunch & dinner time). rooms were just as bad, apart from a comfortable king-sized bed (which i spent 2/3s of my stay, in), the toilet was clean and the tv miniscule (like 11"). no other amenities like mini-bar/fridge or soap/shampoo or room service or freebies. so much for holiday. *grumbles

also lacked the discipline to do my QT past 3 nites --" have no idea why. just damn sian.

"The pen is mightier than the sword, and considerably easier to write with."

"Pacific Sun, you should have warned us, it gets so cold here.
And the night can freeze, before you set it on fire.

And our flares go unnoticed.
Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired.

We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible.

Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live.

Pacific sun, you should have warned us, these heights are dizzying,
and the climb can kill you long before the fall.

And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and covered
just as soon as they are crossed.

We are, we are, intriguing. We are, we are, desirable.

Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live."

Dashboard Confessionals - Several Ways to Die Trying

"I don't want to understand this horror
There's a weight in your eyes
I can't admit
Everybody ends up here in bottles
But the name tag's the last thing you wanted

As the world explodes
We fall out of it
But we can't let go
Because this will not go away
There's a house built out in space

I can't see that thief
That lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at
The side of you bed
I don't know what's happening
And I can't pretend
But I can be your, be your

Someone help us understand
Who ordered this disgusting
Arrangement, time and the end
I don't want to hear who walked
On water, because the hallways are empty
And the clock ticks

As the world implodes
We fall into it
And we can't go home
Because this will not go away
There's a house built out in space

I can't see that thief
That lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at
The side of you bed
I don't know what's happening
And I can't pretend

It's a long, long get away
It's a long, long get away
Make it home again
Make it home again
It's a long, long get away
It's a long, long get away

I can't see that thief
That lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at
The side of you bed
I don't know what's happening
And I can't pretend
But I can be your, be your"
Our Lady Peace - Thief

nice songs. :) get it from me when you see me online ^^

went for paintball (should be pain-ball) in the evening after waking up at like 4pm heh. was really really fun :) (but really ex!) and its quite adrenalin pumping action the whole way thru. its also a reality check when you realise you can't dodge the pellets like neo in matrix or shoot two-handed like chow yun fatt and certainly can't see anything. the pellets travels at 320 km/h so like when it hits it really hurts. so it sounds like this, "pop-thwack (miss-hit barrel)..pop-thwack (miss-hit barrier)..pop-aaaaaAAAAAAAAAAA (hit-hit me!)" .i've got 7 bruises so far and counting. muscles are so gonna ache tmrw.

would have rather gone for tennis, cuz its free but i guess i won't be pain-balling anymore, its fun for a one-off thing but way too pricey to do often but its great for working out hahaha...! =D

"We act as though comfort and luxury are the chief requirements of life, when all we need to make us happy is something to be enthusiastic about."

feeling really kinda down of late, some personal stuff again. things are probably all in the mind, i guess. been trying to set things rite and really trying hard to do stuff like qt at nite and proverbs in the morning and sometimes even a simple task like that feels like climbing a steep cliff.

didn't make matters better that greece won, serena and micheal (@nero who got it spot on at 1-0). but well the better side won, and thats justice. ahh owells. thank God i don't bet =P

i'm so damn pissed. i feel like punching him there and then but i didn't. temper temper.

he didn't want to pay me anymore. says i've been slandering him by saying that he owes me money (which he still does, but he doesn't seem to think so). says pple have been asking him questions abt him oweing me money and stuff and thats not my problem if he has sullied his own reputation by oweing pple money or cheating others of money. it ain't my #*(@&%(*#*$ problem. he even got the cheek to threaten me that he can ban me from ph. my ass. i dare him to do it. he does that, hohoho, he can forget abt his post. freakin power abuser. i bet he has the money stashed up somewhere. forever giving that lame-assed excuses.

anyone need the details, just leave a comment or msg on my tagboard, i'll get back to you.

*fuggin pissd off*

didn't post last nite was a bit tired and was a bit ticked off at sth. and oh yes, all those who didn't get affected by the blackout, lucky you :) (cuz i didn't either! =)

had the national u21 match last nite which i lost to jere but then again both of us didn't really wanna play each other. like out of the 7 other matches, we're the only table to talk cock and shark each other after each shot. like every other table was like so serious (like lighten up you guys!). went to champz after that. boy, i love that place :) really nice..the table runs well, the balls are shiny and clean and the place is super conducive to play (but its damn ex!).

watched "the devil's advocate" on 5 last nite and its really such a 'steep' show, was kinda reminded in less than subtle terms of how much of an adversary is the devil. and to warn us to check our pride and vanity as he quoted, "vanity is my greatest sin" so thus if we're vain, we're taking upon his (devil's) will (free will, we choose to be vain not that he forces/makes us to be vain). should go and watch if you can, like download =P or dvd/vcd.

apart from that, the p2 really really really rocks~~ haha..i'm like super high hahah..really love my new cue :) heh..cut a ball in with extreme right english when the object ball was frozen to the top rail and 3 diamonds away from the pocket...amazing!

