sometimes i just hate uni life

last week was indeed a killer one. 1 exam, 2 projects, 3 quizzes all rolled into one.

somehow i sense a conspiracy of letting everything accumulate and blow us all into pieces. its like snowball that just gets bigger as it approaches and plummetting you as you collide with it.


some things have been moving really fast, i'm glad but i'm afraid of spinning out of control and landing flat on my face. again.

why do i feel i've been done this path before?


on a lighter note:
today during math, the lecturer was going through partial derivatives and turning points etc. he came unto a sort of turning point called "saddle point". but being brit, somehow my friend, fx, didn't catch what he said and turned and asked me if it was saddle or subtle point. to illustrate to her what it was, i began rocking up and down on my chair as though it were a saddle. it hit home instantly.

unfortunately, it hit home with the backrow. who all burst all laughing. what was more hilarious to me was straight after the laughter, the rest of the class was looking in our direction, completely clueless.

sleep is for the weak, unfortunately, i'm weak.

emo-babble

its been a long time since i've blogged here. photography, jobs and school have kept me far too busy. when i do have time however, its been well-spent with walkabouts and shoots. i don't feel the inspiration to write and come hit me.

lately, i've been feeling a lil down. a project that went haywire, not getting my grades and feeling ever so lost and abandoning all hope.

when the going gets tough, the tough get going

how i wish i was tough enough to keep grinding through this life i have.

thanks to a certain friend who's been around, listening to me vent and emo -_- sorry you had to listen to all my crap =/


my portfolio is now up btw!

please support me! mucho gracias ~

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feels like 24

its 3.30am and i just showered, after hanging out at west coast park, after supper at fong seng's nasi lemak, after die hard 4.0 (review later!), after sparring with W.

all in all a rather unproductive day. which is set to change.

sparring was good. didn't play very well, repeated the same form of tuesday night. slightly better but not good enough. let W get to the hill in both sets twice before coming from behind to win. lots of nerves for both of us today, strangely. i was slightly distracted by the time so that played its part too.

die hard 4.0 was good, i'd give it 4/5. action is quite slick, very entertaining. not much of a storyline but then, who really cares when the action just keeps you glued. simpsons coming out end of the month i think, so no really good shows to tide me till then. have got a coupon to clear though =/

supper at the nasi lemak at fong seng was good. rather the sambal was good, the ingredients were quite standard.

then to west coast park, where we walked ard in the sand, climbed that net thing (rather i just did, jq was too scared) talked abt movies a bit and then i'm home!

that was like an hour ago heh. just showered, prob gonna stay up. econs quiz tmrw on chap 8 which i haven't studied for (although i had planned the last 3 days to-sigh the problems of a procrasinator) as well as one journal and english homework due. will get it all done tonight or rather this morning. prob a short nap and then off to school. tennis tonight too!

cousin's birthday.. hate to lose.. what cousin? *acts blur*

Heh.. wishing my cousin Deuel a great 22nd and well we've got a long road ahead and all the best man!

that came from bowling after their movie and dinner @ kenny rogers.

had a really interesting chat during dinner and well lets say i've got an insight on girls i've never heard before (or heard but forgotten - thats guys for you girls)

we paired up and then the bet was another game on the losing team..

final score was me and kevin 113-79 and 94-95 (i can't remember - think it was 3 points)

i should apologize, should have let deuel win since its his birthday and stuff but well i hate to lose (when i know i can win) =P

well the 2nd game didn't materialize as some of them had to go, so we'll have it some other time.

btw, got my own copy of Freakonomics as well as a photography book :) think i'm gonna be spending more on books of such types anyway.

time flies

wow its been 6 weeks since i started school.

guess the pace of this course is just too fast. i've hardly got time to really "breathe". thank God i applied with my partial poly results, got an exemption from a ridiculous subject heh!

see, i was supposed to take academic writing, maths, micro-econs and music this sem. for reasons unknown to us, you are supposed to take an "arts" subject as one of your non-major electives. however, the only "arts" subject they have here in singapore is music. went for the first lesson, couldn't find my name in the attendance, let the teacher know and voila! on my way to the next music lesson 2 days later, i got a call from SIM to let me know that i was exempted from the subject! all they said was "your poly gave you the exemption" haha..my cousin is currently still stuck there, and says they must have gotten the wrong person exempted =P now if he were smarter and submitted even his partial results, he might have gotten exempted too!

anyways, i kinda like what i'm taking now.

english by far, is the subject i'm scoring at, strangely. i've got a nice teacher who sets easy quizzes and makes essays leniently :)

econs is alright, very very interesting as it is now. i would enjoy it more if not for my crazy-speed lecturer who knows 2 speaking speeds, fast and faster. zip through a chapter in one 1.5/2 hr lecture period. plus the threat of pop quizzes cuz we don't seem to be keeping up to his requirement of 2 hours of outside study per hour of his teaching, (except that he doesn't really realise we're not only taking econs this sem and there are midterms going on this week!)

