Ace > Jack

just like in bridge, an ace is always more highly valued than a jack.

i wonder now why i've so willingy been a jack for so long and never aspired to be an ace.

In bridge, a jack is sometimes used to draw out cards above it. In another words, a bait. It doesn't matter to anyone that that jack was "sacrificed" as long as the end result of a win is achieved.

Also, the term "jack of all trades, master (ace) of none." speaks quite clearly on the fact that being profecient in too many skills, would not enable one to be fully skilled in one specific skill.

The point i'm trying to drive home is that i have never tried to be a master al whatever i was proficient at, whether it was in audio & visual, in gaming, in studies (not that i'm really any good at that,) in human relations, in organization, in pool.

I'm too weighed down by the things of my life to concentrate on one single thing. Take pool as an example, God has graciously given me good eyesight, ball sense and thinking mind. But when, i'm at table, when i get down on a shot, my mind is in a million places. I just don't know why, what and how.

Maybe its time to stop being someone's jack and be my own ace instead.