"Proverbs 30:8-9 Remove far from me vanity and lies: give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with food convenient for me: 9 Lest I be full, and deny thee, and say, Who is the LORD? or lest I be poor, and steal, and take the name of my God in vain."

firstly a summing up of my days, realised i've not had the energy to blog daily like before. addict that i am! =P guess too much euro + last minute pool training has taken most (if not all) my energy.

friday: had a soccer gathering for the guys in church and it was good. the new boots felt good and the game we had was good too, played a mini 5v5 and had 4 goals =D haha..should be good to see those guys for sat soccer more regularly too.

saturday: was thinking of going to batam but then again had ept tour in the afternoon so i had to abandon that and treat it as a good warm up for nationals. had a good time, won 2 and lost 2. the 2 i beat were kamotecue (4-1) and dennis (at last! 4-0) and the ones i lost were against luqman (which i should have bbq-ed him even if i gave him the 8 but he got too lucky, like how do you play with a guy who somehow gets safe everytime you miss and somehow managed to play safe even though you left him safe? not to mention the 2 flukes on the 9 =/) and the other one was against coool but he was shooting much straighter than i was so thats fine. didn't make it to the quarter finals but at least ended the day on 4 pts and 10/9 (racks won/lost) and at least a 50% ratio. was quite tired after that and while waiting for galvin, continued to hit a couple of balls ard at the next table, he finished 4th however. then we went to century and it was ok lah. didn't play as well as i did at mspf.

sunday: went to century after dinner and played a couple of hours, not too bad, getting some stroke back then came back and watched more euro. and got news my p2 has landed in sg! :D

monday: (which is also today) haha..just got news that my p2 is at gregs! (whooopeee! =D) gonna head there later to collect it then training at century again. heh. can't wait..in fact i'm gonna shower than i'm off :)

"When we are motivated by goals that have deep meanings, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing, then we truly live life"

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

been nearly a week since i last blogged. heh..i think i've been kept busy by euro2004, cycling, soccer and pool.

not too bad, so far got quite a bit of the results rite, then got the por-spain rite, rus-gre surprisingly spot-on @ 2-1 rus, eng-cro rite, fra-swi spot-on, ita-bul rite and den-swe spot-on (which i felt was fixed), followed by this morning, hol-lat spot-on and cze-ger rite. so not too bad. heh.

apart from that, nationals are next week! and i haven't fully prepared myself but owells..

tmrw got soccer in church and i'm prob not going to batam. don't see the point to go there and then not give it my best. cuz only the best for the Lord will do and giving it half of it isn't just rite.

"2 Timothy 3:12-14 Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution. 13 But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving, and being deceived. 14 But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned3129 and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou hast learned them;"

ok got the france-croatia one wrong. like way off. but then again i was too tired to care. fell asleep after the prso goal then woke up to see david trezeguet handle and then put the ball into the back of the croatia goal then sleep again and then cycle back and sleep again.

haha..today went to jq's place to swim and 'relac' and then afterwards they had dawn's and grace's birthday thingie but i left to play soccer first..

with joseph and his friends. cuz his friend like talk until he quite good then in the end we played them and put like 6 goals past them before they scored one. then played till quite long then other teams started arriving. and then we switched to 2 goal knock out which we won one then got knocked out. then waited for quite long, had our turn and then got knocked out quickly. so when we finally got our turn again, we managed to beat his (joseph's) friend's team (and i put 2 past joseph! ^^) and then scored one against a 'mat' team before they put 2 past us.

at the very least i've got some of my scoring touch back, hit in 5-6 goals tonight i think. but i'm still slow to recover and come back so have to work on that. stamina's improved and my ball control still needs some work. my ball trapping still can la :P

quite tired and i'm not gonna catch the match tonight. tmrw still got chi high soccer which i won't take such a big role, cuz i think i hurt my knee and like its a bit sore but we'll see. tonight hmmms..prob italy 2-0 or swe 2-1. then den-bul prob 2-0 den or 1-1.

"The problem with the gene pool is that there is no lifeguard."

free enneagram test

haven't been doing much besides catch the euro2004 at joseph's place and last morning's at elvin's place.

like having, a stick-thin-drama-queen, a fungi-breeding-500pound-gorrilla and an artist-that-almost-lost-his-leg was quite fun for a change. (not counting the hour-long bike ride to to his place which was up-down 5 hills and back) well..so far my predictions on scores have been ok lah..got the win correct the score still somewhere off. like yesterday i was guessing 1-0/2-1 portugal and it turned out 2-0, 1-0/3-0 spain and that was off cuz they drew 1-1 against greece.

then tonight was eng vs sui and i guessed 1-0/3-0 and at least got that rite..rooney's 2nd goal was funny. he shot, hit the post, ball came back off, hit the back of the keeper's head and went in.
predicting prob 3-0/2-0 france later when they play croatia and i'll prob go to fong seng for another 2 pratas (mushroom cheese roxors! =) and then going home to sleep for the afternoon at jq's place then evening soccer with joseph.