lastly, maths. which i think i'm proficient at but just so so sooooo rusty. i don't make up for the rustiness by working even harder. why i do that, i don't know. i guess this will be one of the subjects that will continually haunt me throughout my study life. i struggled with it during sec school, even though my psle and o level grades were good and acceptable. i struggled with it in poly, where i would just stare blankly at the question during the test/quiz/exam but know how to do it after i walk out. 3 years later, its happening again =/

have been playing quite a lot of pool and a bit of snooker/number in the past 5 weeks. nice to know i'm still in a bit of shape for pool despite my studying schedule :) however, didn't play any this week, had a lot of physical exercise this week though ;) basketball on monday, soccer on weds, tennis tmrw and soccer on sat.

just did a short 3km run in about 13mins. lousy! guess training then falling sick then not training straight after i'm much better is gonna be a problem i'll have heh. i've always believed that if you're in good physical shape, you're gonna play better pool (amongst other physical sports) its sort of a feel-good, play better thing heh. maybe some sports psychologists can comment on that.

english mid-terms tmrw, worried a lil that i'll not be able to write under pressure but leaving it in the hands of God :)

check back soon, will try to write more often heh!


oh btw, some movies i've watched (ratings in brackets) :
Shrek3 (3.5/5), Pirates of the Carribean (3/5), Fantastic Four & the Rise of the Silver Surfer (3.5/5)

some movies i will wanna catch:
Ocean's 13, Hot Fudge, Die Hard 4.0, Transformers, Simpsons (just saw the trailer today heh)

some other random stuff i wanna do anytime soon: go bowling, have a good bowl of laksa, go-karting, go for a short trip overseas.

orienteering

*koff*sneeze*koff*

thats what i'm left with after a damn tiring week..

monday - last day of work, huge guard score ;) stayed till late to play with CT and G, got home and basically computer gamed till 4 am (totally regreted it the next day)

tuesday - mom woke me up at 8.30 to go for work before realising its the start of the month and i don't work anymore. slept and woke at 9.30 to go do the AV for YC/M's wedding :) quite glad that its finally happened haha..! went for my youngest cousin's birthday at Carlton Hotel, was a lunch/hi-tea thing and then to Oriental for the wedding dinner, which was quite good. started to feel a lil sore at the end of my throat. met Z and his friends for the Liv-Che game and watched Liv score one and save 2 penalties to go to the Champs Lge final. slept at 6.

wednesday - woke up 3 times at 11.30am, 2pm and then at 4pm and went down for another night, this time much tired and in no mood. went over to D's place and had punggol nasi lemak (which i think is overpriced but rather good) and then watch Milan demolish my beloved Man Utd. they were outclassed and outplayed and Milan deserved to win by that scoreline. squeezed and slept at 5.

thursday - first day of orientation and abt as much talks as i can remember about GPA and all that american school system. woke up at 7.30, rushed and had breakfast before taking an hour to get to school from his place. finished it at ard 1, had lunch and then got caught in the rain. ended up reaching home at ard 3, slept and woke up at 7 for dinner with mum before collecting my pay! Hooray! finally been paid ;) slept very early for once at 11.

friday/saturday - day two of orientation, which was supposed to be compulsory (but abt 2/3rds went - i'm one of the 2/3rds =/ ) woke up with a slight fever and fluish symptons, chased them off with a panadol and went. the runny nose followed me throughout the day as i went from prinsep st to running around orchard rd (doing things we'll only do once or twice in lives just to be sporting) then to changi where my butt now hurts from sitting down so much. did a night walk ard the OCH area but its just spooky, didn't expect anything supernatural to happen or did anything happen. left as soon as they dimissed us and headed straight home to more panadols and much wanted sleep. that was ard 12 hours ago from the time of posting =/ slept 11 straight hours, slightly less fluish but still groggy.

more thots in a day or two while i clear my nose and throat of that green stuff

a bad tackle, a lost game, a car accident

did a full shift on saturday..and was so bored waiting for my dinner to arrive i did this,






then sunday came, and i found out there's a new day between friday and saturday, and its called "Lisa"






went for a match with joseph and his team. didn't play very well, we went from 2-1 up at half time to 3-4 at full time =/ took a bad tackle to the right ankle when the opposition midfielder tackled me and got my ankle instead of the ball. but its ok now i guess.

then after the match, we had a screech of tires and a loud bang. ran out and found out there was an accident between a car and lorry. dunnoe who's right or wrong but it did look kinda bad. fortunately there was no major injuries, just probably a concussion for the driver.

lost time and something remembered..

heavy downpours and cloudy skies meant i would miss today's opportunity for that scenery photo i'm looking for. and i'm running out of time! tmrw's the submission date and i don't have a photo to show for it.

feeling a lil anxious i might not get it and thus not go for it in the end.

have to get my butt off my chair/couch/bed more.

anyways i was looking through the archives of this blog and found this, i thot it was quite meaningful so i'll share it again,

The Final Analysis
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centred;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of having selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world your best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world your best anyway.