"Trust in the Lord with all thy heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil." [Prob 3:5-7]

back from watching germany and holland draw 1-1 (ger-thorsten frings 30th, hol-ruud van nistelrooy 81st) and it was quite a good match (it would have been better if holland did win =P) then i cycled back with dn chia's bike. think i should really consider getting my own. heh. oh and joseph called debbie a call girl lol..cuz she only calls girls. (dun see the logic but i still think its funny HAHAHAHA)

oh and i'm considering going for the batam thing on the 26th. have to see my family schedule first then.

"The hardness of the butter is proportional to the softness of the bread."

tired to blog sunday nite but blogger screwed up on me and i lost a 30min post. --"

anyways,
Saturday was spent on sports (as if i didn't have enough of that in church camp), went for soccer in the morning, squash/table tennis in the afternoon and pool at nite. then i watched portugal lose to greece for the opening match of the competition. heh like i seem to be able to predict closely to the final score. (was predicting por 5-0 or gre 2-1)

Sunday was normal by any standard, cept for the seminar and the 3 hour nap in the pa room after lunch. the seminar was on neo-theism and kinda scary, they say that God gives man full control over our own lives and does not know all that we do, He also intervenes in the affairs of man, at times. that means that God cannot be all-powerful (since He intervenes, when He pleases), all-knowing (since He doesn't know all that we do) and ever-present (since He isn't be there to know what we do). but i do know that God is omni-sience, omni-present and omni-potent. thank God for that assurance. also the morning sermon by rev peter clements was so good! kinda like whats happening to my dad and shows how the power of God works in us, not by ourselves alone.

really liked the example he gave us, he took out a glove and commanded it to lift up the lid of the cup. the glove obviously couldn't. then he gave the glove an example of how to do it. and the glove still couldn't. so finally, he put on the glove and then proceeded to lift the lid of the cup. his hand is a representation of God, and the glove us. see without God, nothing can be done, we're just the branch without the vine and its thru the true Vine that we are able to produce fruit.

then the 3 hour nap in the pa room. lol didn't realise i was so tired, was sitting down waiting for hsien when i first dozed off, then decided lying down was better than sitting up so went to sleep on the floor and didn't really wake up till 1740 heh. was much awake after that.
went for dinner with my grandpa and parents and after dinner during dessert, i suddenly raised up the point of soccer betting and its similarity to stocks and shares. haha..like you need to know the competition (or the market), you need to know the players (the way the board works), and you need to know the team (or the company). so doesn't it seem familiar to you?
went to stay over at jos' place for the euro matches, after playing pool till 0130. predicted a fra 2-1 win over eng (zidane roxors! fra > eng) even though france left it very late to win, the other result i was expecting was a 0-0 draw.

Monday woke up at 11 at his place. had breakfast (thanks auntie! :) then went to shoot some till 3+ then came back and played NFS:U heh. been on it since last week before church camp. and then went back to jos' place at nite to watch the ita vs den game (which predicition was all wrong - i said 1-1 or 2-1 to ita) left after that match and came back, played another race and then went to sleep.

Tuesday so far ain't much happening, apart from my life in NFS:U =P and i'm gonna borrow dn chia's bike for the rest of the month so i can hop from place to place heh. ^^ maybe gonna shoot some with jere at rc (geee --" 3 days in a row) then head over to church to collect the bike then go jos' place. germany vs holland tonight! haha and i'm gonna say 2-0 to holland or 2-2 draw. heh i think my mei will be pissed at me for saying that, she's a germany supporter :P lol but then again germany good? (NAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!)

"99% of lawyers (liars) give the rest a bad name."

quite tired today dunno why..prob from the super long active day yesterday.

like soccer in the morning where i first sprained my left wrist and then got whacked by the ball on my right wrist then to jq's place to play squash and table tennis and sleeping in his bed then to pool junction for their opening.

first things first, i think that place is quite nice but..the prices are too steep, the tables too cramped and the cloth an awful red colour. so red cloth and red chalk. the chalk didn't hold and got all over my hands and cue arghs. and then melvin chipped off a bit of his buttcap of his new viattorre..so i guess the place's kinda condenmed already.

went for church and had a very good msg from rev peter clements, who reminded me of my dad. like 4 major operations and paralysis and the guy still keeps going strong. hard to imagine..seriously. then had lunch and bumped into clarissa who had joined galilee last week for their youth/bible study and is comtemplating staying there or at pandan then went back supposedly to help hsien with sth but ended up sleeping on the floor for the next 3 hours. fantastic.

now am at jos' place and gonna watch the france vs england game, just played pool and realised i've got too much on my mind to play properly..sigh..

"And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; and patience, experience; and experience, hope; and hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us." (Rom 5:3-5)

wow :) what a good camp. now i do regret not going for the entire thing. owells.

the bus ride up was fast and abit steep (in cash terms) we were there in 5.5 hours (or 5 hours travelling time - half an hour for the break) when like the church coach took like 9 hours. heh =P

the messages were stirring. pullin at my conscience and it really helped me to look into my life and carefully examine myself, and will strive to change for the better! and golly, rev ian goligher is really one of the best speakers i've ever heard, now i totally agree with my aunt telling me how fortunate i am to be at pandan where there are so many good preachers :) thank God for them!

sunway itself was fun, didn't go on the dry rides at all due to a couple of reasons, like, my stomach not feeling too well on the journey up, (had the runs at the tuas checkpoint and like really had to run after my passport was cleared to the toilet to let it all out ;P) then the rides looked really scary, (actually only the tomahawk, the rest were more 'normal') and a repression of ego :P (like sure, act macho and puke after the rides ain't exactly the best way to spend the afternoon, ya'noe)
the wet side of the park i did go and had quite a bit of fun with the floats and the rides and stuff, esp the mats! haha..those were the best heh..the hang time and all :P

then thurs afternoon was spent first at mph where i picked up a pool book, then squash courts/gym where i cycled abit and watched the repeated repeat telecast of the san miguel asian 9 ball hongkong tour leg, then up to the tennis courts where i like had quite some fun playing. didn't dare to take a place in the more advanced court (like serena, dn chia quite the scary heh) until much later but by which time i had two blisters, one on each foot, at the side of my sole. *rule of thumb - don't wear loose socks and loose shoes to play tennis. was quite shaggd after that and then dinner then shower then testimony night.

which was one of the best sharing's i've heard, like from a mother, whose child's glass of water broke while he was taking a drink and that escaped by God's gracious hands with no injuries in the mouth and hands and no pieces of glass being swallowed. truly shows the mighty hand of God :)

all in all i'm glad to be back in sg and even more i'm glad i at the very least went for some part of it :) thank God for His blessings.

"Hebrews 10:38-39 38 Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure, in him. 39 But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul."

managed to wake up early to go and run. heh! a first achievement of sorts. left my place at 0640 and reached church at 0700. then like i reached there there wasn't a single other person i knew -.-

heh went to send them off, and stuff then went back home and fell back asleep. so like i just woke up and i'm gonna have to go to golden mile there to collect my coach tickets up to m'sia on weds! haha..

blog more later..

"How do you tell when you're out of invisible ink?"

like super-packed sunday..

starting off with waking up with an aching body (and hearing my mum nag abt me the weekend warrior) and then have to set up the jw stuff and worry abt the pa system cuz no one else is ard. and like today's msg was like a more indepth and more info abt my house/pillar/material imagery/example i gave yesterday at joseph's place. like when he first started off with the statements abt taking heed abt the foundation we build on and what materials we use, i was like "eh?! so coincidental!" heh God works in mysterious ways! :) Praise God!

then off to gf for the u21 9 ball competition, which my draw was totally horrible. like 1st round drew a team headspot player and then after losing 7-2 by like missing 4 balls in the same side pocket in 4 seperate frames that turned the match ard. then going to the loser's bracket and playing one of the favourites there and like managed a golden break, a slopped in 9 and a scratch on the 9 by him to at least give me a credible 7-3 scoreline, i didn't really think i would even get 2 racks off him =Þ

then to hotel rendezvous for a family dinner buffet-style, which i never really particularly enjoy cuz i dun have much pple to talk to, or even if they were there to talk to, nothing much to talk abt.

then to wcrc for a short hour of pool. which was just average la.

now i'm back home and i think i should go and sleep soon so that i can surprise everyone by reaching church on foot (and i don't mean walking!)

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. [Prov 1:7]"

went to sleep ard 4 woke up at 8+ to find out soccer was being pushed back a lil due to the rain and that joseph was on his way back home from overnight movies at cine. woke up again at 9 to go to play soccer and finding out there were only 5 of us (till kai the liar lawyer came) played till 12+, lunch at beauty world then rushed back home and onto church to meet the supposedly 7 pple on my list and out of which only 1 came, the others were replaced or didn't turn up. *shrugs*

reached his place at 4 then like had a bit of tour ard his place and ending up in his room (like it was only 5 steps from the living room -- short tour heh) then played taboo till the rest of the yf-ers from sarah lee's place came. and jere came too! haha..

singspiration was fine and stuff, chose 'a common love' and 'thank you Lord for the rain that you've sent' and a choice by chee chang/jos 'it is not an easy road' then came the hard part. cuz i thot i was really strugglin to give the short sharing i had prepared from 1 john 1. and like heh jere and jos didn't expect me to be the one who would be the one giving it. i just hope the pts i raised up would help both of them to reflect on their lives and well seek better company. then i closed with the song 'koinonia'.

then was games, which i borrowed 'taboo' from james. haha...everyone had great fun. :) and i think it reflects that as you grow older, you grow wiser. cuz the over-18s beat the under-18s+jere by 4 words :P (or maybe cuz jere was there)

went out for dinner and more fellowship and then we all headed home. haha..i'm like so gonna sleep soon. cuz like tmrw i've got another pool compy.

its been a good day :)

"Ecclesiastes 4:10 For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up."

going to joseph's place later today (hope he doesn't read it before the event) for yf visitation.