You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anway

tiredness sets in

yesterday's cage was pretty good. ended up with a trio of malay dudes who were quite good.

not that i did much, but i was still very much tired after along with a sore left ankle =/ came home and konked out from 6-9 woke up for dinner, packed the house a lil before feeling extremely tired ard 12. proceeded to try to sleep but couldn't.

sucks.

the feeling of tiredness but not being able to sleep. konked out at ard 3 in the end. had to wake up at 8 to bring stuff out to give to the recycling company. then konked out till 12. lols.

well at least i didn't follow up with my sleep plan of sleeping at 9 on sunday and waking at 7pm on monday =p


weather looks like its gonna rain and another good day to sleep in. but i've got work to do!

sucks.


btw..this is post #350! yay!

boredom

worked at century on sunday with sebas. first time officially. had to rush off though cuz of a family dinner and that the night dude was late. had a lil scare during dinner when sebas called to say that there was 20 bucks missing from the drawer =.=

turned out to be a miscalculation but that is way too common over there. really contemplating doing that for a month. like what if it keeps happening?!

dinner was alright, some place at kitchener road. going to my aunt's place wasn't. for those who wish what it is to travel in india, just head to the backlanes near mustapha centre. whole friggin place full of them. no respect for traffic either. lost count of how many times my cousin had to horn them to get out of the way. i would have bet joseph would just run them down.

mahjonged the whole night and watch spurs surrender a 2 goal lead to chelski. makes me think, spurs have now scored 7 goals and conceeded 6 goals in 2 away games. heard someone made a big score on 6 goals. eventually slept at 4 and woke up at like close 1. headed to century to meet sebas to collect my pay then home and to Jq's to table tennis till 11. reached home and konked. so i woke up at 11 =P

just noticed that the rain (which is pouring) is coming in at 45 deg angle. wow. boredom is settling in. i should go curl up again and nap *yawnz*

running in circles

crap. i have to wait 1 month and 3 days to get my phone at the 21 month price. -_-

have to hunt for another decent phone..!

might be getting a job from apr-may, crappy pay, crappy place, crappy job but errr...at least some inflow. think 20 days, $40/day.

otherwise, working as a lab rat would be good too..

1.9k, 4 weekends (book-in fri night, book-out sun aft), 4 drugs to test.


which would make a smarter choice?

proh-kras-tuh-neyt

no prizes for guessing what that is. or what it means. points will be given though (not like the points matter ;)

watched Out of Order with my mei. Brit comedy play, very interesting about a JMP (junior minister of parliment), his PPS (parliment personal secretary), his affair with the secretary of the opposition, an angry husband, a detective who goes down too easily, a very inquisitive hotel manager and an oppportunistic waiter. quite a barrel of laughs (:

so thanks for asking me to go, i enjoyed it! (:

when i first decided to go, i was thinking it might be a bit out of my league and understanding, but well it wasn't too bad. haha..well it wasn't my first taste with plays but this one was rather light-hearted and entertaining. its on now till sunday at the DBS Arts Centre and tickets are available from SISTIC.

had dinner at the bak kut teh store at the corner very near to mohd sultan. was quite good, like how it used to be 2+ years back. drinks with the guys later and now home and knowing i have to sleep but somehow putting it off again.

semi long day tmrw. thinking abt working at the pool hall where i play at, in the day. have to think about it this week and then i want a new phone! my dopod's down *koff*koff*hint*koff*koff* and even my trusty n6100 is starting to fail me! noooooooo!

a n73me would be nice ;)

*pant* ACROSS!!! *pant*

oh boy. do i feel old! my legs agree with me and they say, they feel 10 years older =/

the Grand Plan being completed, kudos to the drivers, joseph, jeremiah, danny, freddy! Thanks for allowing me the "use" of your cars to get everyone there and most back. Thanks to all who made it, adrian, kai (hope you two get better soon! meet on the pitch someday soon! ;), ben, jq, chan, elliot, haogen, zhuang, tian lang & friends (bryan, samuel, tianyu (?) and that big dude-sorry didn't get your name *grinz*), lian yi, lian kuang and the above-mentioned drivers.

i hope you guys had a great game and a great time :) i know i did! amidst a lil heated challenges beautiful football and excellent goals were scored.. thank you for all your time and energy. hahaha..i totally ran myself dry, feet refused to respond the brain's prompting to run for that ball which seemed to run so fast tonight (or rather this morning)


in retrospect, i enjoyed organizing as well as being part of this plan ;) as an average soccer player (and photographer, and pool player, and friend, and person) it really  felt like a dream to play amongst friends and everyone having a good time, and feeling that youth again ;)

thank you all once again. it has been a morning to remember! =p