pray that it'll run smoothly with God's hand guiding it. busy preparing my sharing for tmrw and for singspiration and games heh. also thank God for his mum, who shared with me that last year after yf visited him, the father threw away one of his idols from the home and hopefully it'll do more this time also, like encouraging jos to come for yf more often and for me to keep 'pestering' him. heh quite stressed now considering its in another 13 hours time. thank God for serena to help me along as well with some thoughts and ideas. now if i could string all of that together to form it. heh.

and i've got to remind my mum to help me and danny book the tix up to sunway lagoon. like a two-way ticket (weds 8am depart sg, fri 2.30pm depart m'sia)

then the gf u21 9 ball competition on sunday (which i've also got double duty and paternal family dinner to worry about) which is race to 7 (handicap 2 racks to ladies), double elimination format which i hope to do my best for.

back to the planning :)

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."

i miss morning runs. like i really wanted to get my 2.4 fitness back so i had ran on mon and tues cuz of the retreat. now back to home and normal life, lazy again. haha..woke up at 0830 to pass keys to hsien and since i saw it was drizzling, i just came back and went back to sleep. didn't wake till 12. lol.

"Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?"

ok well done i just erased an hour of posting thanks to a dumb click -.-

trying to recap.

ok lazy to type out everything in detail.

Monday: woke up late and went to tengah for yf retreat. great fun in games and night activities which included a 'hike' to farmart. good night dev and stuff.

Tuesday: woke up at 0620 and went running with kang. quite shagged after that. i figure we jogged 2 km back and forth so 4 km for the morning. but then again i haven't ran in like forever so it feels like 4 km :P workshop was fine but 'chao' halfway to help johan who was helping bro henry cook lunch, fun ;) haha..then reflections was good. learnt alot to prick me to change sutff in my life. left for guard and more or less break even then took a cab back and had supper and good company to talk to :) before drifting off to sleep at 0220 after having a talk of sorts with kang and adrain and a good laugh at russel (like who doesn't? =P)

Wednesday: woke up at 0625 and went running with kang and nancy and serena. wasn't as shagged cuz maybe i was keeping pace with serena and we didn't go that fast. then combined games day was fun and stuff though i fell asleep during the video msg, "vanishing conscience" which was sth that really told me to check my life and my conscience. surprising though, how i managed to fall asleep to the dismay of my small one (who shot me with her rubber band *rolls eyes). like i was just so so tired..! i couldn't help it! games was like capt's ball, foozeball (with a tied partner -- talk abt being tied down) and volleyball (also tied up). then followed by inter-fellowship capt's ball, which pandan vs jurong was like 6-4 (?) (like cherie was saying carol and sharon or was it rachel and sharon that jurong won --- but i don't think so) cuz i scored 3 (2 field goals and 1 lay-up) and there were other goals from our team, then pandan vs tengah and it was close, (cuz i thot pandan girls weren't doing anything! like 11 tengahites [sounds like termites, eh?] vs 5 pandanites guys [also sounds wierd] was like really quite bad) we had to come from behind to win 3-2, 1 by debbie and the other 2 by jq to win it (like jq's last shot was on the last shot of the game). jurong beat tengah flat but it wasn't a milk run for jurong. so bravo to all teams and pple playing :)

well like past few days have been good and stuff and like suddenly, something just trigger this quote,
"stuck at a T-junction, and all i see is red lights"

yeah! got my downgrade to C1L1 which means i'm fit for some operational vocations and am required to take IPPT but can be excused up to 2 stations and am fit for field duties includiing front-line duties.

well..i got my downgrade and that's good enough for me. i'm not so chao keng heheh..besides i'm going in 22nd oct so like thats some way off. still can play pool, go out and lead a normal life haha..

post more later, going to play pool later and i wanna take a nap.

haven't decided whether to go or not. but most pple seem to point towards trying. so i guess i shall tmrw.

NOW if only i could wake up!

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"You haven't failed till you've stopped trying."

caught in two minds over a lot of things.

starting with the most recent, i had my medical checkup by the ttsh docs and though my theraphist like told the docs she would feel it is advisable i downgrade, the doc that wrote my letter didn't seem to think so. anyways here is it, from what i can make out (from the handwriting)

Dear colleague, i write to you to update on the above patient's condition. He had (L) ulnar nerver anterior transposition in Nov 2003 for ulnar neropathy. currently still has slight (L) UL weakness with reduced grip strength. he also has an old (L) 5th toe P2# which has left him with fixed flexion deformity and he complains of pain with prolonged running. we have advised that he continue with his training as best as he can and we will review its impact on his condition in 3/12 we have also advised that he present early if his conditions deterioate

so i'm stuck. do i go and show it to the MO @ cmpb asap or wait till i get sucked into ptp before reporting sick. both options are have their pros and cons but like seriously, who would wanna get thrown in? i'm worried that if i show the letter, i might not get my downgrade and worse still would find it more difficult to downgrade while inside. or wait till i'm inside and try to downgrade and use the letter as an "i-told you so" and probably get marked for the rest of my 2 years. those are the cons, pros however means that i won't go in anytime soon and with a downgrade, i hope i'm safe. then i can go for the nationals, which brings me to the 2nd pt.

nationals are definitely going to be delayed. like in 2 weeks time is the comp and the forms aren't even out yet. so it would mean a push back to maybe mid or end june (which if i don't get my downgrade i can forget abt going for). so to take a risk, sign up irregardless and hope to get the downgrade while in ptp or just don't bother at all.

and thus brings me back to the first sentence that "nationals are definitely going to be delayed.", which just like my payment from a certain RICHARD WEE (HON. SECRETARY OF SBSC) which he promised on 11/5 that he'll pay on 15/5 that he delayed to 18/5 which he further delayed to 19/5 and which he pushed back to 31-5 will be delayed yet again.

i think its time i got those letters ready for me to pass to him. then gg no re.

"We act as though comfort and luxury are the chief requirements of life, when all we need to make us really happy is something to be enthusiastic about (like God :)"

didn't play well last nite. let physcological reason come over me and affect my game. apart from that i just wasn't gettin the rolls. sighh..

did a test on www.mindmedia.com

"joel, your hemispheric dominance is equally divided between left and right brain, while you show a moderate preference for auditory versus visual learning, signs of a balanced and flexible person.

Your balance gives you the enviable capacity to be verbal and literate while retaining a certain "flair" and individuality. You are logical and compliant but only to a degree. You are organized without being compulsive, goal-directed without being driven, and a "thinking" individual without being excessively so.

The one problem you might have is that your learning might not be as efficient as you would like. At times you will work from the specific to the general, while at other times you'll work from the general to the specific. Sometimes you will be logical in your approach while at other times random. Since you cannot always control the choice, you may experience frustrations not normally felt by persons with a more defined and directed learning style.

You may also minimally experience conflicts associated with auditory processing. You will be systematic and sequential in your processing of information, you will most often focus on a single dimension of the problem or material, and you will be more reflective, i.e., "taking the data in" as opposed to "devouring" it.

Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself - and of others - while maintaining an "openness" which is redeeming. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity is not in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, the more obvious and the more functional"

go and do it for fun. haha..i'm like heading off to mambo2 to play a lil while. then go cmpb tmrw since i overslept today.

haha went for shrek2 with joseph, jonathan and nic haha..damn funny!! :D good show so go catch it while you can! and remember to stay till after the credits!!

went for the mambo u21 tournament for sponsorship and prizes. i gave it my best but i still have some shots unfigured out.

first rd of 16, played with a mambo2 regular called pui ruan and he wasn't as good as he seemed. he was uncomfortable and well not playing his game well. or if that was his usual game, he needs a lot more improvement to be able to talk big the way the does at m2. beat him 4-1 and like i was shooting fine. though the first rack was a bundle of nerves, thank God i managed to settle down.

rd of 8, and faced with the player, my friend anthony, tipped to win it, was alex. now say what you want abt him but he's really good. somehow it seems that some lack of practice at mambo1 or that the tables aren't optinum got to him and he did miss some shots that you wouldn't expect him to. if i was a machine in the first match, alex must have been a better one. consistency. well, i didn't really give him the match on a silver platter and quietly die away, and i feel i gave it my best, winning 1 rack thru safety play, and another 2 from well a mistake from him.

competitions are like that, either you're in stroke there and then or just nothing at all.

tmrw, gotta go for my medical appointments at ttsh. and get my downgrade cuz i really need it.

"As we advance in life, it becomes more and more difficult, but in fighting the difficulties, the inmost strength of the heart is developed"

heh. like jere's losing his touch. hahah..played guard with him and kevin today and like it was me +6, jere -6, k evens. like first time siah. use to be k the one on the losing end and me breaking even. but heck :P played so small and so short while. like i was just getting into stroke and k said like last 3. sians.

went to fly more and crash less today (desert combat alpha). played a dumb map called berlin and like had a new record. i beat my kill record of 110 today with 118. haha..and both in like 20 mins. rofles. the ai abit dumb but heh its quite fun to destress (thats until they start shooting at you)

gonna go like soon. or i'll be late which is fine by my standards. don't wanna be too early. haha :D

"Researchers at Harvard say that taking a power nap for an hour in the afternoon can totally refresh you. They say by the time you wake up you'll feel so good, you'll be able to start looking for a new job"

well so much for last week. i like said that i would want to take a break this week and guess what? i've played like 3 days out of 5. -.- so much for a break. 22nd or 24th there's a new pool hall opening so stayed tuned for that. then like next week promises to be a busy one but like as usual i'll be caught slacking off. besides i've got a competition that week. the first of many to come.

this one's at mambo2 on the 24th. and hopefully i get to make it to the next rd which will be at mambo1 on the 25th, which i have my ttsh appointments on and then follwed to go and get downgraded. :) haha..i really think its a waste of time to go for ptp (seriously)

anyways tmrw going for a birthday gathering. so like this week there was serena's (18th), westin's (19th) and alex's (21st). so for any party you should go to, this week or any week, remember this,

"Never be the first to arrive at a party or last to go home, and never, ever be both."

haven't been doing much these days. either playing pool, or desert combat with jos or staying at home.

yes that guy has done it yet again. said he would have cash on sat, but yesterday he told me that he would have the cash on weds. fantastic eh?

i should like create a blog that i can put every single detail and name it "www.richardweeowesmoneytojoel.blogspot.com" rofles.

anyways, my msn nick always seem to get good answers and wierd ones so this time when i asked "where's my break clear?" in it, i got this answer, which i think is pretty cool so i'll put it down on the qotd.

"the essence of great pool comes from the mind, the essence of playing great pool comes from the heart, the essence of being a great player comes from the Player himself...... thats where your break clear is.."

went for ept today. didn't do well but that was expected. went down 0-3, 2-3, 2-3 and won one 3-2.

well a 'machine' won in the end. and that was after like 9 hours of playing.

too shagged to say much.

oh btw i got my enlistment letter. and i'm going in on 9th june for ptp -_-

and i've got to downgrade soon soon!

anyways forgot to add to thursday's post,

after the movie, (i switched my fone to silent -- unlike certain others) i saw i had a msg. it said this "ARE YOU ANGRY WITH ME??" from a number that i've never seen before. comically i showed it to jos and then i proceeded to reply like this, "yes, i am. but first, who are you?" =D lol. obviously the person must have been fairly confused/embarassed so he/she/it told me that the msg was sent to a wrong number lol.

btw, soccer was great but like the sun was scorching..have ept tour later at gf. gonna just try to do my best. got a couple of things on my mind that i want to put aside when i play.


"99% of lawyers(liars) give the rest a bad name."

went to watch troy today with joseph and i thot it was good. the effects the fight scenes were good. can't say much for the storyline. (though jq has very strong feelings against it) haha..like you throw a spear/javelin from 50 feet away and it hits the guy straight in the neck and flies 10 feet off his horse like foof! power! fantastic animation effects and stuff. good show hahah..i'll like give it 3.5/5

hahaa..and yes don't watch it if you see a bunch of sec school girls going in. the row in front of me was filled with them and everytime homer's baby came to screen you'd hear "awwwww..." or "so cuteeeeee~~~~" or giggling. at least thats better than hearing a phone go off and the guy chatting away for the next 5 mins.

tmrw gonna go book basic theory and then chill out somewhere.

"war is young men dying and old men talking"

talkin to pple like that, its a complete waste of my time

gah`_: eh
gah`_: jackie
gah`_: the # topic you posted
gah`_: when is it postphoned to?
Metz: not sure.
Metz: just that i called SBSC for the entry form.
Metz: they said it's not out yet.. but than the scheduled date to start is 7th JUn.
Metz: and the lady told me that it most likely will be postponed.
gah`_: which lady?
Metz: the one who answered the phone .. duh~
gah`_: sbsc there got 3-4 ladies.
gah`_: duh
Metz: whatever lah.
Metz: you want you call them yourself.
gah`_: i was there past 3 days
gah`_: today, yesterday and the day before
Metz: and did you ask them abt the forms?
Metz: there also no use if you don't enquire abt anything.
gah`_: yeah. but the counter staff doesn't know. says he's guessing next week
Metz: and like i went there to play so i didn't really bother to ask
Metz: well.. you didn't bother ask mah.
gah`_: if they dunno i ask also they cannot tell me

like first off, don't post up anything that you aren't sure of so to mislead everyone else. secondly read before you type and make yourself look like an an idiot. asked if i did ask them and what did i say "yeah" and he said that i didn't bother to ask. stupid dumb ass. waste of my time and waste of my energy.

got a dumb virus i think. under a program called "mdm.exe" eating up my processing power.


"42.7% of all statistics are made up on the spot"

erm changed my skin again. bear with me for the next few days while i shuffle the things ard. or like anyone wanna do it for me? :P

sians..have to re-adjust waking/sleeping hours again..

got a msg from that baskit today. says he will get the money on sat and cuz his dad has terminal cancer of some sort and he's under a lot of pressure which is why he couldn't give me the money. sounds like a whole lot of bs to me.

money thats been owed for more than 2 mths and over 3 classes. he better have a better explanation to where he spent the money. and i'm gonna say that on sat he won't have the money to pass to me.

anyway this is his msg:

wl b getting my money dis sat n wl gv u d money.sorry4d delay cos my dad hv terminal cancer.2much pressure on me. rwee

pple (specifically my mum and some of the counter staff at ph) have been telling me to write a letter of complaint to several parties (namely sbsc's president, gm, redbox, case, newspaper) like its a total abuse of his given power with that community. yeah people hate tattletales but more people hate ratbags like that.

now i asked him how much does he plan to pay me, fantastic answer from him:

i wl check my remittance first.

so well done. tell you more when i get back tonight. getting so freakin pissed by the people i'm dealing with sometimes.

"you haven't failed till you've stopped trying."

church today was fine. i'm like a little bit angry in a way shall get to that in a while.

my cousin's gf (alice) came today so i intro-ed angeline to her and like help her make friends that kinda thing. who would have known that all 3 of them are from cgs (which had slipped my mind completely) and in running years too! (dun ask me the years..i won't say erm..or rather i forgot already :P) so they like dragged lisa and debbie along for a 'mini-crescent reunion' lol..they should have dragged my 2nd, 4th aunt and my mum. they too were from crescent lol although abit the long ago ;)

then followed them for dim sum at red star restuarant or sth (sounds quite communist -- like sickle & hammer) then off to yck for bowling haha..i haven't bowled in abt half a year or a year and i had my best score and average so far today! heh..like 183 :P then the other games were 152, 133 and 167. (you do the math for the average) and my arm is aching a little :P

then went back to church for sgbf and then got ticked off by dn chia abt my plans for church camp. which i'll have to say, enjoy yourselves there cuz i won't be going. like a bit pissed off cuz of the way he put it. like as i planned out, and chee meng's offered solution, if i have two other willing parties to let me bunk in, i can settle my transportation myself, not as if i'm going there for the wrong reason or sth. i want to go and learn more lorh and church camps always the best i feel..but this year i won't be going..sigh.. #&%((*&(@#^^@@^$*@#$

like ain't it ridiculous to pay for and confirm a room and stuff when you're not even sure you're gonna go up? so dumb.

anyways sth i thot off to cheer myself up,
"warm chocolate milk comes from hot, brown cows"

first yf in like what? 2.5 mths and a good msg to revive me :) thank God for that.

and the other one is the 5Vs of Christ. Virgin birth, vicarious death, victorious ressurection, visibile acenssion and very soon coming!

"recipe for happiness: (ingredients) 1 cupful of sins forgiven, 1 cupful of gratitude towards God, 2 cupfuls of prayer, 2 cupfuls of God's word and lastly 3 cups of discipline. (method) mix all together and make sure they are all blended well. then serve. remember to serve daily in large proportions"

have to say i'm quite proud of my mei :)

think you acted really well and stuff :D thank God for your talent and for the way the thing turned out.

haha..apart from a "blackout" on stage and some stuttering/mistakes (can't blame the actors/actresses -- you'd be nervous if you were there) it was great play, unique as it is. very interesting ending and some very cheesy lines which added the comic relief ;) haha..

break from pool this week. played on mon, weds only haha..will restart on mon or sth. u21's coming!! haha..and so is church camp. on the same week summore! arghs...can't decide which to go for. like i want to go church camp but i got the u21's right smack in the middle. so dunnoe what to do. was thinking and hoping if possible play on the first day and if lose, then next day take a coach up to malaysia to join up with the camp. but then i worried that i will win (erm..?! haha..must have confidence mah!!) or play on like weds or sth then like bookin and stuff and rooms like got a lot of problems.

"enthuiasm is a disease. start an epidemic"

went to CGH for some tests and stuff to see if i qualify for some drug test. they're looking for fit, healthy Chinese guys between ages of 18-40 (all 4 grandparents and parents must be chinese) and they're paying like 500 so leave me a msg i'll pass along the email to you. anyways i didn't..my ecg wasn't too good..said sth abt some minor heart block so i don't qualify. sigh..haha..

saw the ugly side of singaporeans yet again (don't we all? =/) this guy was talkin on the fone to his mum/gf (prob the latter) and he was saying he's gonna do all the tests and stuff cuz its a free medical checkup and all that and even if he gets a place, he'll withdraw after that. Its like cheapskate la. not as if he doesn't have the cash and stuff, he looks well-to-do enough to me. *rolls eyes*

came all the way back to clementi to eat laksa and tan tiong boon (national player, galvin's coach) came up and said hi and chit-chatted a bit with me. haha..nice guy :) didn't know he stays at clementi too ^^ and even offered me a lift to ph which i had to turn down sadly cuz my cues are at home. haha..can't believe he actually recognised and acknowledged my presence :P like he = uber pro and i = uber noob. haha..well glad to see that even the greats are humble :)

"we could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in this world"

haven't bc-ed in a month. just like last mth. hmms..maybe its time to bc soon :P

and the ass still hasn't paid me. keeps saying tmrw. i bet he'll say that tmrw too. that $(*&#$&&@(&#@!#). i'm so gonna embarrass him on purpose.

gonna support my mei on fri for her play at the UCC at 7:30pm. anyone else going?

went to taka to work at the xbox live thing. worked only a couple of hours then it was done. haha..best pay so far :D

lots of eye candy too..wasted never bring camera :P

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it or work around it."

played badly again. won 2/4 games. two which i should have won outrightly and didn't and made a complete fool of myself. gg no re. i guess i just suck.

got my joss back, loaning dennis' 314. should be buying it over when i got the money.

cuz the p2 is taking its time to come over. (should be done by the 7th of may) but..shipping it here is another question. and i think i dun wanna incur additional cost to the shop so like told them to take their time to bring it in with the rest of a shipment. the via's taking more than what i expect to come in, i think august is a good and conservative estimate. anyways i don't intend to use it till end of the year or rather the start of next year anyway.

mind is filled with thots. thots of some personal stuff, thots of my downhill game, thots of the money some cheapskate, two-faced, cheating, lying old man owes me, thots of my future. guess its affecting and affected my game to the point i need a break. soon soon. one or two more competitions then a good break.